..Let’s talk about the complicated mess which is my life...
I keep a steady rotation of interesting men in my life. Generally, I enter into liaisons which I know will never work out. I make them fall in love with me, then I push them away. When I leave them, I do it with a show of kindness and regret. I’m gracious like an actress on stage, but not truly gracious. I do not care about these men. I am bored and jaded. They’ve just become something to do. I don’t care how unhealthy this is. It’s what keeps me safe. For now, at least. I’m hoping one day some man will change that all.....
As the daughter of a brutal divorce, all I know is to fight or not fight. I have a difficult time approaching situations with a rational mind. I speak intelligently but with a serpent tongue. I don’t use euphemisms, I speak bluntly. Usually too bluntly. I am a good listener, as long as you’re talking about something that interests me. I tell people I love them so I can get my way. I exude an air of confidence to procure what I desire.
I’m extremely indecisive (I got 5 tattoos then had 3 of them removed). I am generally high-strung, quick to anger, and slow to reason. I have the uncanny ability to lovingly lure a man in with one hand and slap him in his face with the other. I pack a mean punch yet I don’t like to fight. My birthdate falls on the cusp between Libra and Scorpio, which I guess in theory makes me a “split personality†but I believe my tendencies lie in the bed of the arachnid. I’m really not into passing judgment, and therefore not crazy about receiving it. I’m extremely intolerant, with a high tolerance for substances. I’m lucky enough to have been blessed with: the gift of sarcasm, the joy of motherhood, the impatience of a child, the wrath of a terrorist, the travels of Ghandi, and a damn nice (natural) rack. I wish I could say I had the spiritual enlightenment of the Dalai Lama, but sadly, my beliefs waver and I rarely pray. I have thorough tendencies, am anally fastidious, meticulously neat, and completely unaware (of almost everything political and uninteresting to me). I'm easily bored and easily amused. Moody and frustrating. Sophisticated and smart.
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Things I love: traveling (Dubai was by far my favorite), the Burj Al Arab (the only 7 star hotel in the world), Las Ventanas in Cabo, The Mansion at the MGM, the Connaught in London, Paris in the springtime, Monaco, Monte Carlo (the city, not the hotel), St. Tropez, Nice, Cannes, Capri, Rome, gambling, dancing (especially belly-dancing in the desert), spa-ing, camel-riding, buying jewelry (preferably colored diamonds), fast cars, fast men, dark chocolate, blowing smoke (in all meanings you can come up with), demanding insane concoctions of food from room service (they hate me), hunting knives, Indian arrowheads (I have a collection), Malibu, bikini waxes (the aftermath), Vanquishes, the sound of the horses hooves pounding the dirt as they cross the finish line, reading, cooking (filet mignon in a red wine reduction with mushrooms sauce and goat cheese scalloped potatoes - YUM), dating, love-making (and not in that order), drinking, laughing so hard I have to pee, Agent Provocateur, crying (I cry a lot - "I'm a weeper" - it’s a purge thing), HOT sauce (on everything), making fun of LA drivers, making fun of LA bimbos, making fun of the guys that go for the LA bimbos, karaoke (I suck, but it’s fun), bowling (see slideshow above), playing racquetball, NBA, floor seats at Laker games, boxing, great seats at boxing matches, Oscetra caviar, rosé wine and rosé champagne, Choos Manolos & Guiseppes, hiking in rain forests and bamboo forests, waterfalls, bubble baths (with a bottle of rosé wine or rosé champagne), Cavalia, opera, musicals, pianos (I play), and finally...... p-p-p-p-iiizzzaaa!!!The one and only thing I truly believe in is love. I’ve been in it, I’ve let it almost destroy me, I’ve avoided it, and I live in it every day with my daughter. When it comes to men, I often say I have a wall as big as China’s around me. Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to tear them down. Mine are up for both reasons, and no one has been persistent or strong enough to get them down. One of my favorite quotes by an unknown is: “Love is one of the answers humankind invented to stare death in the face: time ceases to be a measure, and we can briefly know paradise.†I love love, and hope to have plenty of it in my lifetime......
| View Show | Create Your OwnI DON'T PLAY HARD TO GET, I'M JUST HARD TO RECEIVE.My Interests:
The beach - that's why I moved to Maui! I love boogie-boarding
swimming, snorkeling, kayaking, boating, and learning to surf (from sexy surfer beach bums at Ho'okipa).
I love, love, LOVE horses.
Did I mention I LOVE horses?
Here is a picture of the 2005 Kentucky Derby winner, GIACOMO, who I happen to know very well. Giacomo is a little gray horse with a big huge heart. Big enough to win him the biggest victory in horse racing last year.... I tried to get my ex, the meth-head jockey, on this horse but he turned it down. Shows how stupid drugs can make you. And here is a picture of the beautiful TARLOW.... This is one of my favorite horses - what a wellbred runner - the epitomy of thouroughbred class. Here's another picture of Tarlow racing at Santa Anita, under he we do not speak of....
I absolutely love being a mother. I wouldn't trade the things I have learned and experiences I have had and knowledge I have gained and the fun I have had for anything in the world.
I love theater and the arts. I enjoy plays, musicals, opera, museums, and art of the world, such as cathedrals and roman ruins. The coliseum in Rome and the Sistine Chapel are my two favorite attractions. World history fascinates me, and I have made it a point to visit places like the attic where Anne Frank hid in Amsterdam (there are pages of her diary on exhibit); the bridge in Venice, Italy called the "Bridge of Sighs" (there is an old rock song about it) where the prisoners were led from the governor's court palace over the bridge to the prison cells, never to return; and the Sistine Chapel in Florence, Italy with the ceiling painted by MichaelAngelo. I make it a point to see the Nutcracker Ballet when it comes to town. I do things like go to the King Tut exhibit and attend the museum when the “Renoir to Matisse†exhibit comes to LACMA over from Russia.
My father is a French artist and chef and has raised me with distinct taste in both art and food. I also have a great appreciation for fine chocolate, coffee, cigars and wine, preferably red - usually a French burgundy or a California pinot noir. Chocolate - anything Swiss, preferably dark. Coffee - anything Italian, French, Brazilian or Hawaiian. Wine. Yes! I love wine, wine and more wine.
Reds: Duckhorn, Opus, Jarvis, Patz&Hall, Margaux, Neuf du Pape, Kistler. Whites: Marcassin, Bonny Doon, Caymus Conondrum, Kistler. Cigars: Romeo & Juliet Vintage, Gurkha, Davidoff, Padron, Fuente Opus X. Good food makes me so very happy. I have eaten many an ounce of Oscetra caviar (my favorite) and also like Beluga. Hate Sevruga and Roe. Prefer Iranian over Russian and both over American. A good cut of filet mignon, an orgasmic concoction of French bouillebase and a steaming hot plate of paella will all do the trick. I am well versed in French, and somewhat fluent in Spanish and Italian. I would like to learn Portugese next, after polishing up my Italian. I love riding horses. I love watching horses. I love ALL animals actually - I'm sure I must have been one in a past life....a Bengal tiger, I'm sure of it.I love reading a good book and falling asleep on the beach. I love traveling and experiencing new things.
I like to shop - not only for myself, but for my daughter, my home, my significant other, my family members, my friends, etc. My taste for myself is eclectic but typically a sexy European Bridget Bardot-type
mixed with a little carefree soul Kate Hudson-type.
I appreciate good fashion and I take full advantage of it. I love being with my closest friends (but she's not friend anymore) and having a great time, without worrying about being criticized or judged.I exercise the way I like to. I enjoy physical activities outdoors, like playing tennis, riding bikes, rollerblading, riding horses, hiking in the rain forests in Maui (want to try Brazil next), and the like. I am not a “hit the gym and pump some iron and spend 2 hours on the treadmill†kinda girl, but I am an avid Sports Club LA-goer, if only for the raqcuetball courts and the martini bar. I love riding horses, snorkeling, surfing, rollerblading, tennis, racquetball, hiking, laying on the beach, reading, traveling, and watching basketball and boxing and horse racing. I love being a mother. My drink of choice is a very cold glass of Cristal Rose, or a French Martini. Of course, I will take a glass of French burgundy anytime. To get my ass on the dance floor - anything Justin Timberlake, Beyonce, Pussycat Dolls or Black Eyed Peas.
Favorite restaurants - Simon LA, Simon Las Vegas, Impala SF, Koi, Spago, Sushi Roku, Mastro's, Cut, Dolce, Katana, Don Antonio's, Ruth's Chris, Geisha House, Mr. Chow, Dan Tana's, L'Orangerie, Patina, Geisha House.
Favorite hangouts - Area, Privilege, Stone Rose, Four Seasons, Hyde, Xenii, Ritz Carlton Marina Del Rey, Skybar, El Carmen (TEQUILA!!), Standard, any place with a fountain and wherever my little ass can find trouble.
The things I am most addicted to are dark chocolate, French red wine, Las Vegas, expensive cigars, attractive attentive caring men (good luck finding them!), Jimmy Choo & Manolo Blahnik & Guiseppe Zanotti shoes.
Yeah. Just TRY and mess with my shoe collection.......
W I S H L I S T:
My dream cars:
Aston Martin DB9 - $170,000
Mercedes Mclaren SLR - $450,000 (the car in the background of my profile)
Ferrari Enzo - $1,000,000
My dream ring:
An oval shaped pink diamond weighing 5.66 carats graded by GIA as Fancy Light Pink, VS2 clarity, sold for $545,000 and was appraised at $1,360,000.
My dream house:
An Italian castle on the edge of Lake Como, with its own private beach, fireplaces, private solarium garden, private railway station, horseback riding, sailing, hiking, cultural tours, historic tours, wine tours, culinary, night life, shopping - price unknown.
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I'd like to meet:
I've met some pretty incredible people, like Bono, Nicolas Cage, Jon Bon Jovi, Method Man, just to name a few. But I do have a wish list...... number one: JOAQUIN PHOENIX. Yes, I want me some Gladiator/Johnny Cash bad boy. Number two: JOHNNY DEPP. Move over, Vanessa Paradis, there's a new sex kitten in town... Also on the list are Marilyn Monroe
Christopher Walken, Uma Thurman, Sean Connery, Santa Claus, and Jesus.NOW. For the MAN I'd like to meet... y'all ready for this? I've got it all figured out. Here goes:
Before I even get to specifics, my first and foremost requirement is that you be a gentleman. You speak with manners, you eat with etiquette, you open all doors for me, and you treat me like a lady - even when I'm obnoxious.
1) Age. Must be in the range of 28-48, give or take - but not too far off. Younger than that is just too immature, and older than that is, well, just too old - for me, anyway.
2) Wealth. And before you call me a gold-digger, let me clarify. It’s not just about money, it’s something about a successful man who is strong-minded and smart enough to build a great career or business, and exudes power and strength in the presence of others. A man who has a “wealth†of friends, a “wealth†of family, and a “wealthâ€of opportunities he is excited about in this world for business purposes is a man I can honor and respect.
3) Looks. You don’t have to look like Brad Pitt, but you must care enough about yourself to be well groomed and stylish and presentable. Prada suits help. Keep your nails neat. Wear nice shoes. Comb your hair. Brush your teeth. You would think that these are standard things, but you'd be surprised how many people just don't know the definition of hygiene. I take great pride in my appearance, and therefore cannot date someone who does not have the same trait. I will say, though, I do kinda like the street look, it's kinda growing on me.....
4) Sports. Don’t just watch, play. Play rugby, ride horsies, play tennis, do something physical that keeps you in shape and healthy.
5) Fun.
6) Fun.
7) FUN!!! Need I say more? Don’t be so uptight. I can appreciate a man who likes a quiet evening at home, and takes his responsibilities to his children and his work schedule seriously, but PLEASE, for God’s sake, take a moment to enjoy life. Take a moment to enjoy me. Laugh, dance, drink, bungee jump, whatever your idea of fun is, do it, and share it with me. I will enjoy virtually anything that brings a smile to your face. You don’t have to be some crazy thrill seeker (not that I can’t handle that) but you need to at least have some idea of what women enjoy and what a man and woman can enjoy together and INDULGE ME.
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8) Hair. No rugs or plugs, please. Natural, healthy hair is the only way to go and if you’re starting to lose some, it’s okay, it comes with age and it’s perfectly natural and usually very becoming to most men. Small amounts of gray can be very handsome, within reason. Salt and pepper is very attractive (Hello?!?!? George Clooney, Billy Bob Thornton, etc!!!) Shaved head and mohawks are very sexy too.
9) Spontaneity. I love surprises. There’s nothing a woman likes more than to receive a beautiful bouquet of flowers on a Tuesday for absolutely no reason. My standards even go a little higher. I like a man to “sweep me off my feet.†Yes, I have the fairytale vision of a handsome, wonderful, caring, sensitive, strong, powerful man loving me intensely forever and ever and being my best friend and attending to my every need and desire. That being said, when a man can take it upon himself to figure these things out about you and surprise you with things that fulfill these wishes is fantastic. A man has to be intuitive enough to know when a woman needs something and he has to deliver. And it works the other way, too. But I am old fashioned and think it is definitely up to the man more so than the woman.
10) Class. I’m sorry to sound so pessimistic, but the majority of men in LA are so very crass. They have been taught by our fake, superficial pop-culture that money makes you "cool". I was raised by a woman with a lot of class - my mother - who moved me to Europe and taught me about the finer things in life. She taught me (beyond "age gracefully" and "don't get plastic surgery") that class comes from the people you surround yourself with, class comes from the way you carry yourself, the manner in which you speak, how you treat others, how you expect to be treated. Class comes hand in hand with dignity and respect, something apparently very lacking in the majority of men I have met. If someone here can prove me wrong, be my guest. And don’t think that just because you hang out at the Four Seasons or the Peninsula that you’re “classy.†That’s just where all the guys with money (not class) go to buy the local gold-diggers who are waiting at the bar for the next big wallet to walk up.
11) Likes to Travel. I want to see the world. If you like to travel, we will get along well. I have seen a pretty good portion of it, from various states in the US, Hawaii, Mexico, France, England, Italy, Prague, Germany, Austria, Hungary, Switzerland, Lebanon, Dubai, etc. There are still many places I would love to see and many I would like to visit again. I cannot deal with a man who is close-minded and confined to his comfort zone, and one time zone.
12) Foreign? (I am not gonna lie to you, I like accents.) This is a bonus, but not a pre-requisite. Canadian, French, Italian, Brazilian - there are a lot of ethnicities I admire, because of their fascinating culture, their food, their history, their accents, etc. Although, if you are foreign, I ask that you speak fluent English so that we can communicate. Communication is difficult as it is, and then to throw a language barrier in there is, well, frustrating to say the least.
13) Loves kids. I have one. She is 7 years old and the most precious, kind, well behaved, loving little girl in the world. She loves life and her energy and compassion are amazing. I like men who have children because then, to some extent, they get it. They understand your responsibilities, they know where your heart belongs, and they grasp the intricacies of a parent’s relationship with their child. This is something I feel very strongly about, so if you don’t already have children or you don’t want anything to do with children, stay away.
14) Religion. You can’t be all crazy religious - I believe in God and was raised Christian and I leave it at that. I am accepting of different religions and believe we are all entitled to believe in what we want, but when we try to force it on others, it becomes vile and invasive.
15) Mystery. I love men who are honest. But you don't have to be an open book to the max. Men that possess mystery intrigue me. When I lie in bed at night trying to figure something out about a man, his feelings, his intentions, his "je ne sais quoi" - it drives me crazy. You have to leave something to the imagination. Make me curious. Make me want to know more and more, dig deeper and deeper.....
16) Personality. Don’t have a bunch of wacky personality disorders. Don’t be bi-polar. Don’t have a drug problem, I just had an experience with someone I was madly in love with who turned out to be a drug addict and it broke my heart. I loved him very, very much - and this person threw me away for a meth pipe. I have never been so hurt in all my life. I'm still scraping up the pieces and trying desperately to put them back together. THERE'S NOTHING SADDER THAN A BEAUTIFUL GIRL WITH A BROKEN HEART. Please - have some self worth, at least enough not to throw your life away for a high. Someone who is respectful towards others, and also has self respect. There’s nothing worse than a man (or woman) who doesn’t respect themselves and treats others poorly because they think so little of themselves. Insecurity, possessiveness and control are my 3 biggest turn-offs (after recently dealing with someone who was all 3 combined - YUK!). I will give you NO reason to be insecure. I will give you NO reason to feel possessive of me. And NO ONE should have a reason to try and control anyone. I need a man who is secure with himself and does not feel threatened by me, my activities, my friends, other men - BE CONFIDENT. Not cocky - CONFIDENT. I love a man with strong character and a powerful presence. A man who has a strong desire to get everything he wants out of life and will go to any length to get it.
Also, you can’t bring your issues from past relationships into ours. Men who drag their spite for their ex, or their anger from their divorces, or their mistrust from infidelity into a new relationship need therapy. I am not a therapist. I am a clean slate, a fresh start. Pretend like you’ve never been in a relationship before. Start with no inhibitions, start with trust. There is a common misconception in new relationships that you have to start out guarded, and be apprehensive and untrusting of the other person, but I am here to tell you, it doesn’t always have to be that way. You can try the “innocent until proven guilty†theory and it just might work if you’re with the right person. Don’t play juvenile games, like making excuses and hiding behind alibis. Be upfront and straightforward about everything with me and you will be surprised how patient and tolerable I can be. You need to be able to communicate, talking and listening are two key components of a healthy relationship. If you are not fully capable of these two things then we are never going to get anywhere.Bottom line: Treat me the way I want to be treated and I will reciprocate. I am the most loyal, honest, giving, caring, sensitive, strong, grounded, and loving woman. I do not tolerate insensitivity, mental, verbal or emotional abuse, or lying. You have to be completely honest and upfront with me, and in turn I will be the most non-judgmental and understanding woman you have ever met. I will help you in any way I can, I will protect you in any way I can, and I will love you in every possible way I can. And I expect the same in return.
Music:
I love music. All kinds of music, classical, contemporary, country, alternative, some rock and pop. My all time favorites are: Aaliyah
Van Morrison, Ella Fitzgerald, Coldplay, Norah Jones, Nirvana, Elvis,
Editor at MySpace ToolBox Patsy Cline, Alicia Keys, Billie Holliday, Chet Baker, Aretha Franklin, Johnny Cash, Ray Charles, NAS, Thievery Corporation, Kruder & Dorfmeister, Dean Martin, Frank Sinatra, Black Eyed Peas, the Doors, the Stones, Garth Brooks, George Strait, Willie Nelson, Louis Prima, Louis Armstrong, Roy Orbison, Les Nubiennes,
Editor at MySpace ToolBox Shakira, Gypsy Kings, Jimi Hendrix, Bob Marley,
Music at MySpace ToolBox Sting, U2, Eric Clapton and many many more. And of course I can't forget the greatest rapper who ever lived, and one of my favorite poets, the late and much loved Tupac.
Now I have to give serious love to my multi-talented friend "Snoop" Douggie Stewart, of the band "Hee Hee Hee"
check them out at www.shelbymm.lib.oh.us/ohiomusic/heehee/heeheehee.html.
Movies:
It Started in Naples, Goodfellas, Ben Hur, Walk the Line, Shrek, Pulp Fiction, Good Morning Vietnam, Breakfast at Tiffany's, Sabrina, Wizard of Oz, How to Marry a Millionaire, James Bond movies (the old ones with Sean Connery), anything with Audrey Hepburn, anything with Christopher Walken or Robert DeNiro, and anything with horsies.
Oh and I watch a lot of porn. For ideas.
Television:
Deal or No Deal (only because my girl Kristina is the wardrobe stylist), Desperate Housewives, Grey's Anatomy, Entourage, Sex and the City re-runs, Curb Your Enthusiasm, The View, the news.
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Books:
Maneater, Dude Where's My Country, Strip City, Paradise Burning, The Bitch in the House, Killing Pablo, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Starter Wife, Fast Food Nation, Poetry of Rumi, I Heard God Laughing, Blow, Lipstick Jungle, The Devil Wears Prada.
Heroes:
My mother
and Jesus.
