I was born on a cool fall night of October at 4pm, and was raised in beautiful Orange County, CA. My wonderful mother is Scandinavian and my father Pequot Indian, giving me a fairly unusual ethnic blend.
I feel lucky to have the two younger siblings that I have - a brother, Jeremy Blue (age 18) and sister, Sarah Dawn (age 22).
We were raised with TONS of different pets and animals, and also learned many unique lessons from our goldminer/timberfaller grandpa. He taught us how to pan for gold, survive in the woods without luxuries, and how to explore old abandoned cabins without falling through the floor (giggle), while our grandma taught us how to garden, play piano, cook and sew.
I am and always have been a complete tomboy, and love doing anything the boys do - whether it was playing Pop Warner Football, Little League Baseball or most importantly, Hockey. In fact, hockey became such a big part of my life that I practiced and trained every morning, then played 2+ league or pickup games every night I could. When the day came where I was good enough to start traveling on adult co-ed competition teams as a forward, I was ecstatic - that was such a great accomplishment for me at 16!
From the ages of 5 through 16, I was beaten and severely teased by my merciless peers. I had always been a genuine bookworm (I began reading at the age of 2) and had huge coke-bottle glasses, bad hair and came from a poor family. So when I graduated high school at the age of 15 and began college as a Psychology Major, it only made matters worse.
Even in college fellow students would treat me badly, while pointing and laughing when my mom dropped me off at school (I was too young to drive myself).
Believing no one should have to tolerate such antagonism, I decided to make it my mission to prove to them, myself and everybody else that I AM somebody special, regardless of what anyone said.
I had always fantasized about being a model ever since I was 5 years old, so I went with my girlfriend to her "agency" and signed my first (non-exclusive-pay-us-$500-for-nothing) contract at 17. They basically took my money, filled my head with dreams, then sat on their asses and avoided my phone calls. (Girls, any agency who want you to pay them to represent you is a scam!)
When my contract expired a year later, I decided to make things happen on my own and (gulp) started representing myself.
I don't have an agent and haven't had one since 1998, and I don't regret one second of it because everything I've ever done, I've done by and for myself..
I am so happy with where I'm at today and it just seems to get better with every passing day! I take great pride in the fact that I am where I am because I MADE it happen for myself.
I'm living proof that if you really want something badly enough, you really can have it!
Deep down inside I find myself thanking all the people who tormented me in my younger years, because they helped me to have the will that has driven me to make the absolute most of myself, and to go as far as possible in everything that I do. Whenever I feel down, I just remember being the biggest nerd in town for 16 years, and then look at where I'm headed now and wow! I never would have thought it could've gone this far.
Thank you to everyone who has shown me their support and thank you to everyone who hasn't, because either way both sides are motivating me.
