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Glitter GraphicsI'm not an angel or a saint and I really don't know why so many people call me "angel"? My birth name is "Anneli" but my friends call me ~Ina~. I'm born with poetic blood into my veins and you can always have deep conversations together with me about dreams, hopes, fears, thoughts and life. I treat other people in my life like I want to be treated myself. I am easy to talk with, social and very open-minded about many things, but only with people that I feel confidence for in my life. My passion in life is to write poetry and express myself through them, I love this so much that I have gave myself a promise: ~I will never stop writing poems until the day I die~ Writing poetry have made me handle the obstacles in my life and I belive that it's a very good way to express the feelings deep inside of me. I'm going to write all my poems into my blog and you're welcome to read them if you like to and feel free to leave a comment about any of them. About my growth: I was very shy when I was a child. I was an easy victim for the other children in school because of that. I never defended myself or fought back, my way to handle/survive my childhood was to write/create poetry of my feelings. It made me feel better and I have wrote since then:-) I was one at the bottom of the pecking order until I quit nine-year compulsory school [for children aged 7-16] . I was really depressed and sick and tired of my life when I was about 15 years old and carved myself into my arms. A destructive behaviour that made me relieve the pain I felt inside of me. I began upper secondary school and got new friends when I was about 16 years old and that gave me more self confidence. My shyness reduced and I began to talk more. I got friends and my self confidence grew more and more for each year. I thought that I met the man in my life when I was about 17 and we moved together. My parents didn't like him and I was very childish then and thought that maybe they would accept him if I got pregnant. So I got pregnant and gave birth to a girl when I was 19 years old. She was premature and because of that very tiny and weak. They put her into a incubator for 3 weeks and she grew day after day and became stronger and stronger. During this time, my boyfriend was visiting us once:-( I thought that the fact that he was a father now, would change his violent behaviour but it didn't. I had to escape from home many times because of his hot temper. Now when I had a baby girl to take care of, I felt strong enough to leave him and never return so I did. I have never regret that desition and I wish that every woman who lives in a violent relationship could have the strength to do the same. He never really cared about his daughter when we lived together and he never did when I had left him either. No chistmas gifts or presents on her birthday, no phonecalls, no letters. I haven't heard anything since the day I ran away and my daughter was 10 months old then!!!!My daughter is 11 years old now and we have a very close mother-daughter bond, she's everything to me:-) It was tough to be a single mom and I got eating disorder and threw up everything I ate. I suffered from the eating disorder 2-3 years until I got cured from it.I belive today that I got this problem because I had lost control of everything in my life, but this was something that I could control myself and no one else!!! My life is okay today and some days I feel okay others I feel down. Problems come and go into our lives.I belive that things happens in our lives for various reasons. I don't have any preconceived notions about anyone and I belive that all people are equivalent. Welcome to become one of my friends if you dare :-))) I hope that I haven't scared you away by telling you openhearted about my life.Layout made by Waterbaby
