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koolaid___11

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About Me

kSAC exits PASSAIC.(but, locked on feelin socal) [s]__reside in camarillo. [w]__classin it at oc & mp. [3]__loven the daily visits to the oaks. [3]__sprinting/jumping for moorpark. [t]__employed in westlake.[mt]___this life is more than just a read through..id rather feel pain, then nothing at all. all smiles, finally. --i've waited for too long to destroy myself now. i watched myself through these restless years with pity, but, no more looking back, never. whats done is done, and i'll leave it as that. que paso, paso. life goes on-- fall and get back up, its a process of elimination. collect and select. dominant predator wins, always. but not always. struggle, struggle, fail.. DAMMIT, haha. laugh a little.some say i'm friendly, sufficient, got it all made out for me. some say things come easy and that i'm a strong person. that i'm easy going, pretty, bombastic, family oriented, hilarious, crazy good then there are those who consider me a bitch, a trick, a good for nothing bullshitter. for say; a liar, a backstabber, a drug feign, a clepto, or just trash. guess what? there's a chance that they may be right.. but what do you think?pick-a-side. but either way, TAKE IT or leave it outside my presence. tucked away and for-good kept away. and i mean it or otherwise stated; to those misfortunes: "GET! AND SCRAM SCUM BAGS!" & to the others that keep it classy wit me... consider to "stay awhile."it might be worth it..

My Interests

__elequent & unbalanced. __risk taker. __love when my wind works. __questions never confess. __alllll emo. __demolished by verbal abuse. __coldstoned 3/11. __now, content. __lockd & loaded, so aim & fire away baby. __hardknock life. __misery loves me. __fulltime everything. __i get EVERYTHING i deserve, dont worry kidd. __i stay busy, for a reason. __watch me crank my batman. __fallin faster... and better. __im no good with words, but your worse. __i heart this "perfect mixture." __love me down baby. __involuntarily insecure. __adored by few. __dont practice santeria. __love + hate = mistakes. __outta my mind. __often misunderstood. __potential. __non-bum affiliated. __stayin out of that troubled circle. __my glances can kripple. __over dramatic. __i miss my nights with the ladies, for sure. __writing a book, care to get an intro?? __DURING, throw me a little. __feel like i will never learn. =) __thanks for the BULLSHIT. __pericings and tats? haha __ill make you do the hula hoop around the gym. __still in commerce with karma. __lady in the streets, but.......yes. __respectfully sketchy. __slow motion fo meh. __show me some spin you've been saving for her mattress. __i prefer to stay on top of my shit. __thankyouverymuch. __all emo.. /SHUT YOUR MOUTH TRICK!

I'd like to meet:

still, my future kidds.."when someone wants something they never had before, they have to do things they've never done before.." -ikeda"you can't control your feelings, your not suppose to.." -anon"to be great, is to be misunderstood.." -emerson"whom goes up, must come down.." -anonView All Friends | View Blog | Add Comment

Music:

afi - miss murder the used - the taste of ink. my chemical romance - sharpest lives. savage garden - truly, madly, deeply. camron - hey lady. three days grace - pain tupac - changes. tlc - red light special. big pun - punish me. lauren hill - turn your lights down low. boys2men - 4 seasons. nelly - loven me. j holiday - bed. kanye west - drug dealin just to get by. juvenille - slow motion. prince - when doves cry. story of the year - until the day i die. evenesance - call me when your sober. nelly - over and over. goo goo dolls - let love in. seether - remedy. fall out boy - this ain a scene. fabulous - make me better. red hot chili peppers - cant stop. wyclef jean - sweetest girl. his ipod - all.ect..ect..

Movies:

__300. __GRINDHOUSE. __i love huckabees. __batman begins. __knocked up. __bringing down the house. __mean girls. __garden state. __the break up. __apocolypto. __& my very own.ect..ect..

Television:

__the office.musten enjoy: volleyball, basketball, track&FEILD, snowboarding, working out, flauntin..cant stop, (1)ADDICTED to the shindig (2)choose NOT a life of IMITATION (3) in time I want to be your bestfriend, EASTSIDE LOVE is living on the WESTEND (4)complete the motion if you stumble. (5)tell when its time to..

Books:

(my school books?) __the universe. __an intro to astronomy. __a global, thematic approach. __aristotle. __in cold blood. __lab 5 star mag. __antonio damasio. __concepts of psychology. __from sight to insight. __a place to call home.ect..ect

Heroes:

__i heart my family FIRST. __i heart my boyfriend. __i heart my bestfriends. __i heart my friends. __i heart my soka/ypg.NO LIARS. NO BUMS. NO LOSERS.sad part: "takes one to know one." good part: "take a good hard look ..im not okay"[mt]__LOVEY, PEASE KEEP ME SANE. 3:11