I'm gonna put goals here. GOALS: To be indebted to no one. To be good for no reason but desire to be good. To be strong and to have figured out what that means. To look on all things with awe. To be an unjaded thinking person. To choose when I die. To never turn aside from something worthwhile for fear or pain. To experience everything good and bad. contentment
The end of formalization, structured freedom, independent logic, cyclic gnosis, intuitive arrows hitting apples,knowledge wielding serpents, monosyllabic language, handshaking sheperds & cattlemen, amended infinites...
I'm gonna put fears here: FEARS: I am afraid of cockroaches; that is an irrational fear. I am afraid of sharks; rational, but unreasonable. I am afraid of losing my children; unthinkable. I am afraid of not being my own master. I am afraid of wasting the finite time I have been alotted...
How about wishes? WISHES? I wish I had a million dollars. Hot dog! I wish I was my own master. I wish I had gone to sea. I wish to fool a genie. I wish no jealousy.
Blegh.
I often find books on the side of roads. I have largely built my library on them. You've got to keep a sharp eye. I am nearsighted, but somehow manage a pretty large collection. They find me, and when I am ready, they let me read them. I suppose I believe they can be holy things.
Right now my dad is my hero. He's a flawed & wounded man, but he remains a good man. He holds very little hope, but is still kind. My children are also my heros. How brave they are to face life and overcome all the new things every day.