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About Me

How can I save you all when I can't even save myself...Oh, you want me in a number of different ways. To Feel me, Fuck me, Hurt me, Love me, Hate me, Save me, Kill me. One way or another I love you...
Let me take you down, deep into the dark. Becoming devoid of feeling in a sea of scars. Don't say I did not warn you as you burn alive.
I mean that loving you is strange and adored by me throughout while you love to hate me for what I represent, the unforgivable unforgettable Monster who walks between the rain drops...a horror to the modern world as I wander these alleyways and streets of delirium. And through this I am what you want and what you need...I am what you love and hold and hate, I am what you fear. The Heaven in your Hell, the rush you can't control, the one that makes you whole. Addicted to sensations, addicted to this rush. But if I could take away your pain, would you have any reason to stay. I was never the one you wanted, and I became the one you would betray...I will be your lover if you promise to abuse me...and I'll strip you of your wings.
I crave those special dirty things we should talk about and someday soon I'll be that someone...Waiting for the chance to beat you...Drooling on the set to feel you...Blessing you with every kiss...Stitching up your emptiness
It's never the patient one who needs me, I'm the spoiled one who wins...I'm the addict and you want to learn. Egomaniacal, I laugh as you screw yourselves into oblivion
And it becomes so shocking where's yours sense? Don't you know I love you as we hate you so? My bastard loves and sycophantic affairs...the sickness adored by us throughout, and nothing more than fiction.
This is just a play and I'm just a player, watching the drama unfold before my eyes...waiting in the wings. For all the world is a stage and you my loves are not but the nails in my crucifix. So let's fake an answer for the curios, let's fake it all for the fame...for the pain. Living fairy tales and lies in camera flashed reality. A complex joke to your world of shades of gray and acceptiable compromises.
I enjoy the belief that somewhere in this world there is a balance, evil set in place with the purpose to reap good through destruction. As a Monster we enjoy the knowledge that comes with being a servant of chaos, vengeful through and through out the ideal of motive. So place hands on the Bible, scared like a child you watch... Homicidal, I'll tare down your idols...smashed them on the pavement, the crowd watches on, stunned in amazement as everything you made comes crawling back to you and you have to face the Monsters on your own
Sorry...wrong number...
Party Monster 3
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WHAT I DO:
I Book Local and National Acts/Shows I Promote Shows/Bands
I DJ EBM/Goth/Industrial
I Model
I Am Creating The Pittsburgh Club Kid Scene
I The Monster And I Will Fuck Your World Up...
What Classic Pin-Up Are You?
I saw that girl on the cover
Perfection made of vanity
Didn't know this place could be so cold
Didn't know this place could be so cold
Sold her face, sold her body, sold her soul, sold her sanity
But they all wanna be like her
I wanna be just like her
This isn't me that you see and it's true our eyes are deceived
The magazines said I had to be. . .
The green screen was my fantasy. . .
You've made a mannequin out of me
Broken and painted to raise the blood money
You've made a mannequin out of me
A fashion doll designed to kill the teens
Skin of plastic and porcelain
Pops a pill for every problem she's got
A head spinning high on heroin
An overdosed ghost existing in the rot
This isn't me that you see and it's true our eyes are deceived
The magazines said I had to be. . .
The green screen was my fantasy. . .
You've made a mannequin out of me
Broken and painted to raise the blood money
You've made a mannequin out of me
A fashion doll designed to kill the teens
Put on your party face
You've made a mannequin out of me
Broken and painted to raise the blood money
You've made a mannequin out of me
A fashion doll designed to kill the teens

My Interests

Clothing (fashion whore), Beauty, Cats, Blood, Jeeps, Vinyl, boys that look good in eyeliner <3, hard pounding Industrial/EBM, Horror Movies (good, bad, and horrorable), Posion Elves, Gloom Cookie, Transmet, Thigh Highs, Bondage, Cloves, Bunnies...Definately Bunnies, Stitch, JTHM, Severn, Sharp objects, Gloves, Wierd things, Dead stuff...I used to collect dead things like animal bones and snake skins that I found in the woods...but mommy took them away...NO MORE WIRE HANGERS MOMMY!!!, Pain Killers, Sereal Killers, sushi, writing, my growing drug collection, razors, trusting people (the kind that never see it coming), Saki, my growing infamy...

I'd like to meet:

I used to have an answer come to mind immediately. Well of course I want to meet every one reading this. Of course I want to know what dark things keep you awake at night, for us Monsters are known to wait in the shadows while you sleep.

Music:

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Television:

"We've woven hearts a thorn arbour left tear streaked reason upon the shore...And bereft of compass, star or more Set out for this World's end
Few at the prow, most slave below painting coal a perfect gold
But for all it's worth, the engines slow...Dead in the brine again
Come cabin fever, sodomy on the bounty
Prey to phallus seas, that hiss and foam to douse disease...A storm roars on the way. Blacker than the Ace of Rapes, dealt out by Death in darkwood glades
Our Ship of Fools, all boards handmade, Sinks, dashed by seismic waves..."

Books:

There goes the neighborhood...And somehow you knew it would 'Cuz you understand Armageddon's right around the bend You got your fortune Right in your hands You do what you gotta do 'Cuz you got a climb an attitude And you say goodbye As easy as most people tell a lie You choose no options, you do or dieGoddamn The torpedoes! it's time to run away with the sideshow Full speed! Right ahead! Don't stop...You can sleep when you're dead

That's just the way it goes, That's how the river flowsIf you stay stone cold...Chance are your option will unfold All that glitters Turns into goldGoddamn The torpedoes It's time to run away with the sideshow Be proud to deviate, This time to instigate, Dictate your own fate...Your about to detonate See the world obliterateDictate your own fate, You're about to detonate, See the world obliterate...

Heroes:

And LOOK HERE it's an actual movie!! Here: enrich yourselves or something. This is your God:
Rozz Williams' - "PIG"

My Blog

Infected Mushroom!!!!!!

Glad some one picked this up, the show couldn't have gone to better people.Here's the details as they have leaked so far:Date: 8/28/08Venue: Metropolis Cleveland OhioAges: ...
Posted by The Monster You Adore on Mon, 07 Jul 2008 02:46:00 PST

Transmitted Love

Your Monster finds herself more and more brought to a fork in the road, a turning point...another metamorphosis the result of which I am uncertain. But time has passed and in it's passing I have...
Posted by The Monster You Adore on Mon, 07 Jul 2008 01:15:00 PST

Humanly Flawless

No two relationships in life are the same, no two people can offer the same qualities, circumstances and inspire the same combination of emotion. Every one we meet we forge a different bond with...
Posted by The Monster You Adore on Mon, 07 Jul 2008 01:22:00 PST

Grow a pair and say what you mean

There comes a point when I just wish people would grow a fucking pair. I mean how often in our lives is it that we have to make excuses for those around us because they simply don't have the bal...
Posted by The Monster You Adore on Mon, 07 Jul 2008 06:05:00 PST

Voices...?

I've been hearing voices all day. wierd stuff like some one just inside the door calling 'are you there?' like a curious visitor. I was in the basement doing laundry at that time (I'm so demostic at t...
Posted by The Monster You Adore on Wed, 02 Jul 2008 01:33:00 PST

What The Fuck!

So in feeding my daily addiction I type in the Myspace url and find that I don't even know what the fuck is going on. The simply laid out site that your dear Monster uses to blast her rants and ...
Posted by The Monster You Adore on Wed, 18 Jun 2008 11:40:00 PST

Temptation - Cleveland Details

Jam Solid Productions & B.A.D. ASS. presentTemptationFriday June 20, 2008Cleveland OH.Metropolis NightclubTemp"ta"tion-1.something that tempts, entices, or allures.Featuring:RICKY STONE- PROGRESSI...
Posted by The Monster You Adore on Wed, 18 Jun 2008 11:38:00 PST

3 am

I find amusement in the growing ideal of beauty in filth. As a Monster I adore the glorification of that which would not be considered beauty, the facination with the dark and destructive. ...
Posted by The Monster You Adore on Wed, 18 Jun 2008 10:56:00 PST

what do you get when...

you combine a whole bunch of different fruit, a blender, 7-up, fruit sodas/juices, and everclear??heheYummies...that's what!!!!
Posted by The Monster You Adore on Mon, 09 Jun 2008 06:43:00 PST

Fading Glow

You know sometimes I just have to laugh. Through the randomness of myspace I came across...well does the name really matter here, and out of curousity I took a peak to see if all the stories I h...
Posted by The Monster You Adore on Thu, 05 Jun 2008 01:59:00 PST