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Flower Growing in Concrete

You've got a strange world inside you. I've got a strange disease...

About Me

emo-awesomness ;
Whenever a feeling of aversion comes into the heart of a good soul,
it's not without significance.
Consider that intuitive wisdom to be a Divine attribute,
not a vain suspicion:
the light of the heart has apprehended
intuitively from the Universal Tablet.
- Rumi
"I can only be loved as who I am, not as who you need me to be. Love me as I am and you will find your best needs fulfilled."
Hello, nice to see you here.
Who am I?
I'm driven,
I'm adamant about my goal.
What is that goal? To display to the world a subject that has haunted my mind for decades, a concept picked up by my intuition and by universal cultures.
This is the concept of dark and light of good and evil, shadow and sunshine and my main interests is how they are inter-connectedly woven.
Through my art, I wish to emphasize to the world that light and dark are siblings, not enemies. They travel the world together, share hardships together and that without one you can't have the other. "Energy cannot be created nor destroyed.."
So I'm building my skill, feeding my inspirations with music and guidance from other artists and moving towards the light at the end of the tunnel.
Other then that..
I'm a fairly simple girl, I like the little things in life like an overcast day, kindness from myself and others. In my current life I'm simply looking for peace and happiness, closeness to my family, friends and myself, passion for trying new things and things I've already tried but want one more shot at.
"If you do not bring forth what is within you,what you do not bring forth will destroy you."
Painful memories you swallow as a child choke you today, with the strength to let go of the frog in your throat you'll find the strength to speak with your true voice from your true self.
"I'm not afraid of death because I don't believe in it. It's just getting out of one car, and into another." -John Lennon
I believe in reincarnation, though I find it no excuse to postpone being a better person for another life. I simply believe we have the ability to carry pain uncorked from one life to another and it's our responsibility to ourselves to work through this pain and reveal our true potential.
Android Lust - Stained

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Katatonia : My Twin

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My Interests

This is a beautiful anime and a well done AMV to boot. Pay careful attention kiddies cause some day I'm going to create an animated movie with similar speed and attention to detail. ^.^

"Something's wrong,
Trying to conquer these fears I thought were gone.
And it's been so long, I'm dying to live in a world I don't belong..
I cant wait for someone to hear me,
And wait for someone to touch me.
And wait forever to be told,
I'm forever alone.

I cant wait for someone to feel me,
And wait for someone to heal me.
And wait forever to be told,
I'm forever alone..

On my own,
I'll show myself what it means to be alone.
And the tears I cry, washed away.
All the scars of my disguise.."

True always true, this is the tragedy of life..
wolfs rain wait
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I'm interested in..

Things that make you question reality, that make you question the world you grew up knowing. Things like...
Music
Art
Movies
Books
Ever expanding my vocabulary
Becoming extroverted
Mountain bike riding
Horse back riding
Rollor Coasters
Alternative medicine
Loss of desperate attainment and attachment
Contentedness in being alone
Self Improvement
Animals
Learning
Energy
Alchemy
Exercise
The body as a Machine
Communication
Humor
Animation
like this one! ..

and this one ^ ^

Dancing
Singing
Making Noises
Making Faces
Meditating
Playing Video Games
Babysitting
Spending time with family and friends
Buddhism

I'd like to meet:

I'd like to meet anyone who wants to talk, looking for people to hang out with, lol, it's a little boring in this small town. I don't believe you can really know who someone is on myspace. With all the odd angle photographs digitally inhanced and artistically portrayed they sadly, often give the impression of someone who is much more then they are.
Sometimes still, someone may represent themselves as less then they are. So with that being considered,I'd rather see someone in person then talk on myspace for that very reason and because people often type differently then they talk. My intent is to make life long friends here, not build my friend list.

I consider myself an accepting and loving person granted you aren't intent on taking away the inner sanctity and strength I've found. I enjoy spending time with people, learning all the different view points and different paths people have taken and finding a pleasant surprise in the commonalities they all share. Most of all I enjoy learning new things from the people I meet, being a humble student and learning what they have mastered.
Anyways.. This is a very interesting video on a conference on the affects of peace, that mass meditations actually lessen the amount of deaths in war or in a population. ;) Take a look, it's pretty nifty.
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Music:


Ahem! ..But yes, I enjoy..

Massive Attack
10 years
Android Lust
Explosions in the Sky
Minus the Bear
The Prize Fighter Inferno
Coheed and Cambria
Mars Volta
Collide
Mindless Self-Indulgence
Pink Floyd
The Velvet Underground
Sonic Youth
Slipknot
Mudvayne
Unto Ashes
Chevelle
Rage Against the Machine
Garbage
The Beatles
The Cure
Depeche Mode
Heretics in the Lab
Nine Inch Nails
Tool
A Perfect Circle
Syd Barrett
Radiohead
Type O Negative
Paula Cole
Bjork
Danzig
Katatonia
Bob Marley

Just about everything my ears come in contact with

Movies:

Check out this beautiful Stop motion animation. ^ ^
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The Science of Sleep
The Two of Us
Fantastic Planet
What Dreams May Come
Vanilla Sky
Nightmare Before Christmas
Lady and the Tramp
Oliver and Company
Bambie
Monty Python Movies
Edward Scizzorhands
40 Year Old Virgin
A Walk to Remember(I'm such a sap;_;)
Princess Mononoke
Isobel - Bjork

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Howls Moving Castle
Resident Evil
Requiem for a Dream
Waking Life
Never Cry Wolf
Pirates of the Carribean
Moulan Rouge
Twin Peaks:Fire Walk With Me
Vampire Hunter D:bloodlust
S.F.W(So Fucking What?)
Aguateen hungerforce movie/colon

Television:

A cut up version of "The Grandmother" by the genius David Lynch. It my be crappily cut up, but still worth looking at. Freakin Awesome!
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I actually don't watch that much tv unless I'm at home. A few of my favorites are.. Family Guy, South Park, Squidbillies, Tom Goes to the Mayor, The Dog Whisperer, Dirty Jobs, 12 oz mouse, The Daily Show, Wondershowzen, MADtv, Futurama, Full Metal Alchemist, Independent Films, Wolf's Rain, Trigun, Outlaw Star, Invader Zim, Big Brother,24, Medium, Scrubs ,Documentaries

Books:

The Dark Tower-Stephen King Trestessa-Jack Kerouac Skinny Legs and All-Tom Robbins Mindkill -Richard LaPlante Rose Madder-Stephen King The Dark Half-Stephen King Phantom-Susan Kay Night-Elie Weisel i Feel Sick-Jhonen Vasquez Jhonny the Homicidal Maniac-Jhonen Vasquez Squee-Jhonen Vasquez I also like other books I can't think of ..but I assure you, I actually hate Stephen King.

Heroes:

Shikhee! The single creator and producer of Android Lust, proof that with the talent, drive, inspiration and intelligence, one can create one's world through art. She's my first and most influential idol.
Claudio Sanchez!(Wrote an incredible story, made music and comics out of it! That's what I want to do!Minus the music part probably..)
Ceasar Milan(calm and assertive!),
Dane Cook(I'm like him on the inside, kicking babies and all that. ^ ^),
John Stewart(a master in sarcasm and charmingness^ ^)
Christopher Shy(I admire the work he does, want my art to have a similar aura),
Jhonen Vasquez(another genius artist, love his comics)
Notorious B.I.G(I watched a biography on him recently and was inspired by what a loving guy he was to his friends and family. Awesome Rapper too!)
Ghandi(Non-violence is my favorite form of violence!)

My Blog

The Shaman

"The Shaman is an intermediary for those who get lost and cease to grow because of experiences that separate them psychologically from societal consciousness. The Shaman was also once lost this way b...
Posted by Flower Growing in Concrete on Thu, 25 Oct 2007 12:22:00 PST

But the monkeys not watching, he slipped out to the kitchen

"Don't be afraid, it's only.. business."The alien prophet sighedThe vulture and the magpie tookThe cash box from its hook!The monkey in the corner wrote the figures in his book.Crazed the checkout lad...
Posted by Flower Growing in Concrete on Thu, 25 Oct 2007 11:11:00 PST

Look to the sky, the one place forgiving enough to save you

Things well, the gradual evolution of these days..I'm losing my strength, I seem to think I'm immortal,but my tears rest behind my eyes waiting to make an assault on my face. I need nothing but I love...
Posted by Flower Growing in Concrete on Wed, 24 Oct 2007 10:56:00 PST

Its all better now...

Someone on Deviant Art told me my art really reminds them of Yoshitaka Amano (illustrated the Vampire Hunter D manga) That's just the perfect amount of ego boost I needed. ----------------------------...
Posted by Flower Growing in Concrete on Mon, 22 Oct 2007 11:26:00 PST

Thrown away

"Oooh! So let me inBecause I'm outI know that I am someoneNo one said I was, no one said I was, no one said I was!!Thrown away, have I been thrown away?"So today I woke up at 6:23 am, oddly.I even con...
Posted by Flower Growing in Concrete on Mon, 22 Oct 2007 07:24:00 PST

Anahata, your excited nature is purplexing me..

"The Anahata chakra is physically positioned at the heart region. Traditionally, this chakra is represented as a green flower with twelve petals which match the vrittislust, fraud, indecision, repenta...
Posted by Flower Growing in Concrete on Thu, 18 Oct 2007 11:00:00 PST

Don’t let the rap music fool you..

I know he's got a bit of an irratating voice,But he's an amazing lyricists O_OAnd this is a very applicable and powerful video.Check it out. Bob Dylan -It's alright ma'Wait for it to download all the ...
Posted by Flower Growing in Concrete on Tue, 16 Oct 2007 12:30:00 PST

Synonyms

My poetry gets worse as my eyes get old,and I have to sit by the window to keep myself from gaggingor stick my head in the freezer and breathe the cool, clean air of something other then myself.Though...
Posted by Flower Growing in Concrete on Sat, 13 Oct 2007 12:25:00 PST

Im going eat suicide girls!

As soon as I get some good pictures taken, nice vicious things(perhaps my holloween costume ^ ^) I'm going to fill out this application. Seems like the perfect means to sneak my art and message out. ...
Posted by Flower Growing in Concrete on Wed, 10 Oct 2007 11:32:00 PST

Cardiac Pipe Dreams

We sit on the hill overlooking the city,Hearts open and unprotectedbleeding and defenseless,glistening and radiant,joyful and triumphantOur expressions mirror each other,Tongues lolling with every exa...
Posted by Flower Growing in Concrete on Wed, 10 Oct 2007 05:01:00 PST