I MISS THIS SO FUCKING BADLY!
I might get it redone...
I HAVE THE WORST MEMORY EVER!
Which is ironic because I have an IQ of 136...
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Is there really any point in telling you about me? Probably not. Let's face it, how many people will read this through thoroughly and actually learn something about me, other than people who know me well already? I suppose that is me just taunting you if you don't already know me. Kind of like me saying "I bet you couldn't read all of this and get to know me". Well to be honest, it is. If you have the patience to read through all this information for about 10 minutes and try and get to know me, then chances are you'll be fairly surprised.
A lot of stuff goes on my head, but the most noticeable thing I can see in myself is my lack of thinking. Now, you may be wondering "What the fuck is this guy on about, he's saying he's an idiot", but in truth, I'm not. It's not necessarily my lack of thinking, rather my lack of thought before I make a decision. There is pretty much no thought put into conversations I have with people, or the actions I do every day. Pretty much everything that comes out of me is natural, and I like it that way. It keeps me honest. How many of you can say you bark like Pinky from Pinky and The Brain down the high street in your city, just because? Probably none of you I'd imagine, but I can take a guess that there will be a few of you out there that will do something similar. Skip for no reason. Jump because there was a line on the road. Dance because of the song in your head. I live on instinct, spontaneity and truth. It keeps me whole-hearted and anything I say or do to you will be the God honest truth. And it's not like I disciplined myself to be this way either. I just am this way.
At this point I imagine you'll have already developed your own opinion on what I'm like. Some of you will probably think I'm a nice guy, whilst others will think I'm trying to make myself look good, and therefore I'm stuck up. I'm not writing this to try and mould your opinion on who I am, I'm writing this to give you the facts, and let you decide for yourself. If you don't like me, fine, but you must have a reason. If you do like me, fine, but again you must have a reason. It's a win/win situation for me when I look at it. For the people that don't like me, I try to iron out the flaws they see in me so that I don't piss them off. For the people that do like me, hey new friend.
I guess it's time to give you some of the details about me and my life, if you really want to know 'about' me. I'm Kenny. It's amazing to think if you don't already know me, you just read a bunch of stuff about an anonymous person. Those could've been the views of Hitler for all you know. Lucky for you they're not, obviously. Names are a wonderful thing. Apparently there is meaning in names, and I like what mine is:
"Kenneth/Ken/Kenny - From the Gaelic for handsome, he is an honest and faithful man who is devoted to his family. A true diplomat."
Feel free to tell me what your name means if you find out, chances are it will interest me and I might even strike up a conversation with you.
Next, I'm 19, and my birthday was on the 4th of January. I have a keen interest in my date of birth and I'm fascinated by all the information surrounding it. In turn, this has lead to a strong connection with the number 4. When people find out about my birthday, a lot of them think it's freaky. Personally, I really like it. I mean, how many people have the number 4 integrated into the life in which they live? I was born on the 4th of January. I was born at 4 minutes past 4 in the morning. I was born weighing 4kg. For the more observant crowd amongst you, you'll notice that there are four 4's. For the less observant crowd, I just explained it to you. There are other ways I can integrate that number into my date of birth. The fact that I was born on a Wednesday makes it the 4th day of the week on the Roman calendar, and because it's in January, not only was it the 4th day of the month, it was also the 4th day of the year. The year in which the Berlin wall was torn down I might add.
My favourite colour is red, as many people will know. What I didn't know, however, was that the garnet is red. For those of you who don't know what a garnet is, it's a stone like an emerald or a sapphire. And it just so happens that the garnet is my birthstone. For years, I also believed that I was born in the Chinese year of the snake, making me out to be a sly wee fucker. So I assumed my fascination with wings, angels, birds and other mythical creatures that could fly was just that, a fascination. But it turns out I wasn't born in the year of the snake at all. I was born in the year of the Dragon. Curious, I looked up information on the year of the Dragon to see what it was like. Well, what I got is pretty much what you've already read about my name. Honest and faithful. Obviously, there was more to it, but it just seems really weird that everything given to me at birth ties in with everything else. No matter how small, it just seems to have a connection to something else already in there.
I don't think I'll ever know everything about my birthday either. There just seems to be too much.
Enough of the voodoo talk, lets get onto my life, shall we? My life is very entertaining as far as I can tell, and it is rarely ever boring. Even in my dreams something exciting is always happening, with Godzilla chasing me down the street, everyone turning into zombies because of some computer virus or Will Smith helping me onto a cardboard box boat to escape sharks. I'm due a new dream pretty soon I reckon. If you've read some, or indeed all, of my stories, you'll already know that I'm a bit of a handful, especially when alcohol is involved. But recently I have noticed a sudden surge in confidence in my system, and I have been literally doing whatever the fuck I want, whenever I want to do it. If I want to get naked, I'll get naked. If I want to eat 4 cakes for dinner, then I'll eat 4 cakes for dinner. It's pretty simple really. Because of this spontaneity I have, my life is exciting and full of fun. I enjoy life, more so than other people.
Where I live, there is a set of hills that span over 5 miles. When I'm on the bus to work, college or even just into Glasgow, I see those hills. It puts a smile on my face to know that I live in such a beautiful area and it's really relaxing too. A lot of things put a smile on my face, really easily, and I'm sure if other people took the time out to look at some of the things I do, they would too. It's not just the things I see though, there are smells as well, actions and noises. It's so easy to let a smile take control of you.
There's only really one thing I dislike about my life - the lack of a girlfriend. I'm not picky or anything, but I just seem to get the impression that I'm not boyfriend material, or even that I'm just not wanted. It's depressing sometimes, but I'm glad that I've got the simple things in life to distract me from things like this. I miss having a girl to hold, to see her smile and make her laugh. I like all that stuff. Girls are just astonishing sometimes. It's the small things they do that really capture my attention. A girl who makes mistakes, or is shy, or has the imagination of a child is just cute as hell. And more often than not it's those kinds of things that will really get me interested in a girl. I've been told on numerous occasions, so many so that I've lost count, that I'm quite the catch, or that they can't understand why I'm single, or that girls in my area must be idiots. I'm sick of hearing that. It just makes me feel worse when people say they can't understand why I'm single, because I can't either, and I can't see where I'm going wrong around things. I suppose it doesn't help either that pretty much all of the girls I have been with have screwed me over, with the exception of about two. All I really would like I guess is a girl who I can put my trust in for a change. And no, you dirty assed bastards, trust is not the name of my dick.
I'm not self-conscious in the slightest. Again it all comes down to this principle of doing what I want, when I want, only with clothes, or with my hair or body. I shaved my head because I wanted to, and it turned out to be more convenient. I pierced my neck, nipple and ear because I wanted to, although the neck piercing has had to come out now due to me getting it caught while I was sleeping. If you've never had your skin ripped, let me inform you that it's certainly not pleasant. I get my nipple piercing caught all the time, and as such, after about 6 months, it still hasn't healed properly. It's not infected either mind, just not healing because I play with it and things. My ear piercing hasn't healed properly either, but that's because I haven't cleaned it since I got it done. As you can probably tell by this bit of information, I'm really worried about damaging my body. I really do miss my neck piercing big time. If you want to see a picture of it just ask.
The main point anyone seems to notice about me is my drinking habits. Even my parents ridicule me about a couple of years ago when I was 14/15/16. They told me how a kid they know had been suspended from school for possessing cannabis on a school day trip, and that I've to look out for any noticeable problems with my younger brother, who is 14, set to turn 15 later this year. They're telling me to look out for any, because they know I've smoked cannabis before; I've told them I know what it smells like, and the effects it can have. They don't know any of that, so I'm next in line. They then tell me at least it was easier for them when I was his age, because they could tell it was the drink. A few of my friends were jealous of the fact my parents were cool with me drinking at an early age, but these days it doesn't matter anymore. What I'm more surprised about is the fact they seem to be ok with the fact I've smoked weed before. Fair enough, they don't go shouting from the rooftops that their son is a stoner as well as an alcoholic, but they certainly don't object anymore.
With the amount of alcohol I consume, I'm surprised I've not undergone a liver transplant operation. I mean, I just drink, and drink, and drink, and drink, and drink, and drink, and drink, and you get the idea. But nothing ever happens to my body. I also eat shitloads of food, fatty foods at that, but never gain any weight. I never work out either or do any form of exercise other than walking. But even the walking I do is minimal. I just seem to be blessed. It's not as if I'm unfit either, quite the contrary. The only time I seem to get exhausted easily is when I've been drinking, but alcohol dehydrates people so it's understandable.
I have a part-time job at present, and I go to college full-time as well. Currently, as I'm writing this, I am in work. Multi-tasking or what? I used to get the internet a lot more in here, but it doesn't bother me anymore as I am only in 2 days a week, to accommodate for college. I'm currently unemployed! I'm still at college and I keep changing my mind on whether or not to stick in at it or not. There are obviously just some aspects of the course I dislike more than other and it gets to me. One of my old workmates was once telling me how he went on a tour of America for a month. He explained how he got kicked out 4 casinos in Vegas, ripped all the seats out their minivan and put them in his tent, and then woke up on the dashboard not knowing what the fuck happened. He's getting on par with me with his drinking stories.
College is by far better than University. I went to University last year, and while I wasn't bad at the course, I really felt that it just wasn't for me. Everything seemed so tedious and boring, and you could never concentrate. It seemed cramped and very public. In college there is more space, and everything seems a lot more comfortable and personal. The people you know seem to know other people that you knew before you met the people at college, and it's a lot more relaxing, as well as not being boring. I'm glad to be back somewhere learning, the sound production course I'm doing is really, really good so far, and I'm looking forward to doing a lot more throughout the year. Getting a student discount on a lot of things isn't bad either.
Other than my obvious musical interest, I like photography too. I have a Canon Eos 400D, and it's fucking awesome, even if I do say so myself. I miss playing Basketball in High School. That was probably my favourite sport to play along with Badminton. I love watching a lot of sports, and I really admire some of the athletes that are out there. I remember staying up late one night, just watching TV because I was bored, and seen that the sports was about to come on channel 5. Now, for those of you outside the UK, channel 5 is the shittest of the shit, really. It's like trying to shave your face with a rusty machete whilst bouncing on a bouncy castle. You secretly hope your eyes will get removed to save you from the already searing pain. However, when the sports came on, it was ESPN, and the motocross. I had never watched the motocross stuff before, I had no interest in it, but I watched it anyway because I couldn't be bothered to change the channel. About 15 minutes later I was glued to the screen. Some of the tricks these guys pull off is just insane, and even though I'm not interested in the sport itself, I can still appreciate people with real talent. I'll never forget watching that double back flip, it sent shivers through me.
Football is the sport I enjoy watching most, for obvious reasons. It forms a major part of life in this country, and the passion for it in this city knows no bounds. In Glasgow, if you're a football fan, you're gonna be one of two colours. Blue or green. Me, I'm a Rangers fan, a true blue, and so is my best friend. But I have plenty of friends that support those filthy green bastards, and it provides constant banter because of the difference in opinion. Again, as much as I dislike Celtic because they are our rivals, I do respect them. I mean, come on, we need at least another decent team to beat to show how good we are. But my passion for Rangers is pretty much equalled by my passion for Liverpool. I'm not English, and a lot of English people seem to piss me off, but I love Liverpool football club. I am not ashamed to admit I cried when they lost their Champions League final against AC Milan in May 2006. I ended up drinking myself stupid that night to make up for it.
I will stand up for what I think is right, or for the weaker person depending on the circumstances of the situation. If two people I both like are in a confrontation with each other, I will refuse to get involved, simple because they know, as friends to me, they cannot drag me into it and give me problems I don't need. Should any of my friends, and I mean any of them be in a tight spot, I try my best to help them out of it. On numerous occasions, when my friends have been a bit short on cash, I have given them money so they can still do the things they want, and had no worries about them paying me back. I trust my friends, and I choose them very carefully, so that in situations like these, they would do the same for me.
There's not much left to tell you about me, at least not that I can think of at the moment. If you want to know anything else about me, or you would like me to expand on anything I have said here then just ask me in a reasonable manner. I am polite to an extent, but if you do piss me off I am really not a nice person at all.
If you read all that, congratulations, you probably know me a lot better than the people who didn't. Chances are I'll talk to you easier now too.
I've been told I seem quite intimidating to talk to as well. I'm really not.
Unless you annoy me.
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I'm currently addicted to a lot of songs. Not any particular artists though, as my music taste varies from Classical through Metal to Techno. But here's a rough idea of the tunes that get me tapping my feet and drumming on every available surface, both old and new:
Pretty Handsome Awkward - The Used
Impulse - An Endless Sporadic
The Way It Is (Live Remix) - The Prodigy
This Could Be Anywhere In The World - Alexisonfire
Razor - The Prodigy
Underclass Hero - Sum 41
Hysteria - Muse
Thnks Fr Th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy
Monsters - Matchbook Romance
Stop - Jane's Addiction
Sabotage - Beastie Boys
Raw Dog - The Last Vegas
Sweet Home Alabama - Lynyrd Skynyrd
Anna Molly - Incubus
Nightmare (Sinister Strings Remix) - Brainbug
One Year, Six Months - Yellowcard
Inaction - We Are Scientists
Last Train Home - LostProphets
Clair De Lune - Claude Debussy
Heaven Is A Halfpipe - OPM
It's Like That - Run DMC
F.C.P.R.E.M.I.X. - The Fall Of Troy
With Me - Sum 41
White Unicorn - Wolfmother
20th Century Boy - T.Rex
All The Small Things - Blink 182
Make A Move - Incubus
Plug It In - Basement Jaxx
Chelsea Dagger - The Fratellis
Club Foot - Kasabian
Saturate - The Chemical Brothers
Don't Get Up - Noisettes
Movies - Alien Ant Farm
Laser Love - T.Rex
Violent Pornography - System Of A Down
Love Abuse - Lukas Kasha
Rogues - Incubus
The Unshokable - Maximo Park
B.Y.O.B. - System Of A Down
My Curse - Killswitch Engage
Megalomaniac - Incubus
She Is Beautiful - Andrew W.K.
Circles - Incubus
Easy Target - Blink 182
Never Enough - Eminem
Stricken - Disturbed
Take The Power Back - Rage Against The Machine
Eradicate The Doubt - Biffy Clyro
Out Of Space (Audio Bullys Remix) - The Prodigy
Nine Thou (Superstars Remix) - Styles Of Beyond
Feeling This - Blink 182
Carry Me Home - The Living End
Push Push (Lady Lightning) - Bang Camaro
Speak Of The Devil - Sum 41
Empire - Kasabian
88 - Sum 41
Summer Romance (Anti-Gravity Love Song) - Incubus
Supermoves (Animatrix Remix) - Overseer
Give It All - Rise Against
New World Symphony - Miri Ben-Ari/Pharoahe Monch
Love Rollercoaster - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Shoot Down - The Prodigy
A Kiss To Send Us Off - Incubus
River Below - Billy Talent
A Certain Shade Of Green - Incubus
Direct Hit - It's A Bit Art Brut
Make A Move - LostProphets
The Devil Went Down To Georgia - Steve Ouimette
Sleep Now In The Fire - Rage Against The Machine
Violence - Blink 182
Mr. Brightside - The Killers
The New Black - Every Time I Die
I Need Love - The Music
Set Me Free - Velvet Revolver
The Take Over, The Breaks Over - Fall Out Boy
Attention - Adelphi
Rondo All Turca - Mozart
Get Free - The Vines
Pressure - Skindred
Can't Stop - Red Hot Chili Peppers
When The Sun Goes Down - DJ Fresh
Knights Of Cydonia - Muse
Bleed For You - Hidden In Plain View
La Grange - ZZ Top
Breakin' - The Music
Float - The Music
The Prayer - Bloc Party
Decadence - Disturbed
Science - System Of A Down
Through The Fire And The Flames - DragonForce
Drive - Incubus
Woman - Wolfmother
Priceless - Incubus
Dirty Harry - Gorillaz
We Still Kill The Old Way - LostProphets
Moonlight - Beethoven
The Small Print - Muse
Even Flow - Pearl Jam
She Builds Quick Machines - Velvet Revolver
Spitfire - The Prodigy
Bulls On Parade - Rage Against The Machine
Day Of... - Biffy Clyro
Just A Day - Feeder
Voodoo People (Pendulum Mix) - The Prodigy
Do It Again - The Chemical Brothers
This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race - Fall Out Boy
Nobody - Skindred
Snow (Hey Oh) - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Good Luck - Basement Jaxx
Before I Forget - Slipknot
Fasten Your Seltbelt Ft The Freestylers - Pendulum
Can't Catch Tomorrow (Good Shoes Won't Save You This Time) - LostProphets
Hard To Concentrate - Red Hot Chili Peppers
The People - The Music
Black Betty - Spiderbait
Slam - Pendulum
Place For My Head - Linkin Park
Flathead - The Fratellis
Dimension - Wolfmother
Eindlich Ein Grund Zur Panik - Wir Sind Helden
Nobody Move, Nobody Get Hurt - We Are Scientists
Le Disko - Shiny Toy Guns
Five Is A Four Letter Word - LostProphets
Place Your Hands - Reef
Glitter And Trauma - Biffy Clyro
One And The Same - Audioslave
Velocity Shift - Overseer
Boiled Frogs - Alexisonfire
Phat Planet - Leftfield
Walking Disaster - Sum 41
DARE - Gorillaz
Shot Down - Nine Black Alps
Whole Lotta Love - Led Zepellin
Blue Orchid - The White Stripes
Smooth Criminal - Alien Ant Farm
Lay Down - Priestess
Me Plus One - Kasabian
A Million Miles - LostProphets
Under My Wheels (Remix) - The Prodigy
Love Train - Wolfmother
Don't Hold Back - The Sleeping
Fat Lip - Sum 41
Goodbye Mr. A - The Hoosiers
Southern Cross - Nine Black Alps
Monster - The Automatic
Starlight - Muse
No Apologies - Sum 41
Guerilla Radio - Rage Against The Machine
Hump De Bump - Red Hot Chili Peppers
The Great Escape - We Are Scientists
Helicopter - Bloc Party
Communication Breakdown - Led Zepellin
Down Rodeo - Rage Against The Machine
Immigrant Song - Led Zepellin
Toxicity - System Of A Down
By The Way - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Burn Burn - LostProphets
Girls - The Prodigy
Joker & The Theif - Wolfmother
Island In The Sun - Weezer
Take A Look Around - Limp Bizkit
Light Grenades - Incubus
Kernkraft 400 (DJ Guis Remix) - Zombie Nation
Bodies - Drowning Pool
Killing In The Name Of - Rage Against The Machine
The Metal - Tenacious D
The Light That Blinds - Shadows Fall
Break Stuff - Limp Bizkit
The Pretender - Foo Fighters
Born Too Slow - The Crystal Method
I Just Wanna Live - Good Charlotte
Get It On - T.Rex
She's Hearing Voices - Bloc Party
Cobrastyle - Teddybears
Assassin - Muse
Whistle For The Choir - The Fratellis
Our Revolution - Halifax
Give It Away - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Witchcraft - Wolfmother
The Salmon Dance - The Chemical Brothers
Blood Sugar - Pendulum
Hell Above Water - Curve
Free Bird - Lynyrd Skynyrd
Chinese Burn (Flood Mix Version) - Curve
Fasten Your Seatbelt - Pendulum
A lot, huh?
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