Pos from De La Soul once said "F*ck being hard, Posdonous is complicated". That sentiment pretty much sums me up.
I am humble, generous, sensitive, and kind to a fault. I am fiercly protective of my friends and family. I am patient with and tolerant of people but not myself or "things". I am generally very private but feeling I am called to stop being that way. I am somewhat of an intellectual but not a "nerd". I am creative. I think "outside the box". I am fascinated by other cultures. I am a student of history. I am mostly self educated. I am frequenly disillusioned with life. I am a serious practitioner of Christianity but seldom attend church. I am my own worst critic. I am, obviously, self-analytical. I am trustworthy. I keep secrets well but do not generally want to hear them. I am seldom lonely and am comfortable being alone or isolated. I somehow still manage to get along well with others. I will not partake in gossip. I refuse to speak ill of someone, even if they have wronged me. I settle my disagreements in person. Respect is a HUGE factor to me. Once you have lost my respect, I generally write you off. I love children but to not want any of my own, (at least not biologically). I am usually very serious and reserved but do not come off that way when you meet me. I am confident despite my shortcommings. I am a "good" person. I am someone you want in your corner but a fierce opponent once provoked. I have no tolerance for backstabbers. I have no respect for phonies. I try not to care what anyone thinks of me. I'm okay with who I am.
Unfortunately, I am both successful and unsuccessful in every aspect of my life. That applies to being a musician, student, son, parent, friend, husband, athelete. I am a born hustler with a deskjob. I have an inherent need to share music with people, (not just mine), but am frustrated by my circumstances. One of my artists had a major label deal in '96 but lost it in '97 causing me to 'retire' for several years. I have been what some would call rich and what others would call poor at different times in my life. I am a loyal friend but am easily hurt and tend to cut people off, (I am working HARD on this). I was a Varsity wrestler as a Freshman but seperated my shoulder. I was a Varsity Football player but had to have surgery on both feet my Senior year. I started taking Tae Kwon Do recently and quickly got my first belt but developed plantar facitis shortly after getting it. Do you see a pattern yet? My wife bought me my first new car and a rock struck it the week after I got it (this seems minimal but the car had over a dozen seperate "incidences" with it in 3 years including having it's tires stolen while parked in front of a church). I bought my first house a couple of years ago and had to live in a hotel for almost a year while it was rebuilt catching fire...in the first year I owned it.
In short, dont' stand next to me in a thunderstorm. I have the worst luck on the planet. I am, however, a lucky gambler, if that's any consolation.
I love God. I love Hip Hop. I love dichotomy. I have no problem with it.
