Zitro ★STANDBY YOUR SCENE★!!!

My story.....well.......it's the Ouija Board's fault(and my nigga Charlie the war ghost!)!!Throughout my life, I have had many ups and downs. I literally went through hell and back. I was always hated in school and I hated going. I would rather get a gun and blow my brains out of the side of my head than go to school where it felt like the world hated me. To others, my world seemed perfect. I had everything I ever wanted. But behind all of that, in the back of my mind, was a ball of darkness and evil just waiting to be released. I have had theses thoughts brewing in my head all of my life, and now they have been released.This is my story…I was born in the worst city known as South-West Detroit. My family was very poor at this time and had been saving money for years just to move out of that house. When I was just a baby, my mom, and my two aunts played a mystical board game known as the “Ouija Board”. Since the game was basically played by spirits, the spirits were obviously able to cross over and posses the house. Little did my family know that one of the evil spirits possessed me. I was only a year old and was barely able to know what was happening to me. I guess the spirit could not get out of my body because I was not aware that I had been possessed and did not try to fight. So it stayed in me. About two years went by and the family decided to move. We had found a nice big house on Detroit’s West side and loved it as soon as we seen it. My grandparents stayed there ever since. I had made many friends while I was there but they still thought I was weird. I guess the spirit was affecting my social skills.Even going to school was hard for me. For some odd reason, I HATED going to a private school. I felt so uncomfortable and didn’t know why. I went to private schools for about three years when my mom finally decided to put me in a public school. Even there, I didn’t fit in. I was always an out-cast. I looked and acted different than how everyone else was. I was treated like trash. Nobody liked me no matter how hard I tried to fit in. I was hated by everyone.Then, in the 9th grade, something happened. I started to write my own rap music. By trying to rap in front of people, I made a friend by the name of Brandon McLeod. He was one of the more popular people in the school at the time. As I started to get to know him more, he had invited me to his house to write raps together, so I said “sure”. My world began to brighten up a little bit. After a while of writing, he asked me if I wanted to listen to a CD, so I said “Okay, why not?” So Brandon put the CD in, and as he was putting it in, he said that the name of the group was called the Insane Clown Posse (ICP). I was a little skeptical to listening to them at first but I was bored so I listened anyway. Once the music started playing, I felt a weird sensation in my body, as if something was trying to squeeze me. I ignored it, thinking it was all in my head. I started to feel a little uncomfortable and I told him that I didn’t want to listen to them any more, so he turned them off. But the damage was done. The words to that song were burned into my memory and later that night I found myself chanting, “You can call me Mad Professor!”After a few days, the song finally got out of my head. I thought I was back to normal. The new Backyard Wrestling game for the PlayStation 2 had come out and I wanted it because I love wrestling. So I bought it. As I was playing it for a while, I noticed that some of the songs on the game were by ICP. Since I played the game so much, I had no choice but to listen to the music. I got used to it after a while and actually got to like their music.A few weeks later I bought their CD. As I was listening to it, I started to feel the darkness that was trapped in my body start to take it over. I didn’t try to fight it because I felt better that ever. I felt like I was reborn and invincible. So I tested my theory. I took on the sport of Backyard Wrestling. I set up wrestling matches for myself against guys that were at least 200 to 300 pounds. The best part about it…I never lost. I am still, till this day, undefeated in Backyard Wrestling. I couldn’t believe this was happening to me at only age 15.A few days later, I went out and bought another ICP CD because I started to love their music. As I was listening to this album, I noticed that they mention the word “Juggalo” and “Juggalette” in a lot of their songs. I looked up the word online and it said that the word was basically ICP’s fan base. It also said that the best description of the word was best said in the song “What Is a Juggalo” by ICP. I knew that “I” was a Juggalo. In just a matter of time, I collected ALL of the ICP Cd's. Just listening to their music was like food to whatever was inside me causing my dark thoughts.When I turned 17, I got even worse. I wasn’t making music like I was before. All I had on my mind was darkness and murder. All of my music that I had written during that time was all dark and twisted. I wasn’t hated as a junior in High School. I was just looked at differently for the fact that everybody thought that I was crazy. The ironic part of it was that they were right! I didn’t care at that point. I just wanted to go home, for the fact that my last two tears of High School were spent in a private school. I hated it there with a passion. I just kept on looking at the clock, impatiently waiting for the bell to ring so we could go home.When I started my senior year in High School, I had many secrets that I kept from people. I couldn’t tell them because I knew if I did, I would lose that person because it would scare them. I met this girl by the name of Janay. I held back everything from her. She was a church girl and wanted me to go with her. So I had to put on a front and act like I liked it. I stood out so much there for the fact that I was dressed in all black. I didn’t care one bit.After that, Janay and I started dating. We were very happy most of the time. Very few arguments and we spent time with each other everyday. Then, after a while, I guess that we got used to each other a little too quick. Something happened, and she triggered my dark side and I couldn’t hold it in anymore. We got into a very big fight on the phone one night and my emotions ran wild. I couldn’t hold myself back. I gave in. Somehow, all of my anger and evil thoughts created some type of portal…to hell. I was scared out of my mind. I was trying to tell Janay what was going on while I was talking to her, but I was too scared to make any sense.As soon as the portal opened, demons came out from it. They started teasing me and screaming in my face. Then, out of nowhere, they grabbed me and took me to the one place no man on this Earth would ever want to go…hell. I don’t remember much while I was there, only that it was extremely hot and I had seen thing that would make normal people rip their eyes out of their heads. It seemed liked I was down there for days but, according to Janay, I was only out for a few seconds because she was on the phone the whole time. She said that she was calling my name and she got scared because I wasn’t answering.When I came back to reality, I was sweating badly and my clothes were severely burned. I was trying to tell Janay what happened, but I was too scared to talk. I was breathing really hard, to the point that I started to hyperventilate. I was able to talk, but very little. I told Janay not to worry about me and that I wanted to go to bed. She hesitated a little bit but she eventually let me go to sleep.Quite some time passed by after that without any type of signs of demonic activity. I thought that my possession was over. Little did I know, it was only the beginning. Every time that we got into an argument, the demons would appear and basically scare me to death. It was horrible. I didn’t understand why this was happening to me. It all seemed like a dream, but it wasn’t. It was all real. It was like I was living in hell. I had to find a way to stop it, but I couldn’t think of one. I wasn’t going to stop.A few months later, Janay and I had gotten in to a huge fight. When the demons appeared, they made me think that all they were going to do was scare me, but they tricked me. Right when I let my guard down, the demons knocked me off of my feet and I was gang beaten. I had to use as much strength as I could to get up. I tried to fight back, but they fought back twice as hard as I did. There was no way I could win. I gave up. They nearly killed me. I was supposed to go to the hospital, but I didn’t say anything to anybody and recovered by myself.After I healed, I felt different all over again. At this time, it was in July of this year. And I was also handing around a new group of people. All of my friends liked the dark side and they were mostly all Juggalos and Juggalettes. They were my family, my NEW family. We go everywhere together and they don’t care about my demon issues.A few months went by and I had to say goodbye to Janay after over a year of dating. I was too wicked and evil for her. She was a 4.0 student and wanted to be an anesthesiologist. I knew I was going to hold her back from that because of how I was. So I had to let her go. As much as I didn’t want to, I knew it was the right thing. I went into a very deep depression because I let her go and she didn’t understand why.In October of 2006, I met a girl by the name of Candy. We dated for about 5 months and and then it came to a screeching halt! I was blamed for things that were said about me that wasn't even true! It was hard to let go, but time heals all wounds and I got over it. I was crushed! This is my new beginning and now i must move on. I need to go to the next step so i can fulfill my destiny. I cant let this hold me back, it hurt a lot, but I'm not letting this stop me. I must continue the journey of my life and find answers to my questions of my life!October 21 was that greatest day of my life!! Thats when I met the love of my life. Her name is Jessyca! Wow! That's all I have to say!! She is just amazing! I have never had someone care for me so much it's unbelievable!! This girl is the love of my life.....AND FOR ALL THOSE HATIN BITCHEZ OUT THERE....I AINT NO CHEATER!!! SO DONT BE GOIN TO MY GIRL'S PAGE AND SEND HER ALL KINDS OF MESSAGES SAYING THAT I CHEATED ON HER CUZ THAT AINT TRUE!!! I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART AND NOBODY IS GOING TO GET IN THE WAY OF THAT!!!Well......as my life continues, I will continue to write more! Check back every once in a while to see if I have added anything to my story!! PEACE!!!