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Jenna

So I smile and try to mean it...

About Me

At this point it's more of a question of who I will become. The people in my life that shape me, who are they to become? The unanswerable questions that loom forever on the horizon. The unspeakable emotions that I will feel, my evolution into the person I will be. What will life offer me and what will I in turn offer life? Will I be too paralyzed to ever succeed? Will I worry my life away? Will I regain parts of myself that I have lost? Can I be the person I so long to be? And in the end, what will matter? The mass accumulation of material objects? The boxes full of journals, mementos, photographs and collages of past lives? Will it matter that I couldn't always be financially self-sufficient, or that I implusively kissed someone or bought something too expensive. Will it matter that I got too drunk that night or went to bed too late? Or will it matter that I worked hard in school, that I had discipline, that I opened up my heart, that I cried in public, danced to the songs in my head, sung to my own happiness, liked my appearance sometimes, laughed and screamed because I wanted to. Laid in bed all day because I could, talked on the phone all night because I wanted to. Danced until my legs burned and drank until I fell down. Kissed because I had to, cried because of necessity, wrote to free my mind, and was selfish because so many times I wasn't. Turned the other cheek because the other one still stung with the blows of my past. Smiled through a frown, laughed through the pain, cried behind the joy, flirted through the dislike, loved behind the hate and hated behind the love. Aspired to be great and to have greatness thrust upon me. Needed and longed for love, wished and prayed for other's happiness. Restraining myself and holding onto old and tarnished promises. Revelling in the pure, calm night sky, living in a moment and returning to that moment and never letting it go. Drinking in life and pain and wonderment and letting go of vile, filthy things. Growing and expanding and hoping and wishing and dreaming. Letting my eyes drop and being completely spellbound by the world my mind entertains.

My Interests

Life.

I'd like to meet:

People willing to come together and make beautiful art.

Music:

Current Music Infatuation: Fall Out Boy, Cute is What We Aim For, My Chemical Romance and HAIRSPRAY!!!

Wicked, Rent, Jesus Christ Superstar, Evita, Avenue Q, Phantom of the Opera, Chicago, Grease, Sarah McLachlan, Tyler Hilton, Idina Menzel, Anthony Rapp, Jack Johnson, Fall Out Boy, Phantom Planet, David Bowie, Enya, Incubus, Green Day, The Killers, Aerosmith, 3 Doors Down, Eve 6, Saliva, No Doubt, Vanessa Carlton, Michelle Branch, Garbage, Third Eye Blind, Kelly Clarkson, Gavin DeGraw, Alanis Morissette, Madonna, Hinder, Godsmack, Cardigans, Elton John, Sublime, Shinedown, Dido, Jewel, Three Days Grace, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Blue October, Snow Patrol, The All American Rejects, Avenged Sevenfold, My Chemical Romance, Yellowcard, Circa Survive, Mika, Cute is What We Aim For, Something Corporate, New Found Glory

Movies:

Lord of the Rings, Almost Famous, Moulin Rouge, Return to Oz, Princess Bride, Rules of Attraction, Pulp Fiction, Sin City, Princess Mononoke, Pirates of the Caribbean, Little Women, Labyrinth, Phantom of the Opera, Chicago, Edward Scissorhands, Boogie Nights, Troy, Fight Club, Serenity, Rent, Brokeback Mountain, John Tucker Must Die, Cruel Intentions, Little Mermaid, Stranger Than Fiction, Grindhouse, Reign Over Me, Knocked Up, Hairspray, Superbad and many many more.

Television:

Buffy, Angel, Veronica Mars, One Tree Hill, Gilmore Girls, Charmed, Dawson's Creek, Felicity, The OC, That '70s Show, Alias, X-Files, Smallville, Supernatural, Lost, Arrested Development and Xena.
Currently Obsessed with: Lost
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KateYou are sweet, but you have a fair share of secrets. You're not a bad person, but you have done things that are regretable. You are always eager to help out. You could be described as brave.
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Books:

Currently Reading:Wicked

The Hobbit & The Lord of the Rings by JRR Tolkien, The Harry Potter series by JK Rowling, and yes ladies and gentlemen Sweet Valley High (don't judge, what's better than identical twins getting in perilous scrapes week after week hmmmm?) Authors I enjoy are Gregory Maguire, Stephen King, VC Andrews (and her ghost writer), Sue Grafton, L Frank Baum, Anne Rice, and Ursula K Le Guin. Mostly I just wish I read more.

Heroes:

People who love unconditionally.

My Blog

Cute is What "I" Aim For...

Oh, it's true, I absolutely am obsessed with Cute Is What We Aim For right now...but really that point aside, there are a few worries and happy non-worries floating around in this big old head of mine...
Posted by Jenna on Tue, 04 Sep 2007 10:20:00 PST

I'd like to preemptively thank the Academy for not pissing me off!

Oscars are almost here!!  I wait all year for this shit, the Oscars are like my Superbowl (cause I don't really do the whole sports thing).  Anyway this year seems like kind of a boring...
Posted by Jenna on Sat, 24 Feb 2007 03:14:00 PST

California adventures...

So, I've just come back from a fantastic trip to California. I went with my Mom and my sister and Liz. Good times were had by all! I figured it was a good way to start 2007 out right. I have high hope...
Posted by Jenna on Thu, 04 Jan 2007 11:40:00 PST

Friendship is thicker than blood...

I can't believe it's almost Christmas.  Freakin' 2006 went by so fast!  I'm going to be in California for New Years to get the rest of my stuff and visit with family and friends, so I though...
Posted by Jenna on Wed, 20 Dec 2006 12:26:00 PST

Forget regret or life is yours to miss!

So, I'm totally back and in the swing of things.  I love my job at New York and Company (LC style) too bad it's closing in January.  I've registered for classes in the spring.  I've alr...
Posted by Jenna on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 11:30:00 PST

I wish I could go back to college, in college you know who you are...

Oh life... I move back in about four days.  I will have spent a total of 80 days in California.  When you put it like that it seems like I've hardly been here at all.  And yet it seems ...
Posted by Jenna on Sat, 11 Nov 2006 04:54:00 PST

Happy Hallowen... I guess...

This has got to be the crappiest Halloween I've ever had.  Wait, maybe the Halloween where I had mono was worse.  I really love Halloween, it's my second favorite holiday (come on nothing be...
Posted by Jenna on Wed, 01 Nov 2006 11:46:00 PST

You have to go after the things you want while you're still in your prime.

Okay, so here it is guys.  My true thoughts on my life and what the hell I'm doing with it.  There really ought to be a guide book to life after college, because almost everyone I know who h...
Posted by Jenna on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 12:40:00 PST

The many adventures of Jenna continues...

A lot has been going on lately, surprisingly.  Everything is happening really fast which is nice and I am keeping busy like a crazy person!  Which is good cause staying busy makes me act les...
Posted by Jenna on Fri, 22 Sep 2006 10:19:00 PST

Welcome to the OC bitch!

Ahhhh, yes the OC, pretty place to live really.  I am beginning to get much more settled and will soon be mas, mas busy.  Which is much better than my current state of idleness.  Anywho...
Posted by Jenna on Sat, 16 Sep 2006 02:24:00 PST