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Rowan de l'espoir

Qui suis-je?

About Me

I don't know if i can rightly say what I am; rather only what i have been and what I believe i am becoming. Life has brought so many changes in recent times that I cannot rightly summarize myself because at times I'm as much as stranger to myself as I am to you. This is not at all unpleasant, as I'm one of those who is only happy when changing - becoming. I live intensely - work hard, play harder. I'm a walking contradiction - a paradox - simultaneously empathetic and caring while at the same time utterly irreverent and sarcastic. Why do I keep writing? Why don't you just find out who I am? I promise, I don't bite unless so asked.http://www.livejournal.com/users/mybravestmask

My Interests

Post-structuralism, Georges Bataille, French Literature, Literary Theory, Philosophy, Ideas, Politics (Very liberal and outspoken), Travel, cats, Literature, Music, coffee, history, psychoanalysis, personality typology, language, words, quantum physics, wandering aimlessly, peoplewatching, spoteneity.

I'd like to meet:

A partner in crime, a friend, a lover, intellectuals, artists, seekers, perhaps all in one or individually.

Music:

Muse, The Cooper Temple Clause, Manic Street Preachers,The Enemy, Explosions in the Sky, Anathema, Matthew Good Band, Porcupine Tree, Placebo, Katatonia, Tool, VNV Nation, Opeth, Thine, Lacuna Coil, Eliot Smith, Queens of the Stone Age, Ulver, Mogwai, Antimatter, Portishead, Paradise Lost, In Flamesl, Birthday Massacre, Hum, etc. Experimental, Triphop, Ambient, Industrial, Rock, etc.I'm a music fiend. Give me new music!

Movies:

Ma Mère, Pi, Requiem For A Dream, Being John Malkovitch, Naked Lunch, Donnie Darko, Twelve Monkeys, Derrida. Mostly indie films

Television:

I don't own a tv.

Books:

Georges Bataille - The Impossible / La Haine de la Poésie, Le Coupable, L'Expérience Intérieure, etc. Maurice Blanchot, Paul Éluard, Michel Leiris, Walter Benjamin, Gilles Deleuze, Camus, Sartre, Rilke, Nietzsche, Kertesz, KunderaAmateur antiquarian bookseller. My ebay store: http://k2b-bulk.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?MyEbaySellingActiv eListings&ssPageName=STRK:ME:LNLK

Heroes:

Any of the above writers!

My Blog

Autumn dawn & Bataillian discovery

This morning marks the third day in a row that I have remained awake to see the dawn. The dawn is so much more beautiful seen from my perspective. Waking with the dawn lends it an altogether different...
Posted by Rowan de l'espoir on Mon, 24 Sep 2007 04:14:00 PST

Biffure

No trace remains of herbut a pseudonym sous biffurea scratched out emblemand second-hand stories of stasisThe passage of timeThe change of seasonsThe procession of yearsIn unison, they have covered ov...
Posted by Rowan de l'espoir on Wed, 05 Sep 2007 02:51:00 PST

Against the Sun

Oh sun  nameless little star your insouciant solar glow illuminates the world your brightness blinds my eyes Oh eternally returning eternal revolutions Incessant alternation of dark days dazzling n...
Posted by Rowan de l'espoir on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 05:54:00 PST

R

                                  R                 &nb...
Posted by Rowan de l'espoir on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 05:53:00 PST

a confession in verse

silence without respitehere a cat criesoutside my windowsometimes the auditorytraces of happiness and hopeother times, words of angeror anguishor...Nonsensical words intended for a dog's earsI wanted ...
Posted by Rowan de l'espoir on Thu, 23 Aug 2007 08:53:00 PST

where am I?

At times the walls close around meMe? Who is this me? So enclosed...    In these walls invisible, yet impassibleF               &n...
Posted by Rowan de l'espoir on Wed, 22 Aug 2007 04:39:00 PST

Drawn Into Myself

                     ONLY TO SOON              ...
Posted by Rowan de l'espoir on Sun, 19 Aug 2007 07:46:00 PST

Just keep going, don’t I... Bookshop News

I changed the name of my eBay store, which means that the URL has changed as well. It's a change for the better - easier to remember, more professional sounding, and a Bataille reference to boot.It is...
Posted by Rowan de l'espoir on Sat, 18 Aug 2007 04:36:00 PST

Poem that’s been waiting to drop for a while

You will be my inspiration You will be my desperation My hope Despair Time crushes me in the absence of my muse... Inertia, I curse you in vain Time, I reproach for tardiness Chance, most guilty of a...
Posted by Rowan de l'espoir on Sat, 18 Aug 2007 03:11:00 PST

Untitled Poem

What new wounds are neededTo end the ceaseless betrayal of words?Endless words, endless stories, Productions of a restless mind Craving the reassurance of an enduring identity.I slip, I fall, I lose m...
Posted by Rowan de l'espoir on Sat, 18 Aug 2007 02:38:00 PST