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Hoecake the Circus Monkey

I think I'm dumb. Or maybe just happy. Think I'm just happy. 'Mr. Cobain'

About Me

Out of strangled utopias is born a clown, a being divided between beauty & ugliness, light & chaos, Satan himself & a buttered angel...H.V. Miller http://www.clowndestino.com some say personality splits are a disorder, i say they are a self-entertaining asset. i am clowndestino. i am chartreuse because i transfused my blood with it. i am strawberry f'SHO'cake. but most folks know me as chartreuse "hocake" shockadelica, or salome! tom waits is my id! but really, i am just a nervous system with skin! ...my dream is to travel europe busking with tap shoes and a trumpet, as soon as i learn the trumpet and get some rhythm. i want to be prince's back up dancer, but he doesnt seem to be into white chicks. if he only knew i was just born the wrong color! dancing, did i mention dancing? i dance, therefore i am. it is my addiction because it is my therapy! i flirt with everyone...old ladies, kids, people walking down the street, etc. i even wink at dogs. i am a total geek about the nervous system, brain, and body, and the exploration of the inner universe! i am going to be an expressive arts therapist when i grow older (not up) and teach kids to express themselves creatively so they don't get drugged and labeled for some crock of shit disorder they don't even have! (who wouldn't have a "disorder" if they were fed the american program, laced with sugar and antidepressants?) in the meantime i'm giving myself art therapy!

My Interests

.. Smelling, feeling, seeing, tasting, and hearing. Nerve stimulation via stroking, groping, squeezing, etc. Rewiring neural pathways. Regrowing neurons that have been pruned off. Firing a synapse across the great gap, hoping it makes it to the other side! Finding healthy ways of releasing endorphins into my bloodstream...its all about nerves. we are all just one big mass of nervous tissue. Don't know bout you but my nerve endings loove attention! Playing with words. Creating characters from plays on words. Dance: west african, tribal fusion bellydance (really my OWN fusion, cuz those tribal folks are too damn goth for me), breakdance (no, i cant do a head spin or even a windmill... YET). Art metals, clay sculpture, bodywork, bikes, danger, thrills, excitement, circus arts, writing. And my claims to fame in 39 states, the flaming hula hoop, fire dance on skates, the split veil, and the human drink machine!

I'd like to meet:

what does anyone really see in anyone besides themselves? thanks for your mirror! does anyone who reads these manifestos ever try to fulfill them for anyone? if so, read on. a human koala bear, superdorks, gypsies, artists, the italian mafia, sailors, peeps that like how i fly and don't try to clip my wings and keep me to themselves, peeps who can pull a chicken out of their magic scarf (oh wait, I already know them), pterodactyls, peeps to sponsor me to do only what i want to do at all times...in exchange for enriching the world with what it is that i am doing...gimme yer money folks, and i'll give ya some college jargon and a hiphop chicken peep show! the other peeps i would say i wanna meet are peeps i really jes wanna BE!!!

Music:

anything that makes my booty git jiggy widdit: w. african drums, cuban salsa, altered middle eastern grooves, trumpet, esp. spanish horns, i looove spanish horns (ala Calexico, Brownout, mariachis), Spottieottiedopalicious, specific artists: chris cornell, SOUNDGARDEN, james hall, gene loves jezebel, the creatures, juana's adiccion, sabbath w/ ozzy, van halen w/ DLR, mazzy star, portishead, ac/dc, beastie boys, judas priest, bowie, fugazi, tool, lips, nazareth, nugent, buttholes, crash worship, coprolingus, extra action, early cure, jim carroll, luscious jackson, temple of the dog, TOM WAITS, rage, money mark, soul coughing, public enemy, the roots, e. badu, hank sr., patsy cline, willie nelson, JIMI HENDRIX, fishbone, manu ciao, outkast, tom zhe, tricky, les claypool, primus, james hall, morning forty federation, jennyanykind, this bike is a pipebomb, brown whornet, oliver rajamani, winovino, infidelic, buttercup, pillcrusher, las cruces, BALKAN BEAT BOX, luminescent orchestrii, earl harvin, buddy leroy's fashion rap, dr. octogon, santana, sexto sol, los mescaleros, ocote soul sounds, (and of course their other projects: grupo fantasma and brownout) LOS LOBOS, del castillo, chingon, bach, mozart, ephraim owens, brannen temple, PRINCE (duh).

Movies:

amores perros, gilbert grape, never ending story, toy story, say anything, heavy metal (1982 version), bad lieutenant, reservoir dogs, the shining, cat people, romi and michelle's high school reunion, heathers, women on the verge of a nervous breakdown, santa sangre, holy mountain, cape fear, from dusk til dawn, silence of the lambs, 12 monkeys, kalifornia, lost boys, twister (the B movie with Krispin Glover), i wanna be a beauty queen, rize, salome's last dance, fear and loathing in/leaving las vegas, raising arizona, ferris bueller's day off, the holy grail, the beast within, interview w/ a vampire, american beauty, donnie darko, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, city of lost children, pan's labyrinth, dancer in the dark, il postino, blue velvet, shallow grave, mi vida loca. i can't remember the rest. any jodoroski, almodovar, and lynch, anything w/ harvey keitel, jack nicholson...!

Television:

yikes! do you know there are people out there whose sole job is to research how to create images on television that short circuit parts of the brain because our brains quickly become immune to the current images? do you know what happens as a result? we stop using those parts of the brain and when we dont use something for a while, it gets pruned off! imagine all those kids who are placed in front of a TV under age 2, which is the most important time period that the nervous system and brain are developing? there are parts of their brain that may never develop! and those are the people that are breeding, dammit! i told you i was a geek about the nervous system!

Books:

I'll write one soon! heh heh heh! but honestly...im a psychology/neuro physchology/pre and peri natal psychology geek, no shit! i also used to read self-help books. boy, did that help! oh yeah, and tom robbins...still life with woodpecker, even cowgirls get the blues, etc. i've tried to read naked lunch a million times without getting annoyed... am i missing something? in 1990 i read geek love and started to feel really weird in my skin! the restaurant at the end of the universe, electric acid koolaid test... dont read it, just peek into the life of me and my friends circa 1994-200?

Heroes:

powdered toast maaaan!!!! why? because he is crack sugar and therefore adored by kids, to the point that he makes them believe they can fly because HE can...then he bursts their bubble and as they fall through the air realizing he was a crock of shit and they are gonna die cuz they cant fly, he SAVES them, so that he can mindfuck them into idolizing him once more and be their hero, then he sarcastically asks..."are we clinging tenaciously to my buttocks?" also, the woman in my photo album with the american flag draped around her. she was a victim of katrina. she is my guru. all they did for her was wrap her in an american flag blanket and leave her high and dry (or actually, very low and wet).

My Blog

Sensory overload vs. Sensory deprivation, is my glass half full or half empty?

THE DREAM SENSE, THE SIXTH SENSE, COMMON SENSE, NON-SENSEsometimes i chew a delicacy without tasting itsometimes i breathe in the air and don't feel it, don't use itsometimes i do both at the same tim...
Posted by Hoecake the Circus Monkey on Tue, 14 Oct 2008 10:16:00 PST

Like I say, I am a human being, not a human was or human will be!

Eckhart Tolle in The Power of Now sums it up nicely:"When two or more egos come together, drama of some kind or another ensues. But even if you live totally alone, you still create your own drama. Whe...
Posted by Hoecake the Circus Monkey on Mon, 13 Oct 2008 05:27:00 PST

Smiling AT myself, TO myself, and FOR myself!

I am such a nerd. No, really I am a dork. But a nerd too on some things. Like school. Currently I am transferring a bunch of stuff I have done in my life into college credit towards a bachelor's degre...
Posted by Hoecake the Circus Monkey on Thu, 02 Oct 2008 11:28:00 PST

Craigslist post in "Missed Connections" section about the Circus Monkey

My Dearest Dancing Monkey - m4wReply to:[email protected]: 2008-08-29, 2:19AM When I left my house tonight, I had the intention of supporting a local organization, in a local establis...
Posted by Hoecake the Circus Monkey on Thu, 11 Sep 2008 09:45:00 PST

"Call Me A Dog" by Chris Cornell

You call me a dogwell that's fair enoughCause it ain't no use to pretend you're wrongWhen you call me outI can't hide anymoreI have no disguise you can't see throughWell you say its bad luckTo have fa...
Posted by Hoecake the Circus Monkey on Thu, 21 Aug 2008 05:56:00 PST

it was jack but coulda been anyone!

somehow i got a flash that just now that triggered a memory of a dream i had last night. as you may know, the dreams that you have during your deepest sleep are the ones that you don't remember. i use...
Posted by Hoecake the Circus Monkey on Fri, 22 Feb 2008 12:12:00 PST

the mardi gras freeks of 1998!

i don't have the editing tools to turn this photo the right way except by posting it on photobucket, so fucket, i'll post it on my blog instead of in my album!..">...
Posted by Hoecake the Circus Monkey on Thu, 14 Feb 2008 09:17:00 PST

ya know yer gettin’ old an’ boring when...

you know you're getting old when you've had the same six pack of golden monkey (super yummy 9.5% alcohol belgian style ale, for those of you not in the know, run down to beer alley at whole foods asap...
Posted by Hoecake the Circus Monkey on Mon, 04 Feb 2008 11:44:00 PST

domesticated whore

ever notice there is so much either/or and black or white in the world...that proverbial pendulum swing from one side to the other? lets take a survey. a lunchtime poll, heather. and you too, heather....
Posted by Hoecake the Circus Monkey on Tue, 15 Jan 2008 10:38:00 PST

words, wormz, and more words

deface it, disgrace it, sarcastically embrace it!
Posted by Hoecake the Circus Monkey on Tue, 08 Jan 2008 10:41:00 PST