The longing of over-fullness

About Me

Here's an old blog for our banished and gnarled dreams...
I am a reclusive hermit-like creature that only comes out when the fat kid upstairs insists on banging those metal tins together. I like capsules, degrees of wonderment, the idiot sky, black bile, near-misses, the erotic nuances of atrocity, states of stupification, incongruence, catty asides, snappy dressers...
I'm writing a book. It's a love story, I suppose. Love being frozen and hardly apparent until the very end. Black moods, Negligence, Exquisite abasement, mental collapse, purity of neglect, derisive laughter, frustrated aims, contaminated hopes, messianic dementia, curtailed ecstasy, floundering bliss, a holocaust of survival, plastic smiles, death musicks, grieving, the erotic poetry of structures, incongruities, terminal loneliness, depraved sensibilities, brutal intellectual strivings, fragility, degrees of solitude...
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"And when spells are cast day after day all over Paris to prevent me from weeding out my soul, from having access to its buried orifice, which every religion has had the intolerable conceit to declare forbidden, no one can continue to tell me, no one can come here and tell me that I am mad to to seek this physical solace of the soul, which is the magic substance of poetry. For this is what I am accused of and this is why I have been confined for eight years, and why I have been put in a straightjacket, poisoned, and put to sleep with electricity it is for having tried to find the fundamental substance of the soul and to isolate it in essential fluids."--Antonin Artaud, "Letter to Henri Parisot", October 6, 1945

My Interests

Abraxis , absurdity , acoustic guitar , Antonin Artaud , artifice , Asatru , atrocity , auto-erotic narcissism, , banishing ritual , beer, biology, black cats, Bloody fairy tales, ceremonial magick, Charles Lindberg, Child Criminals, Child Murder, Crucifixion, Savitri Devi, Dressing to KILL, elitism, Elizabeth Bathory, Esoteric Christianity, esoteric texts, Europa as Spiritual Concept, European history, Julius Evola, Fascism, Female Criminals, forensics, funerary, G.I. Gurdjieff, genocide, Gilles de Rais, Gregorian Chants, Heathenry, Heretics, Horror Stories, Humanity's collective blood lust, Hymns Jaguar hearse, Japanese rope bondage, Liturgy, Lustmord, Magnus Hirschfeld, Major League Baseball, mausoleums, mind power, Modern Classical music, Murder as public initiation ritual, National Socialism, Nightmares, occult, Otto Weininger, Outlaw gangs, Paganism, population control, Royalty, runes, Seduction, Sketch comedy, Swank, swastika, Theatre of Cruelty, Thule, Twin Peaks, verbosity, Vorticism, Witch trials, Yukio Mishima, zealotry, Zionism

I'd like to meet:

Ann Coulter is redoutably, exceedingly HOT!!!

Music:

Abba
Anita Lane
Anton Szandor LaVey
Antony and the Johnsons
Billie Holiday
The Birthday Party
Blur
Bob Dylan
Bob Wills and his Texas Playboys
Brian Eno
Burzum
Charles Camille Saint-Saëns
Coil
Crispin Hellion Glover
Curve
David Bowie
David E. Williams
Dead Can Dance
Death in June
Der Blutharsch
Diamanda Galas
Dream City Film Club
Einsturzende Neubauten
Emmylou Harris
Fire + Ice
Frank Sinatra
Gillian Welch
Grey Wolves
Hank Williams
In Slaughter Natives
James Carr
Japan
Jim Croce
Jimi Hendrix
Jimmie Rodgers
Johnny Cash
Klaus Nomi
Kraftwerk
Leadbelly
Legendary Pink Dots
Leonard Cohen
Lustmord
Magazine
Marilyn Manson
Mojave 3
Morrissey
Neil Young
New York Dolls
Nick Cave
Nico
NON
Ostara
Paul Dukas
Prince
Pulp
Radiohead
Rod Stewart
Roxy Music
Sanctum
Scott Walker
Sixteen Horsepower
Skinny Puppy
Slowdive
The Smiths Soft Cell
Sol Invictus
Surgical Penis Klinik
Strawberry Switchblade
Strength Through Joy
Swans
T-Rex
The Birthday Party
The Cure
The Dream Academy
The Moon lay hidden beneath a Cloud
The Rolling Stones
The Smiths
The Sundays
The The
Tim Buckley
Tindersticks
Tiny Tim
Tom Waits
Toroihd
Townes van Zandt
Von Thronstahl

Movies:

Carl Theodor Dreyer
Christopher Nolan
Crispin Hellion Glover
Darren Aronofsky
David Lynch
Friedrich Wilhelm Murnau
Rainer Werner Fassbinder
Jean Cocteau
John Waters
Maya Deren
La Belle et la bête
Blue Velvet
The Conformist
Naked
Nosferatu
The Machinist
The Maids
La Passion de Jeanne d'Arc
The Reflecting Skin
The Servant
Vampyr
Wild at Heart
Les Levres rouges
Odishon
A Clockwork Orange
Blood Sucking Freaks
Dead Ringers
Don't Look Now
El Topo
Freaks
I Spit on your Grave
La Caduta degli dei
La Cite des enfants perdus
Night Porter
O! Lucky Man
Ordet
Peeping Tom
Pretty Poison
Spider
Texas Chainsaw Massacre
The Cement Garden
The Reflecting Skin
The Virgin Spring
The Wicker Man
They Shoot Horses--Don't They?
Triumph of the Will
Vampyr

Television:

Books:

F. Nietzsche
A. S. LaVey
A. Artaud
Shirley Jackson
Flannery O' Connor
T. S. Eliot
Peter Sotos
Leopold von Sacher-Masoch Venus in Furs
Guy de Maupassant "Le Horla"

Industrial Culture Handbook Answer Me! Lords of Chaos

I collect biographies of Artaud, Hitler, Ezra Pound, Nico, Nick Drake, Hank Williams, Andy Warhol, Leni Riefenstahl, Genghis Khan, Vlad Dracul, Sir Oswald Mosely, Aleister Crowley... I read true crime mostly, I have an Encyclopedia set called Crimes and Punishment, books by Colin Wilson, Harold Schechter, etc. I have a ton of books I haven't read yet and they sit there mocking me from the shelf.

Heroes:

My Blog

Review--Traitor

Traitordirected by Jeffrey Nachmanoffwritten by Steve Martin and Jeffrey Nachmanoffstarring Don Cheadle, Guy Pearce, Jeff Daniels, Said Taghmaoui, Neal McDonough, Archie Panjabi, Raad RawiIt's interes...
Posted by The longing of over-fullness on Sat, 11 Oct 2008 08:47:00 PST

Review--Roman Polanski: Wanted and Desired

Roman Polanski: Wanted and Desireddirected by Marina ZenovichThis documentary by Marina Zenovich traces that singular moment in 1977 when 44 year old Roman Polanski convinced thirteen year old S...
Posted by The longing of over-fullness on Sat, 11 Oct 2008 06:40:00 PST

Review--Miracle at St. Anna

Miracle at St. Annadirected by Spike Leewritten by James McBridebased on the book by James McBridestarring Derek Luke, Michael Ealy, Laz Alonso, Omar Benson Miller, Pierfrancesco Favino, Valentina Cer...
Posted by The longing of over-fullness on Fri, 10 Oct 2008 02:50:00 PST

Review--How to Lose Friends and Alienate People

How to Lose Friends and Alienate Peopledirected by Robert Weidewritten by Peter Straughanbased on the novel by Toby Youngstarring Simon Pegg, Kirsten Dunst, Jeff Bridges, Megan Fox, Gillian Ande...
Posted by The longing of over-fullness on Wed, 08 Oct 2008 02:37:00 PST

Review--Up the Yangtze

Up the Yangtzedirected by Yung Changwritten by Yung Changstarring Jerry Bo Yu Chen, Campbell Ping He, Cindy Shui YuThe gorgeous, intoxicating Yangtze river, simply referred to as "the river" in China,...
Posted by The longing of over-fullness on Tue, 07 Oct 2008 12:29:00 PST

The Order of Myths

The Order of Mythsdirected by Margaret Brown In Mobile, Alabama, a city with a jagged history of slave ownership, the sons and daughters of each side of the divide celebrate in their own w...
Posted by The longing of over-fullness on Mon, 06 Oct 2008 03:39:00 PST

Review--Dr. No

Dr. Nodirected by Terence Youngwritten by Johanna Harwood, Richard Maibaum, Berkely Matherbased on the novel by Ian Flemingstarring Sean Connery, Ursula Andress, Joseph Wiseman, Jack Lord, Bernard Lee...
Posted by The longing of over-fullness on Mon, 06 Oct 2008 01:46:00 PST

Review--The Dark Knight

The Dark Knightdirected by Christopher Nolanwritten by Jonathan Nolan and Christopher Nolanstory by Christopher Nolan and David S. Goyerbased on characters created by Bob Kanestarring Christian Bale, ...
Posted by The longing of over-fullness on Sat, 04 Oct 2008 04:28:00 PST

Review--The Women (2008)

The Women directed by Diane Englishwritten by Diane Englishbased on the play by Claire Boothe Luce1939 screenplay by Anita Loos and Jane Murfinstarring Meg Ryan, Annette Bening, Eva Mendes, Debra Mess...
Posted by The longing of over-fullness on Fri, 03 Oct 2008 05:29:00 PST

Searchers 2.0

Searchers 2.0written and directed by Alex Coxstarring Del Zamora, Ed Pansullo, Jaclyn Jonet, Sy Richardson. Zahn McClarnonThe dusty trail leads a trio of wanderers through vast graveyards of empty spa...
Posted by The longing of over-fullness on Thu, 02 Oct 2008 03:15:00 PST