I'm not an angel or a saint and I really don't know why so many people call me "angel"? My birth name is "Anneli" but my friends call me ~Ina~. I'm born with poetic blood into my veins and you can always have deep conversations together with me about dreams, hopes, fears, thoughts and life. I treat other people in my life like I want to be treated myself. I am easy to talk with, social and very open-minded about many things, but only with people that I feel confidence for in my life. My passion in life is to write poetry and express myself through them, I love this so much that I have gave myself a promise: ~I will never stop writing poems until the day I die~ Writing poetry have made me handle the obstacles in my life and I belive that it's a very good way to express the feelings deep inside of me. I have wrote all my poems into my blog and you're welcome to read them if you like to and feel free to leave a comment about any of them. About my growth: I was very shy when I was a child. I was an easy victim for the other children in school because of that.I never defended myself or fought back, my way to handle/survive my childhood was to write/create poetry of my feelings. It made me feel better and I have wrote since then:-) I was one at the bottom of the pecking order until I quit nine-year compulsory school [for children aged 7-16] . I was really depressed and sick and tired of my life when I was about 15 years old and carved myself into my arms. A destructive behaviour that made me relieve the pain I felt inside of me.I began upper secondary school and got new friends when I was about 16 years old and that gave me more self confidence. My shyness reduced and I began to talk more. I got friends and my self confidence grew more and more for each year. I thought that I met the man in my life when I was about 17 and we moved together. My parents didn't like him and I was very childish then and thought that maybe they would accept him if I got pregnant. So I got pregnant and gave birth to a girl when I was 19 years old. She was premature and because of that very tiny and weak. They put her into a incubator for 3 weeks and she grew day after day and became stronger and stronger. During this time, my boyfriend was visiting us once:-( I thought that the fact that he was a father now, would change his violent behaviour but it didn't. I had to escape from home many times because of his hot temper. Now when I had a baby girl to take care of, I felt strong enough to leave him and never return so I did. I have never regret that desition and I wish that every woman who lives in a violent relationship could have the strength to do the same. He never really cared about his daughter when we lived together and he never did when I had left him either. No chistmas gifts or presents on her birthday, no phonecalls, no letters. I haven't heard anything since the day I ran away and my daughter was 10 months old then!!!!My daughter is 11 years old now and we have a very close mother-daughter bond, she's everything to me:-) It was tough to be a single mom and I got eating disorder and threw up everything I ate. I suffered from the eating disorder 2-3 years until I got cured from it. I belive today that I got this problem because I had lost control of everything in my life, but this was something that I could control myself and no one else!!!My life is okay today and some days I feel okay others I feel down. Problems come and go into our lives.I belive that things happens in our lives for various reasons. I don't have any preconceived notions about anyone and I belive that all people are equivalent. Welcome to become one of my friends if you dare :-))) I hope that I haven't scared you away by telling you openhearted about my life.
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