Bloody Romance Photography*

In 2005, I realized that I wanted to be a photographer. The greek definition of photography is "writing with light" and that is what I do. Photography to me is more than just modeling, fashion, mainstream media. Photography is about not preserving memories but having something to look back on to help you remember. Photography is about creativity, emotion and artistic nature. Being a photographer is more than just camera, equipment, and subject choice. The equipment does not make the photographer, photography depends on its capturer. My dream for my photography is to not just promote myself or become famous. My mission is to enlighten people on propeganda, worldly affairs that need resolution, I want to open your eyes to how I see the world and how I believe the world should be viewed. Photography is my thereapy, my creativity, your creativity and in the small click of my shutter I begin my silent revolution!For all of you I will cut myself open from the inside. I will tell you who I really am rather than the myspace whore on the web that say they are one thing that is the total opposite than they really are. I will tell you who I am, my flaws, my sins, my bullshit, my love, and exactly what I think about you. Looks are lovely and painfully decieving; I am who you think I am and I am non of that at all. I am the girl who fixes everyone's problems except her own, I am the girl who contradicts everything you say, I am the girl who questions everything in your game. I am the insane therapist, I am the one who will always be there for you, but is rarely there for myself.I am the seeker of truth and I promise you I will find it. I am aware of this political nightmare and at the same time so politically incorrect. I am the girl that believes in love at first sight, the girl who believes that five years will last for eternity, the girl that hides behind painful memories in hope that warm kisses, sweat soaked sheets and profound chemistry will save me. I am the ultimate lover, and I promise my intensity will scare you away. I am the emotional young woman, I am the sensitive spouse and the girl who doesn't have faith in it at all. My friends are my life but they don't exept it, my mom is my best friend, my daughter and my support. My ex is the man of my dreams he just doesn't have enough faith in himself. To befriend me is the best and worst thing you could ever do. I will break you down and expose all of your flaws...knaw on you forever till you can't take anymore. I hide behind my camera so that you can not see my envy, pain, tears and hate. I forcefully expose the uglyness in the world so that when you wake up it is easier to see the beautiful and fight for more. I am insecure, I am alone no matter how close you are sitting next to me. I am a broken soul with everything to give and nothing left for myself but the tears in my eyes. I belive that everything happens for a reason, this too shall pass and bluntly; karma is a bitch. I am a witch but I will never hex you or cast spells apon you. So mote it be! I am the supporter and the unsopported, I am the giver and the taker, the writer, the poet, the lover and the hater. I am the brave one who is always scared. I am the giver who wants something in return. The lover that wishes she didn't have a heart. I am the happy girl that cries herself to sleep. The girl who helps everyone and wishes she could take it all back. The hippi that wants to destroy the world. The conformist that can't find her place. The dreamer that never sleeps. I am the girl who fears death but drowns in her sleep. I am the beauty queen that no one see's. I am logical yet I belive every conspiracy I meet. I am the girl who fights anxiety everyday, I am the happiest depressed girl youll ever meet. I am your best friend and your worst nightmare. I am the peaceful warrior that says fuck you all. I am the witch that will burn YOU at the stake. I am the girl who wants him back, I am the girl who will never stop fighting. But most of all...I am me, who wishes she never was.Layout made by xXxManda_PandaxXx