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I will never let you see me cry

I am here for Friends

About Me


Death is nothing more than the beginning of a new journey.
Hmmmmm....what would you like to know about me? I am blond (duh) with green eyes. I don't like games, so don't try to mess with my heart, my mind or my soul. To make things perfectly clear, I am only here for friends. Consider it a trust issue, but I have no intention of going down that path again.
I believe in magic and the energy sources which emanates from the Earth. I have determined we are currently in hell, our souls trapped in bodies that wither with age, feel pain and ultimately endure heartache. Until we get it right we are destined to wander this plane, thrashing about incapable of understanding the meaning of life.
What types of things occupy my time? I hike, rollerblade, hang out on the beach, surf (ok, so I fall off much better than I stay standing..lol) bike, write (long, long letters), work out at the gym, read, camp and take long walks. I also love to cook and grow my own fresh herbs. However, I would say that my all time favorite past time is dancing; I can dance for hours, anytime any day of the week.
Life seldom disappoints me, since I hold very low expectations of it. I learned early that those you love and count on will be the ones to betray you. I hate liars. I will never lie to you so I expect the same consideration in return. With this in mind, I must warn you to consider your ability to endure my raw heartfelt response before you pose a serious question to me.
Never put someone on a pedestal.....Not only will they disappoint you one day, but they will also fail themselves.
Cynical? ..Perhaps. However, I am always willing to try something new and open to change.
I am completely devoted to those I consider friends and refuse to let them slip away easily. I never repeat anything I've been told and I never judge. I will give my heart and soul to a friend without ever asking for anything in return.
Well that's me in a nutshell, scared yet?
Blood is only a fluid running through our veins..........You are not required to like everyone you are related to.

My Interests

Submission, Bondage, Witchcraft, The Occults, Obedience of the Flesh and the Passion of Dancing. Power, Immortality, Domination and Sacrifice.


*** Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass......it's about learning to dance in the rain. ***


** Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. **



Today, January 7, 2008
You generally want it all, or you don't want any of it. The celestial configuration is helping you to learn how to balance this tendency. Gradually you are getting the message that it doesn't help when you have such extreme reactions to events and issues within your relationships. You will see how you often cause problems by your own attitudes, and so you will gradually change.


Tarot reading 1/15/08
Love: Temperance
Touchstone: Strength
Career: The Lovers
The kindness of Temperance and the power of Strength promise you a successful development of your friendships and love relationships. You are radiating an incredible charm, you know how to seduce by being kind and gentle, and you’re laying down one card after the other, while smiling all the while. Unless you start getting manipulative with it, this cocktail of attributes ensures 100% happiness! At work, you are likely to be distracted today. You’ll be trying to do too many things all at once - your strong curiosity will lead you off in all sorts of directions, and in the end you achieve nothing, and are frustrated. It would certainly take a lot of effort from your colleagues or partners to get you back on the right track! Listen to the advice of those that work with you on a day-to-day basis and who have an intimate knowledge of what’s at stake. Don’t just swerve from the chosen course for no apparent reason...

I'd like to meet:

In General:Intriguing, educated, artistic, passionate people that tend to have a dark side.

More Personal:Someone who can make me laugh so hard I pee my pants, inspires me to be provocative anytime anywhere, can accept me when I'm vulnerable and appreciate me when I'm strong.
A romantic at heart, whos' intense passion can move me to tears. Someone I can talk to for hours never running out of things to say, or able to sit by quietly, without needing to speak.




Music:

I spend hours at a time, searching the internet for interesting music. I listen to rock, alternative, world, raggae, metal, emo and just about everything from the 80's.

Heroes:

Someone who.....
Can own my soul, join me in my darkest fantasies and still love me in the morning.
Satisfies me when I beg for more, takes me to the edge of madness and over, never letting go of my hand.



My Blog

Forbidden Encounter

As your lips hover above my skin, I feel the warm moist desire in your breath My body tingles as you fingers slowly trace my shoulders Finally resting upon my upon my breast Gasping for air, as you co...
Posted by I will never let you see me cry on Wed, 09 Jan 2008 09:01:00 PST

Escape Into Madness

The clouded sky has turned to red With empty eyes, I move ahead Concrete stretches beyond my sight Pushing me, calling me, it feels so right My heart feels nothing No sorrow, no pain Dots on the ro...
Posted by I will never let you see me cry on Thu, 03 Jan 2008 03:36:00 PST

I Could Cry

I could cry a thousand tears, but it wouldn't change a thing. I could beg for your forgiveness, but you would never listen. I could tell you I was sorry, but you don't really care. I could promis...
Posted by I will never let you see me cry on Tue, 18 Dec 2007 07:29:00 PST

Silently Screaming

I stand in the crowded streets, my smile and laugh entices those I meet I walk alone with my head held high Quick to exchange a glance as I pass by You view the way I dress As if  I'm only&n...
Posted by I will never let you see me cry on Thu, 22 Nov 2007 04:21:00 PST

A Moment In Time

It was only a moment ago,   We were talking, laughing and crying together.   It was only a moment ago,   We shared our deepest secrets.   It was only a moment ago we would talk...
Posted by I will never let you see me cry on Wed, 19 Sep 2007 02:19:00 PST

The Haunting

The ache remains Although the fire that once burned Is now only a familiar spark The memories still come But some of the pieces are missing I hold onto the hope that I will hear your voice Yet ...
Posted by I will never let you see me cry on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 01:00:00 PST

You never said I couldnt love you

Do I love you?   Every moment of every day   I try so hard to forget,   You invade my life, my heart, my soul   I don't know how to stop.   I try to let go   I try t...
Posted by I will never let you see me cry on Fri, 31 Aug 2007 03:06:00 PST

Energy of Life

I am a soul, adrift. You can find me in every grain of sand. You can find me in every drop of water. I  am in every breath of air you take. You can see me shinning in the sky at night. I ...
Posted by I will never let you see me cry on Fri, 24 Aug 2007 11:50:00 PST

Pieces of Me

My Heart: Is not for sale nor is it up for grabs. It is hidden, locked away, unaccessible. I guard it vigilantly as it is fragile, irreplaceable. On occasion I will share a piece but eventually I end...
Posted by I will never let you see me cry on Mon, 20 Aug 2007 01:27:00 PST

One Last Fantasy before I move on

Your lips press against mine Our hearts beat as one Hands are entwined Your desire makes me cry out Then I open my eyes, only to realize you are nothing more than a fantasy.   For years I lived w...
Posted by I will never let you see me cry on Sat, 18 Aug 2007 02:46:00 PST