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a lil bout me would be simply this....im really easy goin..and hella laid back....i dont take shit from anyone...so dont start...i dont care about pety bull...so dont bring it up...if we're cool then ill be the best friend you can EVER have....if we are'nt...ill NEVER start anything because im not about that....but if you cross me...or anyone i call my fam...your DONE....jus so u know...not only physically, but verbally......also....if you're in the juggalo fam...GIVE ME A WOOT WOOT....n if you're not in the juggalo fam...thats kewl too...you are who you are...n ill NEVER try to change that...not matter how long we're friends....im a really amazing writer..tho i dont spend much time on it....i love to doodle....n i love ALL MUSIC...so if ya got something ya think i would like give me a holla.....if ya wanna be friends....give me a holla...if ya wanna let me know you're a juggalo give me a WOOT WOOT....until the future homies n home-girls....PEACE MOTHER FUCKAHS!!!!!
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now i see..im no longer blind
by: caitlin b 06/08/08
now i see
this is what
u've done to me
u took my heart
said u wouldnt
tear it apart
said u'd always
be there
thru the hurt
thru the pain
but now its time
to see again
to know that ur gone
tho ive known this all along
i know that in my soul
this is the one place ill never go
back in time once again
to see, to feel the pain
knowing that it is right
fighting this unforgiving fight
i know that u r here
and its time to show no fear
its time to say what i need to say
so in my heart...ill let go of u
someday...
so the time is now
to set me free
and show me how
the time is now, so u see
the pain that has built up inside of me
i know that im not okay but
i will b alright
so have no fear
n jus tonight
shed no tear
cuz someday ull see the pain that is urself
so put ur box upon the shelf
leave it there
take it out
when u feel
it isnt fair....
remember who u r
so that time can heal ur scars
let me know that it is okay
so in my heart....ill let go of u
someday
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The Sharp Side Of Nothing
by:caitlin b 8-4-05
as every day passes by
you always make me wonder why
i took the time to understand
the decisions and consequences of your plans
i was there when no one else was or will be
why can't you just except me
when i was gone you cried for me to be there
but when i'm around you can't even bare
the thought of me loving another, no one besides you
and what is it that you want me to do
i won't be here forever and the end is coming near
you've been blinded so much, you can't see clear
do you want me or is it your stuck in your greed
please tell me... it's me you need
whisper in my ear the things i want to hear, where the secrets lie
there is nothing here for me, only things that you defy
this is no soft feather pillow, there's nothing here to rest your head on
you say you miss me now that i'm gone
no that i'm missing... is it me that you yern
no, just suffer while i'll enjoy the burn
you said come see me tomorrow
tomrrow's too early and yesturday was too late so i'll drown in the sorrow
On Those Rainy Days Of Cold And Silence
by: caitlin b 8-3-05'
it's hard for you to undersatnd,
but this isn't what i had planned.
no one can ever know,
about this pain that i can't show.
if i ever could hold you near me,
but i know this isn't how you want it to be.
the pain is full fledged and burned in my skin.
this pain i feel; is it outside or in?
the silver, red and the peach,
how i admire each.
with every tear drop fallen to the floor,
this blade tears my skin more.
ripped, torn, and bleeding for you,
and this pain that i show to few.
if only i could be saved from this cold, dark wasteland...
so much blood that you can no longer see my hand.
and how it feels sweet when it glides across the wrist,
and if only i wasn't lost in the clouded mist.
but how i love every strong, wanted affliction,
and i yern for this painful addiction.
i've hit complete bottom now, no turning back,
so find me, save me, or haunt me in this act.
but always know that there was no way,
that you could have seen it comin' because it was bound to happen
some day....
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Do you know the one wish that i've always had but never gotten....somebody that would sit there n fight for me..... somebody that would do eveything in their power knowing that it was right to fight for me...but ive never had that luxuary.... n i dont think i ever will.....

Do You Ever Wonder What If?
Do You Ever Wonder What If? Like, What If I'm Not Supposed To Be Blessed With These Gifts. What If I Did This Instead Of That? What If I Never Met You? What if I Never Knew You? What Would Life Be Like I Wonder? My Life Would Be Filled With Sunshine, My Life Wouldn't Be So Twisted All The Time, I'd Be Able To Figure This Out In My Brain, I Wouldn't Have You To Drive Me Insane. What If I Never Knew You? What If I Never Met You? What Would Life Be Like I Wonder? But Honestly... I'm Glad I Met You. You Made My Bright Shine Through. Now, Even Now, I'll Still Sit And Glow, Because You Can't Destroy Something You Truly Don't Know. Do You Ever Wonder What If? Because I Know I Always Do, That Just Leaves Me And Mainly You; SO... Do You Ever Wonder...

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You're a Horny Drunk After a few drinks you start to feel lonely. Hence
the reason you find the most readily available
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was sooo drunk!'.

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You Are a Peacemaker Soul
You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.
War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.
You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.
Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy.

While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.
You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.
On the flip side, you've got a great sense of humor and wit.
You're always diplomatic and able to give good advice.

Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are a Seeker Soul
You are on a quest for knowledge and life challenges.
You love to be curious and ask a ton of questions.
Since you know so much, you make for an interesting conversationalist.
Mentally alert, you can outwit almost anyone (and have fun doing it!).

Very introspective, you can be silently critical of others.
And your quiet nature makes it difficult for people to get to know you.
You see yourself as a philosopher, and you take everything philosophically.
Your main talent is expressing and communicating ideas.

Souls you are most compatible with: Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul What Kind of Soul Are You?

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Your Inner Color is Blue
Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor. What's Your Inner Color?

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take life by the strings...n PULL
BY: caitlin b 07/10/08

take life by the strings
take ur heart n let it sing
dont be quiet be too loud
dont fall
float on a single cloud
live ur life the way u want
love is what we all must flaunt
tell urself that u r great
n nothing can bother u
even if its filled w hate
if u feel there's nothing to be done
jus know ur not the only one
everyone has it hard
the only thing that matters
is how u play ur cards
thank urself everyday
love urself in every way
dont look back at ur past
dont look for the future
or ur never gonna last
know that every little inperfection
cancels out all the rejection
because in the time that u feel so down
there is someone somewhere helping u not drown
there is someone somewhere that knows the u
that u hold so dear
so let them show u how it is
live life, absolutely no fear
tell all but hide it just the same
that way u can find urself once again...

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The BEGINNING: 1) Raised in: Maine 2) Your name: caitlin 3) Birth date: may 5, 1988...everyone partys on my b-day! 4) Any siblings:3 5) Oldest of them all: brad 6) Hair color: brown red original, red and black right now 7) Hair length: kinda longish 8) First school: martel elementry, lewiston, maine 9) Eye color: it changes all the time 10) Shoe size: 81/2 2 a 9 in womens and a like 6 or 7 mens 11) Mood: content 12) College: whats that...haha 13) Height:5'6' 14) Lefty/Righty: both but mostly rightLOVE LIFE: 1) Do you remember your first real relationship: tj farwell...what a mistake..lol 2) Do you believe in love: kinda 3) Shortest relationship: a week 4) Have you ever been heartbroken: a couple of dissapointments but nothing i cant get over 5) Do you love someone right now: yeah...but ill never tell ;) 6) Have you ever fallen for a friend: yes, it was a HUGE mistake 7) Are you afraid of commitment: yeah, but who isnt really...... 8) Do you believe in love at first sight? yes, but its more like 'god that guy/girl is hot n i love em so much i wanna fuck em'....haha!THIS OR THAT: 1) Love or Money: y not both...haha...love a duh 2) Coffee or alcohol: coffee o! i hate thee 3) One night stands or relationships: relationship 4) Television or internet: internet 5) Pepsi or Coke: soda is icky! 6) Long night out or romantic night in: doesn't matter either way 7) Phone or in Person: in personHAVE YOU EVER: 1) Have you ever been caught sneaking out: yeah but i was so drunk i didnt really care 2) Have you ever skinny dipped: wouldnt you like to know 3) Have you ever been drunk: too many times 4)Have you ever been on a house boat: nope. 5) Have you ever finished an entire jawbreaker: naw 6) Have you ever colored your hair: yup too many times 7) Have you ever been streaking: haha no but ive seen it done, it looks quite fun......lolRANDOM: 1) Are you talking to anyone right now: no....does myself count 2) Are you German: yes 3) Are you Italian: no 4) Are you French: yes 5) Are you Mexican: nope 6) Are you Dutch: i think so 7) Are you Indian: yes 8) Are you Irish: yeah 9) Are you Russian: nope 10) Are your parents still married:nope.DO YOU: 1) Do you get depressed about things easily: depressed is a harsh word..... 2) Do you live life to the fullest:always 3) Are you comfortable with the way you look: yeah. 4) How do you dress: how dont i dress should be the question 5) Are you scared of growing old alone: a little...but i love myself wholeheartedly so whatever 6) What do you want to be when you grow up: architect.....is that spelt right? 7) Favorite season: spring...thats when my fav flower comes out 8) Are you a vegetarian: haha no
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I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU...EVER WHERE DID YOU GO SWEET ANGEL
I've tried to remember, the last time that I saw your face. The only thing that comes to mind, is I took too much space. I didn't learn what is important, until it was too late. I just left you here all alone, in this weird twist of fate. I just took my leave and didn't care what was wrong or right. I could've stayed but I left you, in the darkness of the night. Where did you go sweet angel and why'd you leave so fast. I wish I could've told you I love you because I didn't in the past. I wish I had said so many things but I couldn't find the words. Where have you gone sweet angel, are you flying among the birds. Are you lost along the clouds, are you floating in the sky. Watch out for me sweet angel cause I know you'll here my cry. Take me on your path sweet angel, please don't leave me here. Because it's you that I miss and it's you I hold so dear. Where did you go sweet angel, from this world that's been unkind. I know that I'll feel safe, with your loving hand in mine. Don't leave sweet angel, cause I'm tourmented by the sorrow. Let me know you'll be okay, so I can hope for tomorrow.

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THE HISTORY OF THE VAMPIRE KANDIKAIT Kandikait arose in the time before time....she has stalked many and has forgiven none....after the love of her life left her to wonder the earth alone, she slept. she arose again in the 1700's only to find her love once more. they lived in salem mass together for many years.... abigail(me) was loved by many...but loved only one. anthony. her long lost love, their powers were great together n they were strong together. she being the 'angel,' the 'goddess.' anthony being the 'devil,' the 'god.' one day she meet a stranger that drifted into town. she caught his eye and they began to talk. she had never talked with anyone like this before. she found a new different kind of connection. though this was strange to her she didnt want to let go of it. his name was gabriel. she showed him the town n was kind to him. before they knew it they shared things with each that they didnt even know about themselves. they spent many nights talking and just being themselves together. gabriel loved abigail but was too shy to say....she knew it too. though she loved anthony with all her heart she could not shake gabriel out of her thoughts. anthony knew this too....but he was a jelous kind of being. he did not want his abigail to be led astray from her pack or her true self. but he did not want to lose her by restraining her, for thats what he loved..her free spirit. but now it was what he was begining to hate. one day she told anythony she was leaving to visit gabriel in the township... anthony begged her not to go.... but she thought it was silly and said everything would be fine. tho anthony trusted abigail he was weary...so he followed her to town. only to find gabriel had confessed his love for her and was kissing his abigail. he returned home and waited for her. inraged with jelousy and hot with malice. what anthony didnt know was abigail had told gabriel that she valued their friendship n their love...she could never be with him for she loved anthony with all her black little heart... and she knew that neither she or he would ever undertand it... so she fled and left his side. she returned home, finding anythony sitting in front of the fire. he looked calm but he was filled with rage. she looked at him and asked "my dear anthony, whatever is the matter?' he looked at her with his black eyes and she knew what he was about to do... he said calmly "if you are going to rip out my heart then i will rip out yours..." he lunged at her and stabbed the knife in deep...as the blood poured from her heaving chest; she looked at anthony with wilting eyes and a sinking heart... with her last breath she said "i told him i chose you, im sorry...." and her last breath escaped her... what anthony did not know was that gabriel was outside and heard the struggle....he ran to the house and flung open the door. only to find anthony standing over abigail....seeing abigail dead on the floor filled gabriel with rage. he looked up at anthony with fear and hate in his eyes. gabriel turned and ran to the town. he told everyone what had happened... the people of the township gathered inraged at what had happened. they gathered as many as possible and went to the house...anthony was waiting. he knew what he had done and knew that he could not turn back from it...he let them take him. they tourched the house after collecting abigails body. they took anthony to the town. only to burn him alive at the steak. they burried him in a box that was covered with chains. so that he could never escape or harm anyone ever again. they took abigails body and burried it atop of the hill side. underneath the lilacs...her favortie place to be. so that she could be as far away from anthony as possible. gabriel visited her grave everyday in hopes that it was a dream and he'd wake up next to her. he never married and died alone; in a small shack in the woods. that resided near abigails gravestone. and for many years their vampiric souls wondered the earth...alone...apart....til one day they found each other anthony and abigail..once again... only to discover that their persons were different and they were not ready to except each other.... abigail forgave anthony, but he still broke her heart because in her heart she knew he was not ready to except their powers as one....so she fled once again and now wonders the earth alone....knowing that when her life fades again she will be damned to the beyond of all beyond...alone. she is the vampire kandikait.
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i feel love passes u everyday and if u let it walk by u then ur a blind man/women . for it will be "the one: who will not let pass and will not let u run back that will take their soft gental hands and open ur eyes so u can gaze into their eyes . dont stare at the moon but stare at the cresent on his face and the water reflection in his eyes . - mike, a young polish man told me this....really an amazing person

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MY REAL LIFE HEROS CONSIST OF MY MOTHER, MY FATHER, MY TWO STEP PARENTS, MY THREE BROTHER; NICK BRAD N LUKE, MY NEICE N MY NEFEWS, MY FRIENDS NANNON, MY COUCHMATE, NNYD, HEDDY, REPA, FIENDY, SHELL, NUBS, MRS SHORT CAKES(AKA THE TINY ONE), MERC DAWG, SAVANNA(BOTH) CHASSIDY, AND OF COURSE MYSELF....LOL... THANK YOU ALL..EVERYTHING YOU'VE EVER DONE FOR ME!

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dear anthony

dear anthony i know things arent going well...but keep ur head held high...u r strong ..u know u r.... things may not be going the way u want right now... but things work out for the better.... i swea...
Posted by GODDESS KANDIKAIT the JUGGALETTE BEAUTY on Sat, 20 Sep 2008 03:23:00 PST

COMING CLEAN, BUT FUCK YOU

all the things you have done n all the things you do i would've never done to you but i dont care anymore you can have your two faced little whore she is a sucubus a living evil that l...
Posted by GODDESS KANDIKAIT the JUGGALETTE BEAUTY on Sat, 20 Sep 2008 02:41:00 PST

BUT MAYBE I....

this is hard for me to say this is hard for me to do but i have already forgotten u ill just write it out so i can cope ill just stay here so i can hope here i lay each n every day tellin myself it'll...
Posted by GODDESS KANDIKAIT the JUGGALETTE BEAUTY on Tue, 16 Sep 2008 01:37:00 PST

Im the one person u wanna b...but you b you n let me b me

Who was the last person you gave up on?I dont ever really give up on anybody...just say hey ya know what...heres what i have to say....ur either being dumb or u rnt n maybe u should do this or think o...
Posted by GODDESS KANDIKAIT the JUGGALETTE BEAUTY on Mon, 15 Sep 2008 11:39:00 PST

PULL IT AWAY, FORGET U TODAY

pull it away dont feel these feelings today let it out make urself shout tell urself u r strong keep acting like there's nothing wrong tellin u this is painful but i know what i must do tellin myself...
Posted by GODDESS KANDIKAIT the JUGGALETTE BEAUTY on Sat, 13 Sep 2008 05:51:00 PST

LIFES LITTLE CURVE BALLS, not this time, not this place

u ever wonder y life throws u all these curve balls? like if its a swing n a miss..well then three strikes ur out...right  but wut if the curve ball was too much n it ended up hitting u right in ...
Posted by GODDESS KANDIKAIT the JUGGALETTE BEAUTY on Thu, 11 Sep 2008 02:56:00 PST

im not worth the air

i wanna die i wanna cry i dont wanna b locked up in this dark grey sky tell me one thing was it real tell me one thing is this how u feel? im just gonna go cuz im not worth the trouble takin the pill...
Posted by GODDESS KANDIKAIT the JUGGALETTE BEAUTY on Tue, 09 Sep 2008 03:29:00 PST

im sorry, i love u

u said u loved me said u cared now ur not even there im sorry for what i did sorry for what i said i know im messed up in the head i love you i really do i just wanna b w u through n through &nb...
Posted by GODDESS KANDIKAIT the JUGGALETTE BEAUTY on Tue, 09 Sep 2008 03:21:00 PST

U KNOW UR A STONER WHEN.....

u know ur a stoner when u need to get high not that u want to u know ur a stoner when u have the munchies 24/7 u konw ur a stoner when u realize u have no money u knw ur a stoner when u say man, dude,...
Posted by GODDESS KANDIKAIT the JUGGALETTE BEAUTY on Sat, 06 Sep 2008 01:51:00 PST

SOMEDAY ITLL BE COMPLETE

Rackin my brain Cuz i just can't sleep Fellin sick Like i just cant eat Like a beat box That just wont beat Is this something I can just defeat Or is it my death That ill finally meet Gotta lay low Pl...
Posted by GODDESS KANDIKAIT the JUGGALETTE BEAUTY on Thu, 04 Sep 2008 01:42:00 PST