About Me:
Life seems to have become some sort of huge trust exercise whereby I let myself free-fall, fully believing there will always be outstretched arms to catch me (the disappointment when realizing this is not the case everytime is truly incomprehensible). Predestined to imagine any and all potentialities as might emerge my mind goes off on flights of fancies that usually end in my being let down. I am in love with almost everyone I meet but I stay under spells for only a short period of time. Let me explain; love fast, leave faster. A true and rare hopeless romantic. My heart doesn't belong to me, I suppose it never did. It belongs to everyone around me - People have abused the pieces of me I've given to them, but because no one has ever had all of me - I'm still strong enough to know happiness is a choice - and that in life you should always be fun to be around. I'm a Pisces, the only mutable-water sign in the zodiac, hence "sea-of-change," - everflowing*. Fittingly, I am the manifestation of Aphrodite (Mari) in triple form *life/death/love* Worldly, beatific, and mysterious i'm unpredictable in my predictability. Clueless to the turmoil i'm capable of causing I am a muse, and my gift to you will be endless inspiration. I move as if i'm in a dream, and I think and react as if that's the case as well. I dream well though, I'm bound to wake up you know, eventually. Sigmund Freud said there is no difference between dreams and reality, for me - this reigns true. The proverbial everywoman, i'm the culmmination of an often chiling compilation of every woman that has come before me. A walking-talking paradox- all virtue and all vice wrapped up in one deceivingly demure package - victimized by and victorious over life. I seem tough as nails, a true survivor who grows through even the most negative of experiences; and truth be told, I have had more than my fair share of hard knocks. Still, i'm a cultivated creature, who craves solitude yet my instincts are that of an escapist. Not an easy personality to pin down, I am at turns warm, aloof, accessible, untouchable, dignified, petty, righteous, too loyal yet unscrupulous. I can be an emotional rock one second and seemingly ready to break the next. A living testament to there being good and bad in everything, and everyone. Like a mermaid, or siren singing my mesmorizing song, I can be one of the most enticing and enchanting of creatures but i've been told I can be incredibly dangerous to navigate. I trust my own insights rather than any hard external facts and exercize my metaphoric muscle more than most people which in some situations has let me tap into almost psychic abilities. I do the "soul-to-soul" (as i call it) always keying into someones spiritual conscience, reading their energies no matter how subtle. I have a really strong ability to recognize and speak to one's emotional and moral condition, trust, an encounter with me is often nothing short of cathartic. I want to be loved universally. I make sure to "get lost" sometimes so that I can find myself over and over again because each time brings me closer to a higher form of spiritual realiziation and I perpetually find something new. A world of secret suffering disguised by casual lies I tell myself which are designed to protect me from the painful truthts I am FULLY aware of. There is tragedy and exaltation cohabilitating my life should really be a cabaret. I'll teach, by example that existence is exactly what you imagine it to be. I wish people lived in my world of enchantment with me because although i'm a dreamer, i'd prefer it if I wasn't dreaming alone. I urge others to be all that they might wild imagine themselves to be. I believe in your dreams. As crazy as it may sound sometimes I believe I am an angel placed here to make a statement -half naked, half clothed because I'm half free, half trapped -in the light and the darkness because I embrace the world of duality and the many dualities within.
