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Leah

i'm just searching for myself again......

About Me

i am now a twenty-nine year old/five year old. i believe that playing is the most important thing. i love demonic teddy bears. i love days that are so full they feel like a week. i enjoy conversations that stay with me for days. i like to paint, and draw. i am starting to learn how to really live for myself. i am bad at keeping in touch with people ( but maybe this will help). i like to sit around and talk to my friends. i think dead baby jokes are kinda funny. i know myself pretty damn well.but i am well aware that i dont know myself at all. i am envious of anyone with musical abilities. i cant spell. i graduated from flagler college in st augustine , with a degree in fine arts,(actually thats a lie...at flagler you get a degree in liberal arts with an emphasis in fine arts......oh yes that was money well spent!!!) and now i have no idea what to do with my life....other than live it, and have fun. i dont understand punctuation. time is a funny concept to me, and its even funnier to me that people get stressed about having or not having too much of it. i want to be able to read minds because , well, because i want to know. i like to jump in puddles and swing on swings. i think that the bicycle is the coolest invention ever, and its the closest thing ive found to my perception of what flying must feel like. i am striving to live up to the ideals i hold. i am crazy....but im finally ok with it. i am excited about the new adventure that i am embarking on. i am a work in progress....it may be a masterpiece, but that will only be apparent the moment before i am done.
You scored as III - The Empress. The Empress is a maternal symbol. She is the mother figure who loves, nurtures and protects. She will protect you, she will always be there when you are in trouble. When you fall over and graze your knee, the Empress will kiss it better. Yet she is not a weak figure. Her compassion is strength. If her children are threatened she will stop at nothing to protect them. If well aspected in a Tarot spread, the Empress can symbolise security, protection and unconditional love. If badly aspected it can represent over-protectiveness, fear of risk taking and refusal to face the real world.

III - The Empress


100%

XVI: The Tower


88%

XIX: The Sun


88%

XIII: Death


88%

VIII - Strength


81%

II - The High Priestess


75%

XI: Justice


69%

I - Magician


56%

0 - The Fool


56%

X - Wheel of Fortune


56%

IV - The Emperor


38%

VI: The Lovers


25%

XV: The Devil


19%
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My Interests

art, the written word, music, movies, theater, itense self-introspection, theology, theories of any kind, personal and cultural belief systems, astrology, my family, archetecture, conversations that send my mind reeling for days, evil teddy bears, why people do the things that they do- the ways they do them- and then the real reason they did whatever the hell it was they did, watching people, finding patterns in everything, colors, jumping in puddles, over-analysing mundane things, and playing with my friends.

I'd like to meet:

in a perfect world: (i could spell) Egon Schile, Francis Bacon, Kahil Gibran, Robert Smith, Morrisey, Bonnie & Clyde,Ani DiFranco, Wally Lamb, Alice Neel, Tom Robbins, Thom York, Sarah Vaughn, DAVID BOWIE, my older brother, Hitlers mom, Freud, Lucian Freud, Tori Amos, Sartre, Jesus, Napolean, Machiavelli, Pavlov, Gene Simmons, Snuffy, Anne Rice, Ray Johnson, Picasso, your mom, robert rauchenburg.

Music:

David Bowie, Ani DiFranco,Amy Hendickson, The Collective Unconscious, Belle and Sebastian, the dead milkmen,The Smiths, Morrisey, Starsailor, Rilo Kiley, Death Cab for Cutie, Bright Eyes, iron and wine, calexico, U2, violent femmes, The Indigo Girls, The Postal Service, The Moody Blues, Edie Brikell, Neutral Milk Hotel, Lamb, Dido, Frank Sinatra, sneaker pimps, The Red Hot Chili Peppers, Depeche Mode, The Cure, P.J. Harvey, Emmylou Harris, Joan Baez, Le Tigre, Interpol, Ladytron, Cat Power, Bjork, Sleater Kinney, Modest Mouse, Nirvana, Pearl Jam, damien rice, Frou Frou, Imogen Heap, Jennifer Nettles, David Grey. The Beatles, The Doors, toadies, The Who, Led Zepplin, Swing music, Big Band music, Ella Fitzgerald, Joni Mitchel, Rasputina, Flogging Molly, Cream, Prince (before he became a symbol) , Madonna (Before Dick Tracy), Tracy Chapman, joplin, cat stevens, Radiohead, REM, Erin McKeown, Beth Orton, Sarah Vaughn, Jeff Buckley, mike west, Garbage, NIN, Tori Amos, The Chieftains, the descendants, Sarah McLachlin, Tegan And Sarah, Nat King Cole, Propagandhi, Mazzy Star, Yeah Yeah Yeah's, The Dears, Sinead O'Conner, and a bit more of dis an dat.

Movies:

boondock saints, wit, harold and maude, basquiat, goonies, dummy, gremlins, drop dead gorgeous, charlie and the chocolate factory, nightmare before christmas, sleeping beauty, bedknobs and broomsticks, waiting for guffman, beautiful thing, say anything, the man who fell to earth, hedwig and the angy inch, to sir with love, breakfast at tiffanys, high art, patch of blue ( anything with sidney portier actually), cheesy movies about rights of passage of any kind, the breakfast club, pretty in pink ( ive got a little thing for molly ringwald) , the graduate, i (heart) huckabees, little voice, rear window, the birds, seven year itch, gentlemen prefer blonds, better than chocolate, identity, amilie, anything with zombies - vampires (especially vampires)- things that lurk in dark corners or have a taste for eating flesh, or movies that will make me cry (which is pretty easy) and a whole slew of others that i cant think of at this time. i guess im the kid who likes just about anything, when im in the mood for it.

Television:

not too big on it anymore... TWIN PEAKS, pepper ann, roseanne, the golden girls, faulty towers, antiques roadshow, this old house, benny hill, the l- word, gummy bears, golf ( im serious), voltron, inspector gadget......its kinda been awhile since i regularly watched anything.

Books:

extremely loud and incredibly close......or maybe its incredibly close and extremely loud: either way it may be my favorite book up to date, read it, it makes me happy that someone can write like that. the prophet by kalil gibran. the hitchhikers guide..and the sequals, by douglas adams. anne rice: especially the witching hour and cry to heaven. the four agreements: miguel ruiz. The incarnations of immortality series by piers anthony. the castle by kafka. sartres: no exit. Weetzy Bat (and the rest of the series) by i cant remember. Tom Robbins : still life with woodpecker, Jitterbug perfume. the anita blake series but i cant remember the author. sidartha by hesse. the handmaidens tale. the secret garden. Jane Eyre: bronte. Wuthering Heights...by the other bronte. this is hard... i have a problem remembering the names of people around me...let alone the names of books and authors. i like to read, i like escapism of any kind.

Heroes:

my mommy and daddy, wonderwoman, maude ( from harold and maude), and my neurotic-guitar-playing-songbird best friend amy t. hendrickson.

My Blog

yeah!!!

amy  here tomorrow. real excited. sigh in my heart. smile on my face. good. real good.
Posted by Leah on Thu, 17 May 2007 08:01:00 PST

aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh

bjork, red rocks, brilliant. happy.real. real.rrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalll llllllllllllllllllllll. sigh. full circles all over. i met a boy from st augustine.  at the sh...
Posted by Leah on Wed, 16 May 2007 11:52:00 PST

ha

i just found out that the sun is trine my saturn today. im a dork,  but it validates the inside of my head right now.
Posted by Leah on Sun, 15 Apr 2007 01:08:00 PST

me. rambling through my fingertips again.

im ok,i am just finding myself again.which always seems to be such an emotional messy trek.but its good.i'm me, an emotional sadist... or masochist...or a bit of both, and oh how i love the intensity ...
Posted by Leah on Sun, 15 Apr 2007 12:40:00 PST

and my feet feel heavy,

it may be the boots. or the last few weeks. life has this funny way of shoving things in your face.  the choices we make, the people we love, mortality, death, life, beginings, frustrations, isol...
Posted by Leah on Sat, 14 Apr 2007 12:44:00 PST

aaahhhh colorado

it is snowing. no joke. for the last few weeks it has been amazing, bright sunny warm days. i laughed when i woke up looked out the window and saw white. brittany may very well commit suicide now.... ...
Posted by Leah on Thu, 29 Mar 2007 09:24:00 PST

and she is officially here.......

happy first day of spring.............. today kristen, laura, adam and i went up to castle rock to this place called something canyon. it was a great day, a good hike, and a great adventure. i am tire...
Posted by Leah on Wed, 21 Mar 2007 05:50:00 PST

yup

and  a night was wonderful, and full of magic,  
Posted by Leah on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 12:36:00 PST

gritting teeth and holding back tears.

i just wrote a whole lot of negative melodramatic poop because i am having a bad day.  then i watched it all fold into itself as i held down the backspace key. it was satisfying. 888888...
Posted by Leah on Sat, 03 Mar 2007 10:44:00 PST

"and while the world falls apart............

you've got my soul, i've got your heart." ( song lyric for the danish prince) thank you swan, i really needed that. i am not the person i used to know.  and this both thrills me and scares the sh...
Posted by Leah on Sun, 18 Feb 2007 12:12:00 PST