Missy

A few things about me:

- Most of the time I don't care if I live or die.
- I do a lot of stupid things that will most likely get me killed before I turn 20.
- I usually have the annoying habit of hating myself.
- I always have a high level of stress.
- I usually don't learn from my mistakes.
- I am horrible with relationships/love.
- My moods swing faster than humanly possible.
- Most of the time I feel lost in life, just living from day to day.
- Even if I seem hopeless, I do have dreams.
- I have been told that I can be very sweet once you get past my vicious-ness.
- I don't trust people easily.
- I am not normally shy [although I can be].
- I will take time to tell the most useless stories, correct the most minute point, or just in general be an ass.
- I have many painful memories.
- I never feel like I'm good enough for anyone.
- It's really difficult for me to concentrate for long periods of time.
- Manipulating people comes naturally to me.
- I am brutally honest at times.
- Most of the time I will not take shit, but sometimes I just let people run over me.
- Sometimes I play the victim, which is a role I am trying to quit.
- I AM contradictions.
- I often feel people don't care about me.
- I push people away.
- I am the most emotional apathetic person you will ever meet.
- I don't have high self-esteem.
- I rarely ever genuinely smile because I rarely ever am genuinely happy.
- I never really feel attractive.
- I do care, even if I don't show it.
- Most of the time I feel wrong.
- I never know the right thing to say or do.
- I don't let people in easily.
- You have to fight your way in if you want me to care about you.
- I often feel alone [hell, I AM the definition of emo].
- I run away from my problems.
- I take things way too personally.
- People say that I can have a wild side.
- I am currently working to change the way I live.
- I am made to heal.
- And on the contrary to all this, I love life.

Friends Are Life.
Remember That.
For those I love, I will kill.
So don't piss me off when it comes to these kids.
This kid is amazing.
One of the most important people in my life.
He's shown me how to live my life.
The best friend that I love to death.
Mess with him and I will fucking kill you.

Now for the girl that I love most in my life.
She is amazing. And my lesbian.
She's been there for me over the past few months, and I've been there for her.
Nothing can tear us apart.
My other best friend in the world.
He knows me inside out and accepts all my faults.
I will kick your ass if you mess with this boy.

My other lezlez.
I'd do almost anything for her.
As blonde as she is, she's amazing.

The funny lookin' kid that I love.
He's really opened me up and helped me out lately.
I love him for that.
He's amazing at being there and helping people when they need it.