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Plan "B"

...return to him with silenced cries forget me nots and all his lies and dance...

About Me


You Are 92% Bipolar
my name is raven. i am a musician and a poet. my primary musical predeliction is towards "gothic" music, although by such i reference the "goth" of the early 80's. sisters of mercy, joy division, christian death, etc etc...i am in a band. live i am the vocalist, in the studio i do a little bit of everything. we've recently begun playing shows, and the preperation for that has occupied the majority of my free time, so if you message me and it takes me a minute to respond, i apologize.otherwise, i'm pretty good at reading people. i've learned that "paranoia" is merely another word for intuition, and that it is one of the few things that i will ever trust in my life. people love to underrate me and think that i don't know what's going on. and honestly that's not the case. i usually do know what's up, i just enjoying patiently awaiting the outcome. and we'll see how this all ends.i've been working on me lately. some of you may notice a few things that i've changed about myself. one, i've learned the importance of being a selfish prick. the change in me would be not to the extreme that that statement eludes to, however i have begun placing myself and my needs before the needs of others up to a point. i've also been working on speaking my mind more. i've more scars upon my tongue than anyone i've ever met and i refuse to bite it anymore. i've always taken pride in my honestly and up~frontedness, yet always held my thoughts in check for fear of hurting/offending others. fuck that! that raven is gone, jaded beyond the point of no return. i've grown to where i trust people very little. i have learned the value of not letting everyone in on all of the bullshit psycho~babble that runs through my mind on the regular, and instead going to the source, rectifying the situation, and then moving on.some of you may like the changes, some of you may not. i HONESTLY don't give a fuck. i've spent the better part of my life being myself but censored, and those days are gone. what's worse is that some of you may even be able to relate to what i'm talking about. i'm so fucking sick and tired of apologizing for doing things for me...or for turning a blind eye to those who are stabbing me in the back with a knife that i gave them. and it shall not happen any further. i have learned that the only person i can count on or trust is myself and how to watch my own back. i have friends that i trust to varying degrees, however many suppose a higher level of trust than actually exists.and i know some of you know exactly to what i am referring there.anything else that comes up, feel free to ask me...

My Interests

music, writing it, performing it, listening to it, reading lyrics. i actually enjoy reading the lyrics oftentimes moreso than listening to the songs. i also enjoy theology, philosophy, politics, psychiatry, anything that delves into the human mind. i love to analyze peoples actions and determine exactly WHAT they are doing and what their motivation for such actions is.

I'd like to meet:

i'm friends with people from all walks of life. it doesn't really matter, i don't judge people based on anything.i also believe that everyone deserves a chance, regardless of what other people have told me about them. just, if i give you a chance, don't fuck me over afterwards. don't prove other people right.

Music:



i tried to narrow this down for simplicity's sake. aside from the sisters, these are in no particular order.the sisters of mercy, pitbull daycare, black light burns, him, girl loves dead boys, the modern crucifixion, ministry, mission uk, christian death, rozz williams, london after midnight, corpus delecti, dope stars inc., the cure, my chemical romance, shiny toy guns, she wants revenge, tori amos, somnium7, death cab for cutie, sin, angels and airwaves, ringside, the wake, the damned, the minusmen, corey hart, alien sex fiend, the cramps, prick, the lovemakers, the misfits, hindu pez,

Movies:

Anything Dario Argento, Lost Highway, Night of the Living Dead, Nightmare Before Christmas, Nightmare on Elm Street, Doom Generation, Fisher King, Fight Club, Alice in Wonderland, Natural Born Killers, Waiting, Scarface, Lion King, Requiem for a Dream, Exorcist, Go, Mulholland Drive, Shrek, Last Temptation of Christ, Dogma, Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back...and a LOT more....

Television:

if people were more interesting then every household would have a person in the corner of the room. turn off the tv and learn how to talk to each other fuckers!

Books:

i don't really have a surplus amount of free time to read. some of my favourties however include (but not should be limited to) "the killer beside me"~ann rule, "the hitchhikers guide to the galaxy series, the original dragonlance trilogy, the amityville trilogy, the "communist manifesto"~marx and engles, "art of war"~sun tzao, any of a varied assortment of teachings about different philosophies and religions, "vampires"~john steakley (so much better than the movie could have ever been), "pigs at the trough"~arianna huffington, and...of course, my all time favourite...anything Neil Gaiman. "Neverwhere" has got to be the best book ever written, followed CLOSELY by "American Gods".

Heroes:

i always surround myself with my "heroes". my "heroes" are the people from whom i am able to learn things. there have been more and more of them lately.

My Blog

im getting scared...

so i noticed something last night. the cops are taking over! it was weird, i remember living in my nice quiet neighborhood with the drug dealers on each corner and the corinthian girls working at 7~11...
Posted by Plan "B" on Thu, 26 Jul 2007 09:59:00 PST

the masquarade

as evening falls the masquarade beginsslowly bringing the returnmemoriesyesterdays blisstodays lifethe music takes uswhere we long to beas we slowly danceto the stormso don your maskand come with mean...
Posted by Plan "B" on Fri, 13 Jul 2007 08:40:00 PST

untitled

the piercingslowly tears through fleshmeltingthe pain whisking awaytell me what its likeif you cantell me what you feelis it freedomor cagedis it loveor painstab me in the front next timeso i can seet...
Posted by Plan "B" on Fri, 13 Jul 2007 08:20:00 PST

martyr

solacewithin your kissis a dream to meyour poltergeistmoving dreams aroundreturns once moreand drags your heart awayi long for your touchand thus i remainshatteredupon this broken wheelthe daily marty...
Posted by Plan "B" on Fri, 13 Jul 2007 08:15:00 PST

actions vs reactions

i can't claim credit for this, but i've always found it very inspirational. a reminder of how some people allow how others view them to determine how they feel about themselves. Do You Act Or React?...
Posted by Plan "B" on Sat, 19 May 2007 12:26:00 PST

st patricks day

well, it's st patricks day. regetfully due to illness i won't be able to attend any of the festivities occurring this evening. it's all good though. it's given me the oppurtunity for some much needed ...
Posted by Plan "B" on Sun, 18 Mar 2007 08:06:00 PST

mpiredwn...pt II

alright...so i already wrote a blog about this. its all good though. i'm excited. i've got a few songs just about ready to be posted on my other site...mpiredwn (add it if you wanna). i spent mos...
Posted by Plan "B" on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 02:00:00 PST

mpiredwn

i just needed to share with everyone. i'm extremely excited!!! for the first time in quite a while i've been working on music. my music. unfettered, untouched, untainted by the opinions of others. i'm...
Posted by Plan "B" on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 05:35:00 PST

love...

so i was sitting around thinking about something. well, actually i was trying to answer a question in an e~mail about "what do you look for in a relationship" and i starrted thinking about it and came...
Posted by Plan "B" on Wed, 16 Aug 2006 10:39:00 PST

jane says...

hey whats up? this is sort of in letter form instead of normal blog form, so i figured i'd open up with a greeting. hahahahaha!!! i figured that since i haven't been up here much i'd go ahead and upda...
Posted by Plan "B" on Thu, 03 Aug 2006 05:25:00 PST