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Keeping dark corners company since 1988.

About Me


"Narcissists generally crave attention, are overconfident of their abilities, lack empathy and can evince erratic behavior. However, they are also well-liked, especially on first meeting, are extroverted and perform well in public." -Pinksy
My name is unimportant, but you can call me Jadie.
I am not here to make new friends, but keep in touch with the few that I care about. I can count my true friends on one hand so if you consider me friend it doesn't necessarily mean I reciprocate.
Myspace is a pretty big social trend. There're the whores, the jocks, the self-absorbed, the emos... It's a complete subculture. I joined a couple years ago and easily immersed myself in the trend. Now I just use it as a small place for me to express creativity, I suppose.
I'm not hardcore, I'm not cool. If my pictures say otherwise, don't be deceived. Everyone poses for pictures because they don't want to look bad.
I'm pretty nice to people I meet, I guess. (It's what I'm told, at least.) I think being rude to a person before you get to know them is shallow and pompous, but please understand, I don't want new friends. I don't want to be popular or anything like that. If we talk back and forth, that's cool, but I generally wear a mask of some sort so people don't get to know me for who I really am... That's why some people's opinions of me can contrast greatly from another's. It's pretty ingenuine, but my "I'd Like to Meet" sheds some light on that.
As the name says, I'm a loner. I'm not trying to live up to a name or label or anything like that. I'm just more comfortable on my own without people getting too close. Whatever you may come to think of me based on this profile, whether bad or good, please send me a message and talk to me first before passing judgment.

My Interests

Archery, Christianity, Computers, Drums, Food, Japanese, Martial Arts, Music, Soccer, Softball, Writing

I'd like to meet:

Nobody. There's little more I need to say than that.

People come and go through life. I've lost the willpower and strength to live for unlasting friendships and betrayed trusts. Humanity is a failed race. Failure after pitiful failure, and it's not getting any better. Just look at society.

Love has become nothing more than a graduated sex drive. A person's word has become nothing more than a scam. Purpose is nothing more than a fleeting ideal. Happiness has become nothing more than an insatiable appetite to have more. Trust has become nothing more than a way to stab another person in the back. Respect has become nothing more than cheap flattery and half-hearted concern. A smile has become nothing more than a mask to make yourself look strong. Marriage has become nothing more than a harbinger of divorce. A child has become nothing more than a choice. Morals have become nothing more than a rule to bend and break. Ethics have become nothing more than a faint glimmer of chivalry. Work has become nothing more than a way to get ahead of everyone else. Society has become nothing more than a machine to tell you how to act and what to think.

It pains me to see people degrade in this manner... Perhaps you don't feel that any of these things matter, or maybe you agree on some points. Whatever the case, it makes things difficult for me to be me when I'm caught between who I am, who I want to be, who I should be, who I'm told to be and who I'm expected to be.

The only thing that has been steadfast in my life and the only thing that I can trust wholly is my Christian faith. I am not perfect and I don't profess to be, but I know that in Christ, I am complete.

He gave His life, so that I could live. He sacrificed Himself so I can have a purpose. He looked past my imperfections and made me new. His love and mercy is ever-evident with each breath I take. His sovereignty is ever-displayed in the nature and earth around us. His providence is ever-clear in the life I live.

He is my Lord, and my God. Nothing can take me from Him, and nothing can take Him from me. He's been there when I've been happy. He's been there when I have been hurting beyond words. He strengthens my spirit and restores my soul.

Until the day I die, I'll do my best to live my life in a manner that is pleasing to Him. I keep Him with me wherever I go. He's the friend of all friends, the father of all fathers.

If you think I'm stupid for holding to my faith, or if you hate me just because I say I'm a Christian, that's okay. It hurts a bit, but if it's something you feel strongly about, more power to you. I just ask that even if you don't understand or believe the way I do, that you accept it, as I have to accept that there are people with differing opinions from my own.

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A picture is worth a thousand words, but a thousand words can paint a better picture than any brush ever could.

And these are those who find themselves caught in the midst of it all.

Music:

Electronica, Easy Listening, Jazz, Metal, New Age, Rock

Movies:

Not interested.

Television:

Heroes

Books:

A few.

Heroes:

Jim Elliot, Winston Churchill, Motoi Sakuraba and my best friend Charlie.

My Blog

Metroid: The Untold Story

For those of you who may have been following this story, I wanted you guys to know I've still been working on it. Since my last update, myspace capped the number of characters a single blog post could...
Posted by Loner by default." on Mon, 05 May 2008 11:52:00 PST

Valentine's day! ...or Valentine disaster?

So another year has gone by and another Valentine's Day has showed itself. As I half expected, bulletin boards and blogs and comments are pilfered with Valentine sentiment and people expressing their ...
Posted by Loner by default." on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 08:19:00 PST

Life is as life does. Take it as it comes, leave it as it goes.

Where to start...I guess I'll just go with random musings and things on my mind.Lately, I've found myself rather short and untolerant. It's something that started earlier on this year and has rather g...
Posted by Loner by default." on Tue, 14 Nov 2006 10:57:00 PST

Manhood: knight in shining armor or one night stand?

"I don't like the wimp syndrome. No matter how ardent a feminist may be, if she is a heterosexual female, she wants the strength of a male companion as well as the sensitivity. The most gentle people ...
Posted by Loner by default." on Mon, 19 Jun 2006 08:17:00 PST

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Posted by Loner by default." on Tue, 13 Jun 2006 01:45:00 PST

Two parts to this one...

Well... today was great up until I learned of the fate of a girl named Anna Svidersky. Maybe you've heard of hear, maybe you haven't.Anna SviderskyPlease check it out. If you care to know more, just g...
Posted by Loner by default." on Wed, 24 May 2006 06:32:00 PST

To bleed is human, to die is awakening.

Well... where to begin.My life's been filled with the wonderful vixen Doe Rama. She's never wanted but always there. She always manages to come with my friends or haunt me when I go to bed. I can near...
Posted by Loner by default." on Wed, 10 May 2006 08:36:00 PST

When it rains, it pours. One death right after another...

Guys, I'm not going to ask for support for myself on this one...About 5 PM yesterday (3/29/06) there was a fatal car crash in Marion. My close friends Ben and Matt Passmore were killed. It was on the ...
Posted by Loner by default." on Thu, 30 Mar 2006 10:23:00 PST

The indescribable hurt of losing a loved one.

Where to begin... Where to begin... It's so difficult to gather your thoughts when typing through tear drenched eyes.I'll start earlier this month. About a week or so into the month, my mom received a...
Posted by Loner by default." on Wed, 29 Mar 2006 10:46:00 PST

Happiness, Sadness, Joy, Sorrow... I choose to be happy.

I was talking with my friend Lindsey about some problems that she's been dealing with lately. It made me think about myself and my friend Max. We've both been dealing with depression off and on and he...
Posted by Loner by default." on Mon, 05 Dec 2005 12:35:00 PST