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deserie douleur

About Me



anger fear and gradual indistinct tranquility -

i am nobody; i have nothing to do with explosions. i have given my name and my day-clothes up to the nurses and my history to the anesthetist and my body to surgeons. sylvia plath, tulips.

bleeding broken
defiled dislocated sprained bruised

what injury is yours?

mine is love. / myocardial infarction

“When the transformation is complete the final molt occurs: the adult emerges, its wings fill with blood and expand, the new exoskeleton hardens.”

erase erase erase.

dreams are ending
dreams are ending
dreams are ()

sound memory loss

My Interests



- are you thinking ?

do you FEEL ?

”make it STOP. ”

erasing sleep. strategic dying. electronic warmth and intricacy. submersion. caffeine. devotion. insectlike percussions. solitude. punctured lungs. literature. language. lightning. musical violence. dreams of amputation. chastity. a certain kind of love, undying.

Music:



cut up melodies. deconstructed sound. experimental. instrumental dreams electronic.

(björk. antony & the johnsons. portishead. world's end girlfriend. swod. piana. merzbow. imminent. philip glass. susumu yokota. prurient. cocorosie. tim hecker. ms john soda. chopin. gutevolk. jóhann jóhansson. x-in. helios. clogs. sylvain chaveau. wonderland falling yesterday. government alpha. caspian. alvin lucier. winterkälte. christopher bissonnette. polaroyd. quosp. opitope. detektivbyrån. owen pallett. wolf eyes. max richter. xinlisupreme. diamanda gálas. sawako. matthew florianz. winterkälte. library tapes. kammerflimmer kollektief. karlheinz von stockhausen. massive attack. illusion of safety. xotox. loscil. múm. ultra milkmaids. tarmvred. nina hagen. c.m von hausswolff. fennesz. fridge. herrmann & kleine. b. fleischmann. anna gardeck. the cure. illusion of safety. msbr. midori hirano. yasushi yoshida. prurient. mogwai. morrissey. coh. digitalism. andrew bird. olafur arnalds. kazumasha hashimoto little dragon. stina nordenstam. amiina. jan jelinek. monolake. koop. aidan baker & beta cloud. fjordne. ola magnell. khonnor. m83. le chat blanc orchesra. autistici. aphex twin. erik knocksson. eyvind kang. hans appelqvist. sachiko. &c.)

Books:

hard boiled wonderland and the end of the world. norwegian wood. nausea. the parfume. prozac nation. altered carbon. gravity’s rainbow. lolita. the little mermaid. a room of one’s own. a saucer of loneliness. pattern recognition. the bell jar. fahrenheit 451. hills like white elephants. le necrophile. notes from the underground. neuromancer. johnny panic and the bible of dreams. fear and loathing in las vegas. the body artist. the crying of lot 49. oryx and crake. the picture of dorian gray. les fleurs du mal. de galnas hus. kafka on the shore. mrs dalloway. american psycho. remaking eden: cloning and beyond in a brave new world. sputnik sweetheart. the secret history. tipping the velvet. snow crash. vox. the diary of anaïs nin 1931-1934. kitchen. time travelers wife. revolting rhymes. doktor glas. hot zone. the virgin suicides. wintering: a novel of sylvia plath. a writer's diary. the notebooks of malte laurids brigge. frida: a biography of frida kahlo. written on the body. to the lighthouse. coin locker babies. reading lolita in tehran. invitation to a beheading. catching the big fish. incest. blind willow, sleeping woman. the piano. needle in the groove. the pianist. idoru. the blue octavo notebooks. the diving bell and the butterfly. south of the border, west of the sun. after dark.

Heroes:



woolf, virginia.
sigismondi, floria.
nabokov, vladimir.
proust, marcel.
kahlo, frida.
björk.

independent thinkers, revolutionary writers, starving artists & creative minds wandering burdened.


My Blog

LOVE IS A CLOSE MATTER.

[distant . voices . still . lives] presently i'm a girl who "calls in sick", i'm weak-bodied again, my hands are ice again, my lungs my breathing does not seem to be functioning properly; i feel so si...
Posted by deserie douleur on Thu, 27 Dec 2007 02:10:00 PST