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This will not leave a Mark

The human mirror; Hideous to many, pretty to a few.

About Me

You breath the same air that I breath, I walk on the same ground you walk on; you live in your own world, just like I live in my own world, yet we have to share the same world together...... so welcome to mmmmmmy world! 'Aint it a real shitfest? What do you think of our water? BTW, Thank's for the special appearance/s. Maybe someday I'll understand some of them. So you know, the one's I do understand, I (for lack of a better word), ~value~ them. Hell, some have changed my friggin' life. Anyways, I still remember bleeding the last time I got cut, has any of that kind of stuff ever changed with you? I got hungry earlier, and I ate some food, true story. My friend Sleep and I have developed a love hate relationship with each other. Some days I'm lost, others I'm found and so I probably have about as much "baggage as anyone honest enough to admit that they themselves have a good share; and I'm happy to see that it's usually those honest enough to admit as such who don't impose their BS on people in their lives. Yeah, I do have an innate love for all humans, but I'm only loyal to a few. When I'm loyal, I'm 100%, when I'm not, I'm zero. Some people say I'm too nice for my own good, yet I have also been called an ass-hole, a liar, a tweeker, a demon, a psycho, a lying sack of shit, and probably every word that can come to your mind within a few seconds short of saying it out loud.... and even have had bottles slung at me, guns pointed, received death threats, had trash thrown on my car overnight, kicked dents into it, hate messages, .... because, well, because I pissed on their petunias THAT damn much considering how important these people's lives are as opposed to everyone else's.... I'm rarely in-between but at either or both ends of the spectrum, people who give a damn enough to know me either love me or hate me by the time month (sometimes hour even minute) number 1 comes strollin' by....look in the dictionary for "unpredictable" and my face shows up under "unpredictability personified!" ..... FYI. I have no quarries with being an open book as long as the said individual is likewise, being an open book with me while meeting all terms and conditions as according to any and all codes and standards established respectively as pertaining thereof in regards to unghhh.... "COMMON COURTESY."... "show me your dirt, I'll show you my dirt". Otherwise, I really don't owe any answers to anyone here. Make sense? Didn't think so. BUT........If this does make sense, then what the hizzy, let's argue 'till someone falls over dead from natural causes! Down to attend court bee-otch?

My Interests

Binging and purging art and music 24-7; some for pay and some for free : Spacing out and wandering into constructive thoughts, destructive thoughts and useless thoughts; avoiding feeling sorry for myself over dumb shit, laughing at sick people's humor as well as laughing at sane people's misfortunes (depending on who it is), drinking water, driving home from errands, driving from home, biking, stretching out before my run..... taking showers daily, going to sleep with either 20 things on my mind or 00 things on my mind, counting stoplights(insert Twilight music here) what else.........Music (composing, recording, performing) see my music links press the links and listen! Art (2-D, 3-D, 4-D), biking, gym life, night life, business life, work, play.... etc.stuff...

I'd like to meet:

Phfffttt. Yeah; Well Now, most of the following personality preferences listed as such which may have nothing to do with skin depth nor of being categorized under the 'wanted: female for me' section, CAN be applied to anyone.... be it a lover, brother, friend, fellow worker, bum on the street corner, whatever the hell.... [However, note in pen, not pencil that: it's not only applicable in every way, shape or form for anything and everything remotely relative to anything and everything remotely relative to anything and everything remotely relative to anything that even causes a thought to ponder over the realization that she just might possibly could might oughta be unexplanatorively, unexplaneably, brain bypassingly placed right under my friggin' nose this whole time......*let me think about that*Nah.......Well...... maybe.... BUT ALSO to the fact that it may be the very reason it would have a chance in the first place, or even to the fact that it could possibly, would, might oughta be: the one reason it dons the title of being "Rated number1 for bringing a ____________ year long joyride of crazy sex every night and all the other stuff that gets an honorable mentioning during any and all brag-time related events, whether it be on a daily basis of habitual coffee homage or an annual formal announcement].Moving along now.... *achem* Someone who disagrees with me the first minute of hearing me babble my jibberish. If they care enough to wear themselves out by arguing me down, then they'll be just as willing to consider not lying to themselves as well as standing up for what is blatantly 'right' in any given situation. That warrants a cold beer or an honorable smokeout in MY book. Someone who actually has something of real substance to contribute without even knowing how much I for one am robbing them blind as they just blab out the keys/codes/instructions needed for getting out of life's most bastardly designed predicaments. Someone who has enough respect for me to disrespect me when I'm flat out in the wrong; and then have enough disrespect for themselves by showing some friggin' recognition when I'm proven right damnit, even under the most snowy, sub-zero degree weather conditions in hell if needed; got it? Good. Someone who I'd distrust and almost can't stand at first and then end up making the worst mistake of my life by falling head over heals into love crazed madness over. Taking notes? Don't. Basically, I'm being an idiot searching for that which cannot be searched for; I'm looking for a needle in a haystack that I wasn't expecting to show up into my life... one of those "if you think you have what it takes, then you're already disqualified" sorta' thing.... either I'm a dunce and this makes no sense at all or 'someone else' is too dense to understand my social behavior policy in all it's genius. You decide. Someone who's not afraid of being on the receiving end of "you thought Dr. Phil was a know it all, head strong, ignorant ass hole who no one, no one residing on planet earth will ever convince otherwise about their rhetorical faculty being glorious 24-7, 365 dy/ yr? Then you haven't met Dr. Meeny Mmaarrkk: Monarch of My town Bee-otch!" So....... to sum shit up for everyone's sorre' arses,let Mr. Me put it in plain and lethal pig-latin:........ WARNING: SPEAK TO ME AT YOUR OWN RISK. Side effects are rampant. Mass confusion can result when microphone is accessible within a 10 yard radius. And if you read this whole thing with the even slightest thought of taking any of it seriously, well....you chose wisely....... no, not really....... .....sucka. Anyone who really knows me knows not to bother. Figuring me out is much easier done via means of passing the "Chinese Eyes In 10 Seconds" Bowl over.

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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Mark
Birthday: September 29th
Birthplace: Santa Fe, NM
Current Location: La Ley, California
Eye Color: Brown, black, white, and red frequently
Hair Color: black most of the time
Height: 6'1"
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: Injun(Native American)
The Shoes You Wore Today: Converse
Your Weakness: My own psychotic alternate ego who loves to just ruin EVERYTHING
Your Fears: Complacency, indifference and hopelessness
Your Perfect Pizza: My own
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: to not have too many crazy goals this time around
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: xoxox
Thoughts First Waking Up: Oh, shit!
Your Best Physical Feature: My hand...err.... I mean, MY HANDS.
Your Bedtime: Whenever my big ass eyes just can't bear to look at this horrible world anymore....
Your Most Missed Memory: Zierra's face, smell, voice, etc.........
Pepsi or Coke: Jone's soda owns them both.
MacDonalds or Burger King: neither
Single or Group Dates: That world is too foreign to me to even grasp the idea.....
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Arizona Iced Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino, but coffee is what has made me the man I am today
Do you Smoke: yes, and yes
Do you Swear: fuck yeah, motherfucker!
Do you Sing: .......swan songs
Do you Shower Daily: yes
Have you Been in Love: Once... a long time ago. I've been "In hate" ever since.
Do you want to go to College: old news
Do you want to get Married: never ever ever ever ever again, PERIOD!
Do you belive in yourself: If I don't, then who will?
Do you get Motion Sickness: for the first 5 minuits.....
Do you think you are Attractive: Plastic surgery doesn't even offer any hope for this hideous face of mine.
Are you a Health Freak: truth is, yes. :(
Do you get along with your Parents: Yes (p.s.Love you Dad... R.I.P.)
Do you like Thunderstorms: Yes
Do you play an Instrument: Well, yeah.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes
In the past month have you Smoked: yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs: No nononono, never! Drugs are immoral, illegal, unethical, and just plain no good. *blbllurglglglglgl*... *cough* yep!
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes
In the past month have you been on Stage: yes
In the past month have you been Dumped: yes
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: yes
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: yes wait NO
Ever been Drunk: can't remember
Ever been called a Tease: yes, some gay guy called me a tease once.
Ever been Beaten up: ...like a one legged stepchild
Ever Shoplifted: heh, never.
How do you want to Die: incognito
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: An angry, lonely, bittter old man sitting in his mansion in front of the fireplace with no friends, no wife, no kids.... nothing; wondering, "was it all worth it?" ... something like that.
What country would you most like to Visit: My own. I haven't even got to visit LA yet because I'm too busy.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: red or white
Favourite Hair Color: Leprechaune green
Short or Long Hair: bald
Height: 4'1"
Weight: 300 lbs
Best Clothing Style: hand me downs..
Number of Drugs I have taken: who wrote these questions, LAPD? NYPD? Feds?
Number of CDs I own: None, because these too will probably get stolen also.
Number of Piercings: 4
Number of Tattoos: nun
Number of things in my Past I Regret: not walking away sooner

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Music:

If I could transfer my brain over into yours for a few lovely years of thoughts that call for a psychoanalitically special and professional analysis, I would. Then you'd understand.

Movies:

Violence, action!action!action!, dramarama, comedy, ..aries, short movies, long movies, black and white ones, surrealistic colorful ones, old dust fartin' ones, brand spankin' smells like plastic wrap ones, ones shown in theaters, ones seen at home, ones shown at the IMAX, ones seen from a black n' white box with sound in mono, fast ones, slow ones, boring ones even, I even leave them on in the background while I'm busy doing other shit often when I'm not even watching just because it gives me the illusion that I have company... Honorable mentions: films directed by MScorcese , OStone, QTarantin, DRodriguez, DLynch, DCronenburg, SSpielberg and GLucas, and many many other crazy geniuses who slipped my mind just now... it's alright... thay're most likely not even reading this anyway.... Right now I'm on the look out for the next movie with high speed impossible fighting scenes with disgustingly overdone explosions with the kind of storyline that could make Shakespear cream his loinstocks and acting that would make Robert DeNiro cry like a little girl.Sometimes I change my preferences. I could suddenly get a hankerin' for watching "On Golden Pond" at any moment.

Television:

Whhatever catches my interest from channel to channel. Car chases are cool.

Books:

The manual entitled, "Life 101 for dumbasses. One I could hold up in front of my face entitled, "Fuck you!"

Heroes:

that's classified...

My Blog

On being broke as hell....

Checkitout.... a rich man once told me that poverty strips you of your core personality.... does it really? I believed that one for a long long time; but does it really? Don't get me wrong, I love alw...
Posted by This will not leave a Mark on Mon, 01 Oct 2007 03:38:00 PST

The one thought that gets me through the worst moments in life is:

All our days are numbered!!!!
Posted by This will not leave a Mark on Sat, 01 Sep 2007 11:12:00 PST

What I thought and what I know....

..... is an ongoing process, stay tuned 'till the day I know what to write.   Mark
Posted by This will not leave a Mark on Fri, 03 Aug 2007 06:03:00 PST

When Im dead...

When I'm dead, there'll be no pain. There'll be no feeling anything. No memories to compare to what's in front of me. No reflection of anyone in my eyes. No confusion; cuz' there'll be no thoughts at ...
Posted by This will not leave a Mark on Fri, 03 Aug 2007 05:51:00 PST

Cyber-gang activities.... wtf????? CNN has to be full of sh!t

I just read an article from CNN about gang activity on Myspace: I mean, you've got to be kidding me right? But they were mentioning illegal exploits, threats, homages to killed and arrested fello...
Posted by This will not leave a Mark on Fri, 14 Jul 2006 06:52:00 PST

You suck

OK, let's just face it. You're full of shit, an asshole, a kenieving knave and well.... pretty much every attribute that you've addressed the last time you spoke shit about someone. You know that...
Posted by This will not leave a Mark on Thu, 29 Jun 2006 12:44:00 PST

PARTY OF N>ONE

Loneliness has a personality. It haunts and follows. It has a signature so it's lover can wallow. It sticks like glue and doesn't shake off. It's a possessive bitch who runs all yo...
Posted by This will not leave a Mark on Sat, 03 Jun 2006 04:00:00 PST