Ben Onyx Eyed Muse

The True Zen Of BenI know that title lacks the truth and puts on a misguided mask of what this section is about. But still felt that at this moment it was the perfect… About Me… Me. The following is a list; think of it like pieces of a puzzle. But remember that even with all pieces you will still just have a complex picture of me. Not the real thing.~ I was born October 23rd, 1982 in California.~ My birth name is Benjamin Jason Matthew Dowdy.~ I was meant to have two first names, Named after my Grandmother, Betsy James. But due a laze tongue-tied kindergarten teacher and my passive nature. Benjamin-Jason became Ben.~ I am 5’10 ½”, with brown eyes and skin. I’m big everything about me is big; most of me is too big.~ I’m an only child. I have a very small living family.~ I’m chronically imaginative. That is to say there are very few moments my mind is 100% focused on the real world.~ I believe in something, but labeling it as one religion seems impossible. This is not an invitation to be preached at.~ I am an artist guy by nature. I was dancing from birth according to my mother. I have drawn, sculpted, painted, wrote, choreography, poly-construction, designed, fashion consultant, entertainer, game designer, graphic designer, director, musician, modeling (when I was a child), photographer, poetry, and singer, all with moderate to great results. But passion is Theatre I have completely devour all aspect of theatre. I am getting ready to spend my life in theatre because it is the all-inclusive art.~ I have often been asked what is hobby. I think my hobby is my mind. I spend most of my time in my mind. I'm a very logical and wise person. I enjoy thinking about everything and why things work the way they do or why people (including myself) do the things we do. I've been told a number of times that I think too much. ~ This is my favorite quote right now. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” by Marianne Williamson. It is a little corny but very true in my case.~I am an only child but that dose mean am spoiled. I have had very little in my life. If you have asked for something Christmas, birthday, or graduation and got it you are more spoiled than I.~ I fall in love rarely and fall out of love never. Ok not true I sometimes love someone to the point of hating them. But you will never who.~ I have never been in a car accident when I was driving. I have been in one accident a minor fender bender with my then boyfriend. I have a perfect driving record. But have been pulled over eleven times so far. All for different trivial reasons, window tint valuation or my favorite “ Your trunk looked open”. I still hold the fact the real reason I get pulled over is DWB (Driving While Black).~ I’m very open-minded. I rarely fully disbelieve an idea.~ I believe that humans have physics abilities because I am one. I will not read you on purpose.~ Sports have never been a big part of my life and most of them in the water. I loved gymnastics; the biggest regret of my life was stopping. I tried (long term) wrestling, swimming, diving, water polo, and synchronized swimming. And I liked playing football, basketball, and soccer (the normal sports). And my fear was the creature I become when I play.~ I was in band in High school. I played far to many instruments. I spent most of my time playing Bassoon. And I was the drummajor two year in a row.~ I’m single a virgin and not looking for soul mates, I just won’t to have fun on my terms. I know that makes me sound like a diva, but that’s the truth.~ I have a very eclectic music taste. I love theme music because I feel a song should take you somewhere. Every Cirque Du Soliel is “HOT”.I’m sure there more I could say but for now that is. Ask me questions and I will answer because I have no reason to hide.