::jesicka:: - ProfilesArchive

About Me

my cat is my best friend. i am a hopeless romantic. i can be shy at times. i have selective hearing. i speak from my heart always, sometimes it gets me in trouble, sometimes i freak people out. most people talk about stupid crap that i really don't care to listen to. i think that the way people talk is more interesting than the things they have to say. i think laughter is music. i think sadness is comforting. i used to not like the sun, or the outside but thanks to weed i love it, but i still dont like to be tan. friends are the most important things in life and im glad for the ones i have. love and time are invaluable, make sure you have lots of both.

My Interests

music. hangin. my friends. olivia. belly dancing. wearing winter clothes. makeup. photography. video games. lemon pepper. gettin rich quick. texas hold em. ballet. breakfast. writing poetry. vampires. weed. pabst. passing out with cassie. sharp objects. being overly passionate. art. music. spiders. chemicals designed to open your mind. bein pale. makin love like they do in the movies. DISLIKES: bad oral hygiene.

I'd like to meet:

people that arent fake. people that have a passion. and seriously, your iq has to be higher than 100.

Music:

hardcore, indie, metal, rock n roll, industrial, gothic, hip hop, electronic, blah blah blah genres are so vague and huge in numbers these days who can really truly classify anything? i like good music. BOTCH is the best band ever

Movies:

underworld. interview with a vampire. boondock saints. amelie. braveheart. anything with jonny depp. anchor man. or anything with will ferral. breakfast club. that porno your mom was in. money pit. nightmare before christmas.

Television:

i havent watched tv since april 2006. tv is gay. fuck the radio too. old school mtv cartoons are the best ever.
"Discourse on virtue and they pass by in droves. Whistle and dance the shimmy, and you've got an audience." (Diogenes the Cynic)
if you want to be poison free quit watching tv

Books:

interview with the vampire. anita blake vampire hunter series. icarus girl. philosophy. fiction of the supernatural kind. this is your brain on music. anything scientific.
To a young man who complained that he was ill suited to study philosophy, Diogenes said, "Why then do you live, if you do not care to live well?"

Heroes:

lorena bobbit. axel foley. diogenes the cynic. zoe keating. doseone.

My Blog

an older poem

(sometime in late 2005, early 2006)An empty wastelandand in the middle, a bleeding heart.Nothing will ever grow here again.It is forever torn apart.No more flowersor happy memories.No more tendernesst...
Posted by ::jesicka:: on Fri, 10 Oct 2008 12:44:00 PST

punctured

Shadows fill the roomwhen the lights come on.Words spoken freelyswallowed by ugly mouthsdiseased feelings boiling.Burning tongues makedistorted apologies,choking on the ashes of the unspoken truth....
Posted by ::jesicka:: on Fri, 10 Oct 2008 12:37:00 PST

in your arms

Words patiently lingeron the edge of lipswaiting until they can evolveto describe all of this.When my heart spills openand bleeds all over your handsyour tears wash it all away,your eyes make a stitch...
Posted by ::jesicka:: on Fri, 20 Jun 2008 11:34:00 PST

wayward hearts

Sweet breath of skinPromises of decadence,desires, giving in.Feasting on pleasures,tasting of sins,Liars breed within.Dear Lord help us-We've done it again.Lost in our minds,we forgot about them.(earl...
Posted by ::jesicka:: on Fri, 20 Jun 2008 11:28:00 PST

back of the road

lips pressed togetherkisses so sourflesh, hair, clothwrapped in the hourhow far back do we have to goto remember how we used to feelenfolded in each others arms,the luxury of letting go?when did our h...
Posted by ::jesicka:: on Thu, 12 Jun 2008 01:15:00 PST

float

Slipping under hazen beauty surrendercomatose body floats.Frequency of crystalline dreams saturateseamlessness clarified.Senses flourishing, nourishing timelessness...
Posted by ::jesicka:: on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 02:06:00 PST

sadness

this is an older poem of mine, one that i had the intention of writing and it being one of my greatest poems ever. after writing it however, i decided that it was not that great. i met up with someone...
Posted by ::jesicka:: on Sat, 08 Mar 2008 03:15:00 PST

rerun

I want to numb my braincut out all of the painHumiliation turns to mutilation and every layer i peel backreveals a reflection of the one before...
Posted by ::jesicka:: on Sun, 02 Mar 2008 11:07:00 PST

some older poems...

just a precaution, some of these are pretty damn old/emo. ha!.givertaker. (early 07)Darkness consumesTastes like pleasureDistance encirclesWash of sadnessTouches of insanityI a...
Posted by ::jesicka:: on Wed, 30 Jan 2008 12:25:00 PST

Cycles

The things i have to doto keep myself from cutting the veinthat keeps me connectedto this worldto all of this pain.The things i have to sayto tell myself that when my breath spillsinto my lungs and st...
Posted by ::jesicka:: on Fri, 04 Jan 2008 12:25:00 PST