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Creative, imaginative, Artistic, Eccentric, Sensitive, philosophical, Poetic, Theological, Surreal.I'm a bit of a bore really - its not my fault, i think im depressed. Outside of the ultra-intense reality i draw/paint, usually i would sit comfortably on my bed, open the curtains to the trees and the clouds and play some soothing music to set the scene. Then aquire that inspiration impulse from that expression of lifes energic feeling through a highly imagnative creation of perception - mostly quite disturbing, violent images, contorted, twisted, moulded, dream-like, magical, lonely in some ways. Beauty is what comes next, when the blank canvas takes shape - texture is born, then detail, then a type of movement takes place, the beat gets harder and easier to establish and i start to loose it and go off a bit in pure certianty - somewhat anticipate its feelings so strongly that i birth a metaphorical visual interpretation so close to my goal. Thats when i stop. And don't move on. Because i don't won't to ruin the feeling that i get. Thats, i guess, why alot of my pictures over the years have never properly been finished.Hm. Got a bit carried away there. When i was a child i was quite depressed too. It was due to bullying, teasing and fear that slowly built up my perception, although i never defended myself the pain and hate was always present. I grew rather sensitive in my early teens - a bit of a Black Horse - people would always say that i was too mature for my age - i took it as a bad thing looking back now. Though after all that was over i began to speculate deeply within, unearthted alot of problems with myself, began to accept life, how it was and how it is, and got ever more interested with the human being. I studied alot about psychology, neurology, philosophy and religion - over time my perpetuate hate and bitter loathing for people turned into a deep fascination of them, and ever more. Today i a feel a different person from what i imagined i would be, i have grown to take time out to understand people and myself while still appreciating my love for art, music and literature.................................................. [email protected] .uk......................................................... ..........................................Layout made by F3mm3_F4t4L3 at CreateBlog.com .Layout Created by F3MM3_F4T4L3