About Me
Aries
Moi, in Juxtapoz Magazine September 2006
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"It reaches in and tears your flesh apart as ice cold hands rip into your heart....that's if you still have one that's left inside a cave you call a chest."
My Cousin!
See blogs. I am a little jaded by present society. I most likely will have you figured out in 2.5 seconds. I will not put up with fake people. You will realize this the second you make me mad. I am from Philly, what do you expect? I would like to think most of the time I am nice. If you are looking for a scenester person who is like everybody else on here you have come to the wrong page. I cannot stand people with agendas and people who use others. If you are looking for an agenda book they have cheap ones at Wal Mart. I know this cause I buy my toilet paper in bulk there. You can peruse this profile all you want to try to figure out my life, love, relationships, friendships, etc. but you won't find anything for use in your dramatic life, because there is no drama in mine. If you spam comment me I will probably delete you. Sorry, I just don't find it very personal.
I am a fire sign. I am listful. I am benevolent, generally but I can be a little demanding. I am way older than you and probably have been there and done that. It looks like I have alot of friends, but I have been on here a long time and I am picky. A random fact you might not know about me: I have been to like 80 plus countries/cities. How have I done that? Ask.
(and while you are at it you ask what I am not about?)
"I am not about exclusion. I am not about your group, or your clique. I am not about how many comments you can have on your myspace that makes you cool when you use a pay pal account to live off of from people's donations. I am not about your lines. I am not about your groupism. I am not about your false hopes. I am not about your hate. I am not about your need for celebrity. I am not about your disillusionment. I am not about your myspace photos. I am not about your Top 8. I am not about being popular or being cool. I am not about your hair, your makeup, your style. I am not about your, "one upmanship." I am not about your making money off of an attitude or persona on myspace cause that is about as over and One Hit Wonder as New Kids on the Block. I am however, about YOU. The person YOU are. And if you are kind. If I sense YOU are any of the above in any negative connotation, I probably will kindly exit, and call it a day. It doesn't mean you are a bad person, doesn't even mean that you are wrong doing what you do, but it does mean you aren't for me."
-Lexxi Paul
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Somebody made this for me years ago.
The most important trait to me is loyalty.
Thoughts?
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LOVE(n.)-unrealistic feeling of warmth, security, and a sense of companionship.
It's times like these where silence means everything.
This fairytale ending...
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SENSE FIELD
"Save Yourself"
...."Is it really true Could you save yourself For someone who could love you for you So many times we just give it away To someone who Someone who You met in a bar The back of a car And for a moment You felt important But not in your heart Cuz my self esteem Its been low Go ahead and count, Its been lower than low I know the feeling Of it stealing life out from under me Cuz I want to learn Can you save yourself For someone who Could love you for you So many times we just give it away To someone who couldnt even remember your name Did you save yourself For someone who loves you for you And loves me for me Or give it away To someone who Someone who Can cherish your name Cuz I want to learn Did you save yourself For someone who Loves you for you And loves me for me Give it away To someone who Someone who Cherish your name Cherish your name..."
Happiness
"Happiness is a blissful feeling where each of our desires are met at the time we wish for them to happen. Where our pain is absent and our heart has no link missing. Where are feelings are elated and our hate is never belated."
My Thoughts 02/17/07...
Melissa means "honey bee" in Greek.
"I can't sleep tonight
stab me, direct in the heart
watch me bleed; I'm lying on your feet
dying, living for just one last breath with you
I live, for you and only you
stop lying; you know i'd lie with you...."
-Drop Dead, Gorgeous
"Run in the Front"
"Run in the front like you said.
I’m sad I’ll miss it send it back in the photographs.
And I could use a vacation myself.
My eyes are bored.
Stuck in the lot for days.
Manager said I can’t make “just one more mistakeâ€
So I’ll just hang my head and say sorry
Wouldn’t be the first time.
And you I’m missing you
I don’t want to
But I will.
See the gray in your hair, Angel
Your beauty can’t be covered by insecurity.
I hope the same truth would still hold true for me
‘Cause I drowned in mine.
Calling John on the phone.
I’m panicking after three rings I don’t think that he’s home.
He makes my head much lighter you know.
With just some words he says
“C’mon now now it’s not so bad.
I’m sorry that you feel that way no you’re not useless.
You don’t even have to think about it
Things will work out just fineâ€.
And you I’m missing you I don’t want to
But I will.
See the gray in your hair, Angel.
Your beauty can’t be covered by insecurity.
I hope the same truth would still hold true for me,
‘Cause I drowned in mine.
Run in the front like you said.
I’m sad I’ll miss it send it back in the photographs.
And I could use a vacation myself,
My eyes are bored.
Hours to waste turns into full weeks, then months, then into me.
A life long disease.
The gray in your hair still means hope for me.
That beauty won’t be hidden easily.
That truth could still hold true for me."
THE CONTORTIONIST
The Snake, Cross, Crown
"as I begin to sink into this fate that I have tried so hard to tread you sit with your magazines your cigarettes your apathy as we continue downward into lukewarm discontent descending side by side as retrospect and time devour our thoughts and our long nights with such civilized but brutal taste in suffering and self disgrace your disappointment paints your eyes a darker shade of brown and your poor excuses reek of such expensive wine while my replies of cowardice get molded into forgiveness for everything you said and everything you did i have failed to forgive you for either i tried but i failed to forgive any aspects of either fairweathered friend how could these eyes ever forget those lustfull nights seeing your lips pressed against theirs i tried to forget i tried but failed i begin to sink into this fate that i have tried so hard to tread because apparently i'm much too dense your much too tired and oh so stressed ignoring all these words that i am struggling to say so put down your pill bottles put down your glass of wine put down all of your magazines and look me in the eye and tell me that your happy tell me this is what you wanted from me because it's everything i have and everything i can afford such curteous envy i tried but i failed to forgive any aspects of either she never said she wants it all i bet she does i bet she does...."
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