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Let the shadows burn me...and the flames embrace me...

About Me


I have been called: Mysterious. Different. Intelligent. Deep. Handsome. (Ehh. Don't really believe this one.)
But first and foremost...I am me.
How would I describe myself though? ...hmm.
Blunt, but sublime. Crazy, but mellow. Introverted, yet outgoing.
Miscellaneous facts about me...
† Music + me =† I consider myself a romantic...darkly romantic. I don't believe in flings, I don't believe in one night stands. Not afraid of commitment either.
† If you knew me years ago, you might not like me now. I'm a lot more blunt now than I ever was... You'll see for yourself.
† I'm a man of few words. I've learned to live with it, even though I've gotten complaints from friends that I don't talk much. -_- That's the way I am. I'm usually quiet. Always was, since I was a child...but I know my way with words. What my voice will not say, my pencil usually does. I'm not afraid to speak my mind, though, and I will talk as much as I can. Truth be told...if you get me to talk, I'm a chatterbox.
† I'm a rather easy going person, most of the time...kinda laid back. My walking doesn't reflect it, though.
† I don't smile often...rarely ever do, actually. Smiles are special. Those are only for certain ocassions. And certain people. At the same time...a smile shouldn't be denied to anyone. Especially if you're trying to make someone feel better.
† Always a realist. Not always optimistic...but I try to look at the best side of things, even then. I try to see everything as neutral and objective as possible without sacrificing integrity nor emotion. It's still better than to build yourself false illusions, is it not?
† I have trust issues. Trust is not given. It is earned.
† My mind is hyperactive. It never draws blanks.
† Respect....it takes you far. Really far. It's one of the qualities I value and observe the most in someone. Next to honesty.
There's a whole lot more to me than what I can possibly put here...so if curious, just ask away. I usually answer anything. For every curiosity, there is a question. And for most questions, there are answers. They just need someone to seek them.
Oh, one more thing...sarcasm is used carefully, and when provoked. It's the sharpening stone of my tongue.
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A great man is one that can be a survivor, as opposed to somebody who is born into something and made a few right business decisions and has accomplished what, money?
-Angelina Jolie
Live for the moment. For the memories, the experiences, the feelings. You don't know when--if--there is a 'next time.'
-Myself
It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.
Andre Gide (1869 - 1951) French Author and Essayist
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My Interests

Creative writing
Reading
Music
Lyrics
Drums
Movies
Astrology/the zodiacs
Occult/religion/mythology
Cathedrals
Vampires
Romantic darkness
Psychology
Psychiatry
Human behavior
Pharmacology
Hospitals
Asylums
True crime/murder/serial killer books
Paranormal Activity
Gothic/dark/sinister/morbid art/jewelry
Poetry
Sex
Dreams/nightmares
Erotica
The night
The moon
Rain
Thunderstorms
CANDLES....and incense
Massages
Aromatherapy
Low lighting
Bonfires
The smell of fire
The smell of ash

I'd like to meet:

Someone...
†...with similar interests...who can respect mine. And can respect me as a person.
†...truthful...who isn't shallow, ignorant; that doesn't hide behind masks and isn't afraid to be themselves.
†...who means that they say.
†...who doesn't force their beliefs unto others.
†...with a good heart.
†...with a good head on their shoulders.
†...who doesn't think they are God's gift to humanity.
†..who seeks and enjoys a good conversation, and is able to make one happen.
†who shares an affinity for the dark side of things...who believes that darkness isn't necessarily "evil".
†...who loves the rain, full moons and the night.
If you fit any of the above, I'll be pleased to make your acquaintance.
I come across as picky. And usually I can be, yeah...at the same time I'm not...I believe I am approachable. I don't like to shun people, really. But I'm not very condescending towards crappy attitudes, ignorant people, and disrespectful.
To put it more simply...I treat others as I like to be treated. At the same time, I'm a mirror. I'll relfect what you give me. I'll go to the end of the world with you...do me wrong or piss me off and you don't exist. Simple.
Also...I look forward to getting back in touch with someone I miss dearly. I know her by Azazel. You know who you are. I would like to have contact with you again...somehow. ßleak Chao§ remembers you still.

Music:

Doom/Black/Death metal for the most part. I love my music heavy, intricate and lyrics that catch my attention. Don't really step out of the metal genre, but I can enjoy other types of music as well. I like movie scores, and video game soundtracks as well; I've heard some of the best songs I've ever heard in them. Particularly in games like Final Fantasy, Castlevania, and Devil May Cry...games like Silent Hill have great ambience music, too.
Bands/Artists that I My Dying Bride
Dimmu Borgir
Emperor
Enigma
Cradle Of Filth
Slayer
Type O Negative
Vader
Virgin Black
Danzig
Limbonic Art
Madder Mortem
Mayhem
old Metallica
Opeth
Otep
I'm always looking for new (to me, at least) female-fronted bands. I want to hear a fierce succubus, a furious banshee or a soothing siren.
Erotic techno/trance is good, too. (namely Enigma and Delerium...looking for more). Industrial interests me as well. Looking for good artists to catch my interest.
Some new age music I've heard is also good, excellent ambience. Steve Roach comes to mind.

Movies:

Going to rewrite this.
But this is a basic list.
Se7en
Silent Hill Saw/Saw II/Saw III
Pulse
HOSTEL.... The Hellraiser movies
The Grudge
The Ring/Ring Two
Queen Of The Damned
Interview With The Vampire
Sleepy Hollow
The Blade movies
Lord of the Rings trilogy
Texas Chainsaw Massacre
Skeleton Key
Darkness
Wicker Park
What Lies Beneath
Taking Lives
Murder By Numbers
Hide And Seek
The Exorcist
The Omen
The Exorcism Of Emily Rose
Constantine
Stigmata
Quills

Television:

Law And Order: CI and SVU
South Park
Robot Chicken Beyond Belief
Forensic Files
Poltergiest: The Legacy
Slave To The Metal

Books:

Even though I love reading, I haven't read that many books, to be completely honest. (Shame on me, I know. -_-) Most of my reading comes from the internet, if that even counts.

Heroes:


The Undertaker...for being so damn cool

Gangrel...same as Taker

Eddie Guerrero R.I.P. 1967-2005. It took your death to make me realize the impact you've had on me. Descansa en paz, hermano...arriba la raza...

...because he is...THE GAME

My Blog

Some quotes that Id like to share...

I post these because I pretty much live by these...even though I just found them. It's weird how someone else feels the same way you do, and you've never even met them. Hope they're of your enjoyment....
Posted by £ÐënÇánçër on Fri, 21 Dec 2007 12:34:00 PST

Life...love...letting out?

Life...what an interesting concept, huh? ...it only gives you shit if you willingly take it...I always keep that statement in high regard...because lately it's been trying to make me willingly take al...
Posted by £ÐënÇánçër on Mon, 03 Oct 2005 07:01:00 PST

The Suffering

This is such a badass game.  I'm playing through it again, this time I'm going for the 'bad' ending.  =)...
Posted by £ÐënÇánçër on Sat, 23 Sep 2006 11:06:00 PST

The presence

I feel strange.  I have a feeling right in the pit of my stomach that I can associate with fear...but it is not.  It is the same sinking feeling of being afraid...as if something was pu...
Posted by £ÐënÇánçër on Mon, 12 Dec 2005 12:30:00 PST

Incense and music

The smell of egyptian musk is in the air...as is the sweet memory of you.  It's all around my chamber...and my mind.  You don't leave my mind...it's almost as if you refused to.  Conver...
Posted by £ÐënÇánçër on Wed, 30 Nov 2005 04:49:00 PST

A dark moment

Too many nights spent on lost sleep.  Too many nights spent looking at this damned monitor.  Thinking...wondering...pondering...yearning.  But it's my only escape.  Even when I fee...
Posted by £ÐënÇánçër on Wed, 16 Nov 2005 03:33:00 PST