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*Nilaya*

When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve w

About Me


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I have survive the toughest, walked trough forbidden, manage to collect enough strength to look in the eyes of the cruel and unavoidable truth… And I saw emptiness and hopeless, and one big locked iron door…"
I stepped into the hallway of the house of pain. Plastic reality.Footsteps against the drawn curtains Am I alive?The feeling must be paid for.The price of a feeling, the price of a glance at the clouds. So I wonder, have we all gone mad? Are we all lost, amorphous In some foggy passageway? Are we all abandoned, confused. Our footsteps as if we’re made of glass yet walking over sharp floors… Do you not know what lies deep inside of me…As if it was in a black ocean knitted of dreams? Who granted you permission to swim through my waters? Who granted you permission, who gave you a reason to enter my circle and smear my colors? I have traveled for a thousand years… I have traveled through the pain of others, walked through it and returned to the beginning again…I bore the burden of shadows and the coldness of human eyes…
Welcome to sonorous loneliness the everlasting aggression of wet city streets....
I’m death and non-existing peson a long time ago for all uninvited and lost people. It’s finally came that moment and time when I’m starting to existing only for myself!
Time is passing by so rapidly. Cursoriness is whispering to us: it’s about time to start to feel, it’s about time to start to look,and it’s about time to start to listen...
By Nilaya
*I wonder...what reality is, and that reality itself isn't contributed by the invisible forces that circling around us, touching our bodies while we seeping, and piercieing our eyes while we're looking but whe don't know what... If the red is indeed something else and before time we were told that it is RED and we blindfolded belive in it, and see that is the color, and nobody can undecive us, who we are going to trust that this is reality...
By Nilaya
On the stage of life we forget our character, we don't remember the long studied text. On the field of death we forget the meaning of symbols, we don't remember the bad things which cut our faces with sharp moves. In hard times we stand in front of a riddle, we stump the solutions and barry the meaning.
Ny Nilaya
Still that many written words didn’t measure my sorrow,
nor shown happiness
nor spoke that what I wanted to hear...
You know who you are…I will not try to explain to you why I am here...
You are the one who knows…
I will not write words to you
those in which every letter stands for one morning and one new sorrow...
Time goes by…We are going to meet...
You know that our sights will meet, and that we will know from where we came…
Birth for the new morning...let’s pay for the birth and wait for the death
I sit on the turned over boat, staring at the sky full of stars...
Long time ago we spoke and then it became quite, too
in front of sorrow and my eyes...
And you are quite...
I don’t know this age, and these people who only know of blood,
fear and screaming…
I know other things, the softer ones
But still strong enough to hurt…hurt the most…
What I had, I no longer have…I killed, I admit…
And burn me all of you who think that - That should be...
I'm not going to complain…
I don’t have time for explanations…
Time is passing by…We will meet…
You know that…
you know that every time you think of the mornings
when you were getting the Sun out of your eyes
with tiresome movements…so used to darkness.
I know… We will meet… We will see each other
By Nilaya

My Interests

Psychology, poetry,writing,books, music, art, photography, magic, alternative culture, movies, parties,weird things, horror stories, graveyards, gothic fashion, psychedelic people, mind of a serial killer, animals, comedy, vampires, festivals, France, Japan, Israel, dolls, piercing, tattoo, castles, forests, nature..
My poetry is my world, and as I said - I live in another dimension, and I'm happy there!

I'd like to meet:

Marie Antoinette ( I love 18th century ).
And I would like to meet people who had "open mind" for everything!To meet all people who have interests in every kind of art!Musicians, writers, actors! Well, I'm here to meet all interesting people!

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Music:

First:Psychedelic Trance!:) Then Progressive,Electro,Gothic,EBM,Ambiental, Rock... My favorite psy artists : Alternative Control,Electro Sun, S.U.N. Project, Skazi, Dino Psaras, Talamasca, Vibe Tribe,Bizzare Contact, 1200 Micograms, Alien Project, Analog Pussy, Astral Projection, Astrix, Atomic Pulse,Black & White, Void, Chi-AD, Dark Soho, Wizzy Noise, Domestic,Pixel, Elec3, Gataka, System Nipel, Psysex,Freaked Frequency....AND MANY MANY MORE.
Other artists : Alice In Chains,Tool, Juliette And The Licks, Beseech, Nightwish, Placebo, Charon,Depeche Mode,Type O Negative,The Birthday Massacre,Pearl Jam,Orgy,The Doors, Moby, Billy Idol, Massive Attack, Portishead, Laika, Tricky, Underworld.....etc.. Serbian bands: EKV, Block Out...

Movies:

There are so many of them!!!I adore movies!!
Hannibal Rising,The Silence Of The Lambs, Hannibal, Red Dragon,The Mists Of Avalon,The Craft,Original Sin, Green Mile,Gia, Mr & Mrs Smith,Fear And Loating In Las Vegas,Trainspotting,The Doors, Premonition,Apocalypto,300,Dark Water, The Passion Of The Crist,The Ninth Gate, Interview With The Vampire,Queen Of The Damned, One Missed Call, The Ring (Japanese version), The Grudge 1 & 2, Saw 1, 2 & 3, Pirates Of The Caribbean 1,2 & 3,The Prestige,The Lord of The Rings,Crank, Charlie & The Chocolate Factory, The Dreamers, Silent Hill,Grindhouse, Four Rooms,Natural Born Killers,Foxfire,

Television:


Books:

Books by Stephenie Meyer: Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse...Interview With The Vampire by Anne Rice, Vampire Lestat,Vampire His Kith And Kin By Montague Summers, Vampire By John Polidori, books of Philip Pulman, and Paulo Coelho, and Price's books,Charles Bukowski,Castaneda,Tolkin..And many many more..and all books about witchcraft, vampyrism, mytology, snakes & reptiles, psychology and drugs,and of corse poetry..

Heroes:

Through the vast shadowy world of ghosts and demons is no figure so terrible, no figure so dreaded and abhorred, yet dight with such feareful fascination, as the vampire, who is himself neither ghost nor demon, but yet who partakes the dark natures and possesses the mysterious and terrible qualities of both!

My Blog

Smisao Zivota Je Sam Zivot Part 1

Smisao zivota je sam zivot.....izgovorila sam to vec nekoliko puta...Sto u sebi, sto na glas.... Smisao zivota je ziveti zivot i ne pitati se zasto nam je dat.... Smisao zivota je ZIVOT..... Dok alkoh...
Posted by *Nilaya* on Thu, 31 May 2007 06:45:00 PST

Bezosecajni nebitni sanjari

83. Moja razlicitost od ustaljenog redosleda stvari primorava me da mislim da sam jedina koja je pokusala da shvati kretanje prokletih cestica za obicne smrtnike koji u svom bolu ( koji ih odrzava zi...
Posted by *Nilaya* on Sun, 27 May 2007 08:05:00 PST

Otvori Ochi I Gledaj!

99 Zasto smo izabrali da koracamo po ivici zileta? Ili  je to neko drugi odredio a mi smo slepi putnici. Sa jedne strane  zivot koji nikada potpuno nismo ziveli. Sa druge strane  Smrt koja nam...
Posted by *Nilaya* on Fri, 11 May 2007 07:01:00 PST

OVO JE MOJA OMILJENA....

64. Preseci vazduh pogledom...jer zivot je gvozdeni tocak,okrece se uvek u istom smeru......One svece koje si upalio pred odlazak na reku, jos uvek gore...samo je sada plamen promenio boju......Post...
Posted by *Nilaya* on Sat, 24 Feb 2007 11:15:00 PST