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About Me

I am living the first days our '07 winter. It's special. Not very friendly in the evening and a little worse at night.. But really nice in the morning. A tropical paradise is not a nice place when dressing up and going to work in the heat. It's not Miami Vice :) Somewhere during my late late thirties, I am starting to enjoy life. Silly notion, isn't it? Maybe.. But it's only when you've lived that you know. Some know earlier, some never do. I am genuinely sorry for the latter.. (Life is not fair sometimes). I love music. There is something about it that brightens my life, literally gives it a meaning.. It's not about hits, or stars. I like the idea of music being created. I like the history of a song or an album. I can listen to a song over an over just because I know how it was made, or because I can feel how much hard work was put behind. In some cases, I try to imagine the genius behind certain songs at work giving birth to classics. While I diligently spent my spare time collecting music during the last years, I barely listened to any.. But my time has come again. I feel again like a teenager discovering a new world of endless possibilities. I sincerely wish I could earn a living listening to music.. But I guess it's still a BIG bonus to the wonderful life granted by the Creator. Anyway, I often catch myself thinking of ways to get paid for enjoying music. And it's not some kind of joke. I am seriously considering how it can be done. I wish I could play. I own a few instruments, amongst which three guitars, but I just cannot get to playing. I exchanged a few words (via the Net) with a guitar wizard who was kind enough to advise me how to overcome my problems. He was wise enough to guess what they were. Quite exactly the truth, and somehow the reason why I refused to play for something around ten years. Now I need to prove him right and get back to playing. It's going to be a slow process that already started in my head around a year or more ago. I have the rest of my life ahead of me. And I think it's wonderful. I (still) like to talk to people and have fun, but I am not getting much of this interaction at this time of my life. I may miss it.. Maybe not. I don't really know. I am equally happy to be here writing for example.. It's part myself getting my life shaped by my own hands, and I like that.After deciding to try living one day at a time, I think this has been something I could enjoy for a long time... Living every day as the last day was something I considered at an earlier stage but it did not work for me. I was always expecting something that would be coming later on. And I still find it as some gloomy and pessimistic pattern of thought. However... I sort of stopped of expecting better days than the present day. That slowly came as some natural notion while I was fighting my way through life. I am not careless about the future, mind you, but today's already got its share of toils and happy moments.. Why focus further than that? after all, I will certainly not carry my achievements and riches through the graveyard.. Maybe I will be remembered by some for something, or be simply remembered by a few.. but I will only be part of their memory. It is about a future that doesn't exist yet, and I will not exist in any other form than thoughts. Nice, isn't it? I however believe that I should NOT fear and just LIVE my life. Trying to get this into my head. Got to master time too. It seems to fly by, and I still need to slow it down.

My Interests

Cars, computers and the Internet, and cell phones. I liked to read, but don't have the time anymore.. (By the way, currently reading Angels and Demons, by Dan Brown. Not bad, in fact, well crafted, but still only a novel) I like dressing up to go to work too. Gives me a good reason to feel good when I don't want to go in the morning. But I do not care about clothing apart from that. I DO NOT care about how I look like apart from that.. which is quite funny since I really look like a mess most of the time I am on my own. I am heavily into music. I collect cds. I just love to own them. I do not know why but this makes me happy, so I go for it. April 07: I have decided to pick up the guitars again..

I'd like to meet:

The Dalai Lama, Michael Jackson, Bono from U2 (to learn about fair trade, poverty, and famine), Prince, Steeve (my cousin I haven't seen in ages), old true friends (most of them), Satch, Miles Davis (not right now, though), Jenifer garner, Yngwie Malmsteen, George Michael, Angelina Jolie, Sofia Essaidi Any world leader? Well, I would start with one former President of my country whom I appreciate. Tony Blair? I used to want to a long time ago. I do not know any more. In fact, I am only keen to meet normal people at this point of my life. The heroes of my youth are either dead or too much of yesterday's news. Real people are much more interesting, so I would rather have it this way. I would like to meet Nelson Mandela and Stevie Wonder, though.

Music:

Miles, Prince, older MJ stuff, Hilary Duff (yes), and too much to mention now, but I may reconsider later :) Generally speaking, I'm into Jazz, Heavy Metal, Death Metal, Pop, Prog Rock, 70's Rock and Roll, bubblegum 80's as well as the New Romantic stuff of that era. And the rest of everything, except for the Acid/House trip and grunge. (87 to 94 went quite wrong, apparently) My recent stuff? Charlie Sexton, the Arcangels, Katharine McPhee, Nelly Furtado, Justin Timberlake, Mark Knopfler's and Emmylou Harris' 'All the roadrunning', the Dixie Chicks, Shakira (very good voice), Norah Jones, Meat Loaf (B.O.O.H 3), Amy Winehouse, Lily Allen, the Casino Royale score, Miami Vice OST, Bonnie Raitt, Tim Buckley.. In fact, if I had to list everything I like, I'd be here for days.. Everything that is nice to my ears is ok for me. Even though I have a preference for Heavy Metal, Jazz, Rock Music, and the magical BLUES. I Like it so much that I prefer not to listen to it very often because it would overshadow other types of music too easily, and I do not like to be influenced. Even though I do not listen to the music I love so much, it is always in my head. In there, everything goes. All the time.. in the background, for every occasion.. Always looking for the song that fits the situation. It is like my life is constantly building up it's own soundtrack. May 07: Heavily into Dimmu Borgir, Hilary Duff, Beyonce, Shannon McNally. The latter's music has really hooked me.. Currently taking the time to read the lyrics too. I want to go back to 'The Wreckers'. Got to get my hands on the cd which must not be too far away. And I think Beyonce turned into Joss Stone, or maybe is it the other way round? Anyway, B's lyrics are not included in the booklet, and I understand. She's most certainly not singing songs that aim at the 'Igor Novello Award', it seems. 'WWW', 'To the left..'? Entertaining, but I think Hillary's singing better words.. My next cd shall be the latest Snoop Dogg. Shall give it a try. Not much blues,, even though I own a lot of Blues cds. They tend to get me .. blue :(

Movies:

Legends of the falls, Bullit, James Bonds by Pierce Brosnan, and Casino Royale too. The Harry Potter series. Batman begins, Troy, Mr and Mrs Smith, Interview with the vampire

Television:

I principally watch tv for the news and weather forecasts.. Just have it coming to me.. I like watching music shows and clips of performing artists. New York Justice and Alias were very nice to watch. Still are. I just wish it could be less boring. That the same things would not be played over and over again. But I guess somehow it's obsolete to think of tv as the absolute entertainment.

Books:

I am not a big fan of books. Comics, maybe? Do they count? Ha ha, thought so. Ok, I try to read a lot from Martin Gray, Anthony Robbins, and biographies whenever possible.. And that bestseller called the Bible. I have read my fair share of books in an earlier stage of my life, but they do not really work for me anymore. And I also do not try finding the time. My bad. However, I would love to get my hands on audio books that I believe to be easier to deal with. And with 'Angels and Demons', I have reached my 2nd Dan Brown thing. The Da Vinci Code is far better, though And I got the latest Martin Gray which is mind shaking, but I still think race and religion are not necessary pre-requisite to define who a person is. And I recently got my hands on a stock of self-help books through which I go through every time I have an opportunity. Learning a positive thought, or simply reading about one can only be good for me. And I'm leaving that part where I wrote that I was not anymore into books. I wrote that some time ago when I wasn't really reading anymore - not even the newspapers. I just want it to remind me how everything changes. And how Love changes everything.

Heroes:

I am seriously reconsidering this part of my imagination.Definitely my parents.. Well, my family in fact. It's a really bizarre way for me to think, but I need to say those things like they are.. Guess I am starting to age and am trying to do it gracefully. It was nice to have heroes when I was younger. But it's better that this continues to be part of the past. Maybe I had the wrong ones? I am waiting for the day I am certain that I have become my own hero, that I became whatever were the qualities, or details I admired or appreciated from others. Am I? Probably yes, but I believe that there is a long way to go.And the more I think about it, the more I have come to think that having heroes was NOT a good thing. Beautiful liars, most of the time, and often deceivingly drug addicts or wasted people.. Growing up and getting to realize what I know is a terrible thing that is happening to me. Family.. the most important thing in one's life. My advice: if you don't have any, find one. Heroes are within this small circle. Your family will be your heroes, and if you are lucky, you certainly shall be their hero. Live with care, live with pride. You are a hero.
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