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MyHotComments / HotFreeLayoutsMy journey to recovery started two years ago (1/27/05) I was lost but now I'm finding a new way of life...day by day...one day at a time. To those that still suffer from my disease I want them to understand that all is not lost and that no one need ever die again from addiction... of any kind, and believe me when I say there are many. Only the ones that suffer know the true meaning of something that rules every facet of life, from the time we wake til the time we sleep. I was not my intent for it to happen this way and in the beginning the parties, etc. were fun. In the end, I partied for maintainence cause thats all I knew to do. hey... I had no problem... was a fun guy...the life of the party.......... I THOUGHT. The friends I had gradually fell by the wayside but I felt they were weak and just couldn't hang, lol. Now I sit here and think who in their right mind wants to hang around a drunk and a druggie. Now the question I would like each of you to ask yourselves that partake of the party world... when do we cross the line of it just being fun and become a drunk and/or an addict. I thought I was in control cause I only did it on weekends or when someone came around. It became easy to drink etc. when I was stressed, down, happy, sad, or just to unwind ... you know what I mean, don't you?One day I hit the last bottom I ever have to hit...it was then I started my journey. It was then I became friends with Bill W. and Jimmy K. there are those of you of you that know them too, and those that don't know them and want to... just ask me about them. They can be your friend too, they taught me about hope and wanting to live.Now I am getting my life back and can start to be the father to my children that they deserve...one day at a time ...for I'm a work in progress, not perfection. I only hope I live long enough to make amends and to let them know they are loved. To the friends I have left ... thanks for hangin. I'm here for ya!!!..