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Nebelmädchen

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About Me


From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.
(Alone - Edgar Allan Poe)

My Interests

What is life? A frenzy.
What is life? An illusion,
A shadow, a fiction,
And the greatest profit is small;
For all of life is a dream,
And dreams are nothing but dreams.
¿Qué es la vida? Un frenesí.
¿Qué es la vida? Una ilusión,
una sombra, una ficción,
y el mayor bien es pequeño;
que toda la vida es sueño,
y los sueños, sueños son.
(La vida es sueño by Pedro Calderón de la Barca)
Schon ist halb Europa, schon ist zumindest der halbe Osten Europas auf dem Wege zum Chaos, fährt betrunken im heiligen Wahn am Abgrund entlang und singt dazu, singt betrunken und hymnisch wie Dmitri Karamasoff sang. Ueber diese Lieder lacht der Bürger beleidigt, der Heilige und Seher hört sie mit Tränen. (Hermann Hesse, Blick ins Chaos)
Unfortunately it's a question of words, of voices, one must not forget that, one must try and not forget that completely, of a statement to be made, by them, by me, some slight obscurity here, it might sometimes to be wondered if all their ballocks about life and death is not as foreign to their nature as it is to mine. The fact is they no longer know where they've got to in their affair, where they've got me to, I never knew, I'm where I always was, wherever that is, and their affair. I don't know what is meant by that, some process no doubt, that I've got stuck in, or haven't yet come to, I've got nowhere, in their affair, that's what galls them, they want me there somewhere, anywhere, if only they'd stop committing reason, on them , on me, on the purpose to be achieved, and simply go on, with no illusion of having begun one day or ever being able to conclude, but it's too difficult, too difficult, for one bereft of purpose, not to look forward to his end, and bereft of all reason to exist, back to a time he did not. Difficult too not to forget, in your thirst for something to do, in order to be done with it, and have that much less to do, that there is nothing to be done, nothing special to be done, nothing doable to be done. (Samuel Beckett, The Unnameable)

I'd like to meet:

Wodinaz, Baldr, Thor, other ghosts wandering through endless streets and dark passages of life.

Music:

Traditional Doom Metal, Funeral Doom, Death Doom, Drone Doom, Neofolk, Acid Folk, Neoclassical, Martial, Industrial, Experimental, Noise, Avant-garde, Post-Rock:
Triarii, Dernière Volonté, Angizia, Calle Della Morte, Von Thronstahl, H.E.R.R., Karjalan Sissit, :of the Wand and the Moon:, Current 93, Bethlehem, Anathema, Jim Morrison, Novembers Doom, Void of Silence, Duo Noir, Dead Can Dance, Camerata Mediolanense, Argine, Mourning Beloveth, Ordo Rosarius Equilibrio, Hagalaz' Runedance, Nebelhexë, Fire + Ice, Madder Mortem, Changes, Rome, Nortt, Acid Bath, Ordo Equitum Solis, Antony and the Johnsons, Spiritual Front, Der Blutharsch, Bleiburg, Puissance, Brighter Death Now, Unexpect, Skepticism, A Challenge of Honour, The Days of the Trumpet Call, Diamanda Galás, Primordial, Shadow Project, Devil Doll, Yndi Halda, Letum, Tony Wakeford, L'Orchestre Noir, Nick Cave, The Well of Sadness, Esmerine, Shirley Collins, Elend, Coil, Allerseelen, Harvest Rain, Mastodon, Tom Waits, Tenhi, Stabat Mater, Unholy, Lumsk, Reido, The Funeral Orchestra, Disillusion, diSEMBOWELMENT, Les Joyaux de la Princesse, Syd Barrett, Test Department & South Wales Striking Miners Choir, Celtic Frost, Nico, Lux Iterna, Boyd Rice & Friends, Forseti, Mogwai, Godspeed You! Black Emperor, Joy Division, Cold Fusion, Einstürzende Neubauten, Maudlin of the Well, A Silver Mt. Zion, Backworld, Agnivolok, Regard Extreme, Magnet, Nest, Angelo Badalamenti, Hekate, The Soil Bleeds Black, Tapio Kotkavuori, Nurse with Wound, Mother Destruction, Swans, Comatose Vigil, Volksweerbaarheid, Beatrik, Morgion, Corvus Corax, Eluveitie, Gae Bolg, Fin De Siecle, Dornenreich, Max Richter, The Sins of Thy Beloved, Pantheist, YOB, Officium Triste, Until Death Overtakes Me, Shape of Despair, Howden-Wakeford, Estatic Fear, Pelican, Deinonychus, Daylight Dies, Ahab, Evoken, Bohren & der Club of Gore, Empyrium, Mar de Grises, Lacrimosa, My Dying Bride, Omne Datum Optimum, Strength Through Joy, Agalloch, Esoteric (UK), In Slaughter Natives, Draconian, Ocean, Winter, Catacombs, Remembrance, Runemagick, Haggard, Xasthur, Mournful Congregation,The Protagonist, Intaglio, Avrigus, Skumring, Minsk, Aarni, Wolves in the Throne Room, ODROERIR, Khanate, Saturnus, Drudkh, Earth, Reverend Bizarre, Longing for Dawn, Burning Witch, Wormphlegm, Worship, Hyponic, Sunn O))), Falkenbach, Ulver, Strurmpercht, Ataraxia, Blood Axis, Arditi, Sieben, Waldteufel, Storm of Capricorn, Thergothon, Foresta di Ferro, Neither/Neither World, Ordo Funebris, Neun Welten, Les Rallizes Denudes, Nature and Organisation, Les Joyaux de la Princesse, EA, Der Arbeiter, Paul Roland, Death in June, Rose Rovine e Amanti, Belborn, Espers, Van der Graaf Generator, King Crimson, Gentle Giant, Deadsoul Tribe, Turisas, Led Zeppelin, Fields of the Nephilim, Hel, Autopsia, Birch Book, In Gowan Ring, Trobar de Morte, Orplid, Darkwood, The Doors, Angelo Badalamenti, Gae Bolg & the Church of Fand, Faun, The Moon Lay Hidden Beneath a Cloud, Nocte Obducta, Archon Satani, Flower Travellin' Band, Omnia, Sol Invictus, Arcana, Andrew King, Werkraum, Autunna et sa Rose, OM, Zaraza, Ain Soph, AIT!, Allerseelen, Cawatana, Deutsch Nepal, Georg Friedrich Handel, IANVA, Johann Sebastian Bach, Doom:VS, Neutral, Ludwig van Beethoven, Luftwaffe, O Paradis, Coph Nia, Swallow the Sun, Romowe Rikoito, 16 Horsepower, Sangre Cavallum, etc.

Movies:

The works that leave you with many unanswered questions in the end. David Lynch, Ingmar Bergman, Federico Fellini, Roberto Rossellini, Michelangelo Antonioni, Pier Paolo Pasolini, Agnès Varda, Werner Herzog, Andrei Tarkovsky, Louis Feuillade, Jean Cocteau, Luis Buñuel, Kenneth Anger, Raúl Ruiz, dario Agrento, the Dogme 95 Collective (Lars von Trier, Thomas Vinterberg, Søren Kragh-Jacobsen, Kristian Levring), Beckett on Film, Hitchcock, Shooting Livien, Der Himmel über Berlin (1987, Wim Wenders), Pandaemonium (2000), The Hunger (1983), The Girl on a Motorcycle (1968), The Cube, Tesuo, The Wicker Man (1972), The Cabinet of Doctor Caligari, Dellamorte Dellamore, Waking Life, Metropolis, films made in Weimar era and the Third Reich era in general ,surrealistic charades, Coffee and Cigarettes, etc

Television:

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Books:

The literature that uncovers the paralised and helpless nature of society and human kind. James Joyce, Franz Kafka, Herman Hesse, Charles Baudelaire, Reiner Maria Rilke, H.D., William Blake, Virginia Woolf, Bertolt Brecht, Guenther Grass, Samuel Beckett, Paul Valery, Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Ezra Pound, Friedrich Nietschze, Stephane Mallarme, Carl Gustav Jung, Albert Camus, E.T.A. Hoffmann, T.S. Eliot, Patrick Süskind, Les Chants de Maldoror, etc

Heroes:



Misanthropy, antireligionism, anti social, black humour, satire, cynism, intellectualism, apocalyptic stories and haunting poetry, demonic and esoteric, ghost images, decayed places and deserted buildings (cement, metal, steel, dust), existencialism mixed with nihilism, Europe, mythology, incense sticks, puh-erh tea, uniforms, vintage, back & white, feministm individualism, ideologies, history, culture, phylosophy, literature & linguistics, Germanic heritage, Roman times, industry, machines, techniques of controlling human mind, dreams, rainy days, cellars, bunkers, underground passages, autumn, unconventional music, sad ladies in long gowns wandering alone in the woods when night falls, radiant mist, the smell of jasmine, il teatro dei morti

My Blog

Pays du Someil (IV)

On a day like this,He floats into a black abyssWhere the screams of of the unborn children echoe...Where the souls that cannot find eternity mourn...He floats and floatsThrough abyss that is black and...
Posted by Nebelmädchen on Wed, 11 Jun 2008 10:07:00 PST

Troubadour

I am walking down the streetAnd this walking is my only aim.And the streets and the pathsNever seem to come to an end.It seems that all I haveAre these shifting pictures:The old man I've met in a hutw...
Posted by Nebelmädchen on Mon, 02 Jun 2008 04:47:00 PST

A MECHANICAL ANGEL by Henrikas Radauskas

A mechanical angel's duties are not difficult: Govern lightning bolts, bring bread and wine, Watch through the window how flames climb the walls, Talk with street lamps about old times. A mechanical a...
Posted by Nebelmädchen on Fri, 09 May 2008 10:41:00 PST

Death in June & Boyd Rice "Get Used to Saying No!"

Get used to saying noTurn your back on the deceiverWhose whispers in your ear complicate your lifeWillpower, energy, exampleWhat has to be done is doneWithout waveringWithout worrying about what other...
Posted by Nebelmädchen on Wed, 30 Apr 2008 10:22:00 PST

MORTUOS VOCO

MORTUOS VOCO by Vincas-Mykolaitis Putinas   Now I depart. With benedictory graceA world of silence summons me to go,I feel the gentle shroud of endless space,The Night that soothes and softens al...
Posted by Nebelmädchen on Wed, 26 Mar 2008 07:03:00 PST

The Elemental of Fire

Our little souls are floating in the ocean of black blood. Lost. All is lost. For a moment or two we can see the bliss that has nothing to do with heaven or hell. It is our sufferings and pains of gro...
Posted by Nebelmädchen on Tue, 04 Dec 2007 10:26:00 PST

"A Thousand Years" by Nyka Niliunas

A THOUSAND YEARS   Time is born and diesBetween who I am and where I am,Is reborn in death and lives againIn death, in the equations of equalityOf an instant and of pain.That is why I have decide...
Posted by Nebelmädchen on Sat, 17 Nov 2007 05:07:00 PST

Die verschwundene Antlitze

In my memory the liquid greenness of the valleys is lying:Souls marked by faith, passion and hope,The highway dusty, muddy, and wet,The yellow leaf sets on the kneesLooking around...It appears that al...
Posted by Nebelmädchen on Fri, 24 Aug 2007 12:00:00 PST

(untitled)

The myth of destinationHaunts me like a curse.Even in the deepest lethargyI can see the road.Sweet smell of poppiesCarries the promise of the storm...And as my weary headIs welcomed by the pillowThe f...
Posted by Nebelmädchen on Tue, 24 Jul 2007 03:21:00 PST

The Vision

  The bird of chants rises from the funeral pyre and spreads his wings across the sky. The darkest hour vanishes into the past: Cronus himself has come back from nothingness to swallow exist...
Posted by Nebelmädchen on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 11:19:00 PST