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bev

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About Me

ok, bear with me on this because i barely know myself to even begin to present myself to the myspace world... bev thinks, way too much... but it makes me feel enlightened and in touch with myself and the world, i rather have it this way then live in my own teeny tiny bubble... i take life seriously, almost too seriously at times, but growing up in the way i did, you had to take life seriously, if you didn't you could end up hurt, very hurt... i missed out of the care free childhood, and struggle as an adult to live a care free life, but i am trying... forever trying to deal with my past, nurse my wounds and heal... i study, sometimes a little too much in the wrong areas, but i am coming to understand myself more and be at peace with myself... i have this huge empty void in my soul, and academic study isn't going to fill it... only study of myself will... and that's where i am right now, that's what journey i am on, the course of "learning all about bev and learning how to love herself"... family and friends mean the world to me, i spent so many years cut off my the world and it achieved NOTHING, blood is blood and water is water... both are needed and required to LIVE...

My Interests

working and studying takes up most of my life and in a perfect world, it wouldn't be this way... but in this world, i need to pay bills... when i allow myself some time off from all that, i sit in my garden and watch the plants grow. lie on the grass and watch the clouds go by. walk up and down a beach in the water (watching out for jelly fish!) and letting the water cleanse my soul... i spend too long in the shower for that same reason... i love learning... i yearn to travel and revel in the richness, vibrancy and brightness of culture... i read, when i can make my concentrate on the fact... i love having lunch/coffee/dinner with friends in enlightens my soul... i long to take more care of myself, but its a healing process that i can't do overnight...

I'd like to meet:

The enlightened ones... My maternal grandmum and granddad in heaven... G - i miss you more than you'll ever know and long for the day our paths will cross again... God, just to see what he looks like and if he really is o"one of us"... the Buddha... myself on my death bed to tell me it was all worth it, and "you did good girl"...View All Friends | View Blog | Add Comment

Music:

Music is my life, my soul... I am moving away from my trance/rave generation years, into soulful, folksy type music... but really anything where the melody, vocals and lyrics captures my soul...

Television:

As time moves on I seek less and less enjoyment in watching the TV, programs that once mattered to me I couldn't care less about...

Books:

I have so many books on the go at any one time, I currently have Micheal J Fox and Richard Hammons's biographies part read... a book by Anita Shreve, who's title escapes me... The Good Mood Food Diet and The Mind and Body Bible all on the go!

Heroes:

People have alwyas told me that I am stronger than I think I am, maybe one day I will understand what they mean and recognise the Hero within myself.

My Blog

time line...

Last night I had a random though, further to my "zombiefication blog" I was thinking... so if I can shake the feeling, how many years of great life could I have, and if I live to the average life expe...
Posted by bev on Sun, 30 Mar 2008 01:21:00 PST

sanctuary

i have deep down known for so long who and i am what resides in my heart. the shameful thing is i never listened to it or acknowledged it. i listened to everyone else saying i must "follow my dreams"....
Posted by bev on Mon, 22 Oct 2007 03:05:00 PST

memories...

its 45 years ago to the day that my grandma died... i sadly never got to meet her. i never realised that it was the same day as my little sister's birthday. my mom also told me today that not only was...
Posted by bev on Sat, 20 Oct 2007 10:24:00 PST

30 things before i am 30 - the review -

i was just reviewing the list of 30 things to do before i am 30 list... after all i have been through this year, it seems so childish and pointless. its been an amazing year so far, incredibly hard a...
Posted by bev on Wed, 17 Oct 2007 04:27:00 PST

new beginnings....

there is something so liberating about finally knowing who you are and your purpose in life... on the flip side, there is someting so annoying that you knew this all along and different have the coura...
Posted by bev on Wed, 17 Oct 2007 04:22:00 PST

30 things to do before I am 30 (in october 2007)

this idea, kind of came from friends i think... anyway... it ten months i want to... 1 get into a size 14 2 walk to the top of skiddaw 3 walk in the summer rain 4 spend a night wi...
Posted by bev on Fri, 19 Jan 2007 11:22:00 PST