Alone™

I'd like to meet:

A person with tolerance, patience, an admirable sense of humor, one who believes in freedom from the materialistic hell we know as today, a soul who was never in the box or tunnel to begin with, has to have an ecclectic musical taste, general understanding of life, cultured, intelligent, and just an all around interesting cool person.But if you are just weird I'm gonna love you.

We are the middle children of history. No purpose or place. We have no great war. No great depression. Our great war is a spiritual war; our great depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars, but we won't. And we are slowly learning that fact. - Fight Club

Friend, it's getting late
We should be going
We've been sat here beneath these flickering neons for hours
while I am cracking their code,
you are deciphering me for I am a mystery,
I am a locked room in a tall tower
Oh can you feel the gravity falling calling us home?
Oh, did you see the stars colliding,
shining just to show we belong?
Your telescope eyes see everything clearly
My vision is blurred but
I know what I heard echoing all around while I am tuning you in,
You are deciphering me
not such a mystery,
not such a faint in a far away sound
It's love, it's love that holds us
We will be alright
It's truth, it's truth that shows us
If we'll walk in it's light

Please die
For as long as you're here you were not
You make the sound of laughter
And sharpened nails seem softer
And you're my obsession
I love you to the bones
Like an Anorexia life

Have you ever heard about Conspiracy Theory Literature?

CTL frequently focuses on the theme that secret societies exist aroundthe world and are used to manipulate world politics, the media, andeconomics. These societies may be involved in"black magic". These societies are always interested in more power and use subtle andhidden means to obtain it. For example, they recruit members in keypositions of power, not necessarily in open or public view.

A theme of CTL is that WWI, WWII, and Nazism were planned by those inpower. The idea is that arms manufacturers benefit enormously fromsales of armaments during a conflict. Moreover,bankers that loan money to governments to finance wars can make largesums of money when the money is paid back with interest. Someauthors claim that bankers actually arrange for wars to be startedusing a secret network of agent provocateurs. Other authors claim that Hitler was not the mastermind of his movementbut in fact a pawn in a greater drama in which he was utilized to be asuitable enemy for nations of the world to mobilize against eachother. Hitler and Nazism had many occult ties which are often noted bythe same authors. Another CTL claim is that the Jewish race and Israel is used as auseful pawn by conspirators to obtain political goals.

A major CTL theme is that terrorism is used by secret societies forsecret agendas. For example, a secret society might handily murdermany enemies all at once if they are all on the plane at the sametime. Supposedly this is sometimes the case when one secret societydiscovers another secret society's secret airline plans of itsmembers. Another claim of CTL is that terrorism creates a fear thatallows governments to crack down on people and take away their rights,allowing greater control. Another example would bethe Oklahoma Bombing conspiracy, which supposedly was used to polarizethe public against militias, who were successfully educating themabout their rights and the machinations of the world bankers.

According to much CTL, religions are used to brainwash the masses andthey are infected with much propaganda and disinformation. In one CTL,the Catholic Church is rumored to have a large storage of secretmaterial stored in the Vatican. Other claims are that the Christianreligion was heavily manipulated at the Council of Nicea to removedoctrines of reincarnation, masculinize it, etc. And that the recordof Christ's life has been distorted for control purposes.

A key conspiracy theory relates to the control of the media. CTLsuggests the media is controlled by various interests that force alack of objectivity even when the media appears to have it. However, CTLsuggests that a government itself desires to manipulate the media tokeep the population in the dark about its agendas and operations. Forexample, much CTL suggests the CIA doesn't merely get information fromreporters and editors, known as its "assets", but that it activelyinfluences them in the information they convey to the public. Variousmethods can be used such as payments, appeal to "national security",etc.

The NSA, or National Security Agency, is the subject of much CTL. CTLsometimes states the NSA is a front for concealing secrets aboutaliens, or operations involving them. Other scenarios are that the NSAis a "trojan horse" to create an authoritarian government system.Officially, the National Security Agency is in charge of creatingcryptographic devices for the military and government to allow secretcommunications. The agency was concealed from existence for decadesfrom its inception in the 50's. The NSA has a "black budget" in thebillions of dollars per year.

CTL claims that CIA agents are involved in many unauthorized projectssuch as secret drug running to finance covert operations involving theoverthrow of governments, etc.

CTL states that the CIA was involved in a research program toinvestigate mind control. This much is part of the public record, infact Congressional hearings were called to investigate the program inthe 70's. However CTL states that the program simply went undergroundand that it is still active. Supposedly one useful aspect of mindcontrol is to train assassins to kill subjects in a sort of hypnotictrance, so that they can't remember the event or recall the command tokill.

A major CTL theme advanced by Richard Hoagland is that NASA knowsabout the existence of aliens and/or alien artifacts on differentplanets, but suppresses the information. Supposedly there are teamsthat airbrush photos or review them for unauthorized detail prior toreleasing them, and secretly stockpiling photographs that revealanomalies. Some CTL claims NASA was involved in faking the entireApollo moon landings.

CTL states that many Nazi scientists were secretly relocated to the USand given new identities after WWII by the CIA or secret militaryagencies as intellectual assets, and went on to experiment in secretweaponry and/or mind control research projects.

CTL suggests that AIDS was a planned disease used for populationcontrol or to wipe out undesireable elements (drug users, homosexuals,blacks). It was supposedly released in tuberculosis drug trials in NewYork. CTL also insists that books revealing the truth about AIDS havebeen suppressed from the mainstream.

CTL states that various cures for cancer have been discovered andinvented but suppressed by the mainstream medical establishment whichmakes large sums of money for the treatment of the disease. Onesignificant story involves a scientist Rife who invented a powerful,unconventional microscope.

CTL states that sophisticated energy devices have been invented toprovide cheap and plentiful energy, but that they have been suppressedby agencies with agendas of maintaining the status quo, such as oilcompanies or the military.

Another claim of CTL is that aliens have seeded the human race inancient times and that the gods referred to in ancient legends and theBible are actually referring to these aliens and their technology. The aliens were involved in geneticexperimentation to create a slave race, i.e. humanity. CTL also claimsthat religions and historical world events have been manipulated byaliens to suit their own agenda.

Aspects Of Human Nature That Lead To Conspiracies
A pattern arises in CTL in which conspiracies arise because ofparticular weaknesses in human nature.Conspirators are motivated to control those below them by their ego,greed, fear, vice, and megalomania. They have the feeling that thewhole world is corrupt and that they might as well live with it, anddeal with it in that fashion. They can be readily manipulated by theirhigher controllers through their mistaken but rigid belief systems.

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by Elen Rolih

Biological Weapons

Aerosolized anthrax may seem like one of mankind's most dangerous scourges, but plague-ridden corpses are a bioterrorist's best friend. Biological weapons have been a problem for society ever since their first recorded use... in the sixth century B.C. Despite the recent media infatuation with bioterrorism and its sibling, biowarfare, we're not exactly talking about a new idea here, either globally or in the U.S. In fact, from George Washington to George Bush, biological weapons have been part of American history. Hell, they're practically a national institution. According to the U.S. government, the earliest recorded uses of bioweapons goes back to the ancient Assyrians and the ancient Greeks, who used medicinal herbs to wreak havoc before the Christian era began. Another early adopter was the Mongol horde, which threw plague-infested corpses over the walls of a Crimean fortress they happened to be beseiging in the 14th century. This was perhaps history's most devastating use of biological warfare, seeing as it may have caused the Great Plague.

In the Western hemisphere, Native Americans were among the earliest mass victims of biowarfare, part of the campaign to clear up the ownership of the "New World" on behalf of invading Spanish, French and British forces. Spanish Conquistador Francisco Pizarro brought Christianity to the heathens of South America, and he generously decided to make sure they got to meet Jesus before he did, by offering them gifts of clothing infested with smallpox pus.

Knowing a winning strategy when they saw it, the British borrowed the tactic for use in North America as well, as part of a strategic initiative to wipe out Indians collaborating with the French. In both these cases, the beloved forefathers of the modern Americas succeeded in creating nearly genocidal epidemics responsible for widespread death on a scale that would not be seen again until Hiroshima and Nagasaki.

After the American revolution, biological warfare went into a "quiet period" as the mass of humanity focused on curing the major diseases before they obliterated civilization. It wasn't until the 20th century that the generals once again decided that guns just didn't kill enough people fast enough.

During World War I, German agents tried to infest livestock destined for its enemies with anthrax and a nasty little disease called "glanders", which (as you may have guessed) has something or other to do with glands.

The fun just kept on coming. During World War II, Japan decided to get in on the act, with a Manchurian facility devoted to the efficient Japanese manufacture of deadly biotoxins. Thousands of prisoners were killed by innovations such as aerosolized anthrax, which is one of the modern world's most hyped bio-threats.

Chernobyl gets all the press, but in a little-discussed 1979 incident, a Soviet biowarfare laboratory had an accidental explosion which resulted in the release of anthrax spores (probably) in the city of Sverdlovsk. The Soviet government blamed contaminated meat for the subsequent outbreak (but Boris Yeltsin subsequently admitted it was a biowarfare experiment gone bad). The numbers were obscured because of Cold War secrecy, but it's believed 200 to 1,000 people died. Funerals were canceled, and the bodies were sterilized and disposed of as biohazards.

With threats like this, it certainly makes perfect sense for the United States to maintain that "defensive program", which continues through this day. The problem with the "defensive" program, of course, is that biological samples suitable for use in the manufacture of bioweapons keep "accidentally" finding their way into the hands of guys who are really offensive.

The most notable beneficiary of America's defensive research was, of course, Saddam Hussein. Back in the 1980s, Iraq's dictator was considered a beloved ally of freedom. As such, Hussein was entitled to receive, from time to time, little gifts, such as strains of aerosolized anthrax, smallpox and bubonic plague, carefully manufactured and refined in U.S. government laboratories.

Not surprisingly, it's believed that some of these samples may have found their way onto the black market and eventually fallen into the hands of Terrorist Organizations such as al Qaeda.

The world is still feeling the effects of the superpowers' romance with biowarfare today. A recent outbreak of Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome, a particularly contagious and lethal form of pneumonia, sparked much speculation and fear about the disease's possible origins, although there is currently no evidence to suggest an artificial cause.

It's an intriguing notion: hiding deep within uncharted rain forests, floating beneath the sea or drifting invisibly through the air, deadly microbes lie in wait - and if they combine correctly in such a way as to enter the human bloodstream, a merciless, devastating new plague upon humanity could be unleashed. In April of 2003, a rapidly mutating virus known as SARS (Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome) terrified top scientists, grew to the status of a red-alert international epidemic, but failed to generate much revenue at the American box office.

The disease was spread by close person-to-person contact. Those who touched objects which had been licked, coughed upon or elsewise contaminated with spattery aerosol droplets were also infected. The most documented transmissions of SARS took place among health-care workers, a group of dedicated medical professionals equally susceptible to colds or the flu.

The symptoms could sneak up on a person, moving beyond the typical nighttime sniffling, sneezing, coughing, aching, wheezing and stuffy head - into fevers of over 100 degrees, vibrating body aches and chills, difficulty breathing, dry vomiting, muscle stiffness resembling paralysis, loss of appetite, rashes, blood coughing, diarrhea and death.

by Salvador Dali 1904-1989

Isn't that what being young is about? Believing secretly that you would be the one person in the history of man who would live forever.

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight
Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat hard telling
To watch them burn me shepherd
But you you're not allowed
You're uninvited
Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
But I dont think you unworthy
I just need a moment to deliberate

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can, and wisdom to know the difference.

Subliminal Messages

Although you might not realize it, subliminal messages are probably being used on you. Used mainly as advertising tools, such messages are designed to be relayed without their targets ever being conscious of them. Because of this, their use is banned in most major countries. Nonetheless, subliminal messages continue to be disseminated throughout the media world, deceiving those who encounter them. Subliminal messages were apparently first unleashed on the American public in the 1950s by James Vicary, an advertising executive. Vicary performed a study at movie theaters in which the words "Drink Coca-Cola" and "Eat Popcorn" were flashed on the screen, yet so quickly that the unwary audience didn't consciously notice them. Vicary claimed that sales on popcorn and Coke accordingly soared at the concession stands, jumping 57.7% and 18.1% respectively. Although no substantial results were demonstrated, this story has been around for over 50 years. Subliminal messaging can be defined as the use of a signal or message designed to pass below the normal limits of perception.

These messages are typically undetectable to the naked eye or ear, cloaked from the conscious mind and yet perceived unconsciously. This cloaking is usually achieved by burying the subliminal images or words inside a clearly visible, distracting form of media. A verbal message might be hidden inside an audio track, or a small image could be concealed inside a larger one. Wondering if you've ever witnessed subliminal messaging?

I'm a man of wealth and taste
I was around when Jesus Christ had His moment of doubt and pain.

Thus, because you are warm, and you are not hot or cold, I will vomit you out of my mouth.

It is impossible to know precisely and statistics are difficult to obtain because trafficking is an underground activity. The International Labour Organization in 2005 estimated at least 2.4 million people have been trafficked.

Violence

What is real to you?

Men never do evil so completely and cheerfully as when they do it from religious conviction.
Blaise Pascal

The Untold Story

Creationism: 20,000 years ago God created the universe. He did Earth in 7 days---first he did the frame; then the water; then the dirt; then the air; then the trees and plants (the landscaping); then the animals, fishies and birdies; and then the guy and the girl, Adam and Eve, He named them.

He gave Adam a pee pee to make him a man. Adam got lonely, for obvious reasons; started to fall into a deep depression.

God took a rib from Adam. He ripped it right out of Adams chest; no anesthesia or nothing. God put it in some water with some Miracle Grow or something and he created Eve. This means that God Himself cloned Eve from Adam’s rib. God also liked to do “stem cell research” in His spare time. And to Eve, He gave a wee wee to make her a woman. He made them to be about 30 years old according to the most recently available photographs of them of which there are numerous reprints in most Christian schools.

The pee pee, in combination with the wee wee worked out good (or well, depending on the proper use of English). Adam could now be a man; and Eve was given the right to be a woman, if she behaved and didn’t get out of hand, or start to have hot flashes and freak out once a month.

God created the menstrual cycle for Eve. He gave her cramps. It was a mess. And sometimes Eve could be a real bitch. Adam could never understand it.

The menstrual cycle was one of God’s master achievements. The only way Eve could get rid of her damn menstrual cycle was to let Adam and his pee pee come in direct contact with her wee wee which resulted in her menstrual cycle shutting down for 9 months. However, the alternative of giving birth was hardly a welcome trade off.

The menstrual cycle was one of God’s crowning glories of mis-design----a true engineering disaster. It is responsible for more lost human productivity, lost wages, lost work, and spontaneous outbursts of rage and violence than any other of God’s mistakes. It does accomplish one very important thing----it keeps men “in check”. It is the one thing that makes a man “back off”-----a woman who can flip out for no reason. God was going to give Man a menstrual cycle also but when He drew up the plans, at the last minute, being that this was the time of Creationism, he decided to give Adam some testicles instead. God can do anything He wants. He’s God. So God just said, “Let there be a menstrual cycle” and it just happened. And then He said, “Let there be testicles” and it just happened. This is Creationism at its most basic. All Christians should be taught this.

Note: The human spine was God’s second biggest design failure. Some say that the real reason that God has not come back to Earth is because He would have a multi-trillion dollar, class action lawsuit slapped against Him for the almost criminally incompetent design of the human spine. Anyone who has taken Electricity 101 knows that you don’t snake a million little electrical wires (with no color codes) through a liquid medium where they come in contact with each other and with sharp objects like bones. I mean, what was God thinking ! Oh well, let’s get back to Adam and Eve.

Anyway, they lived near a big apple tree and a snake came by that was really the Devil but he spoke good English. The snake spoke to Eve and said, "Eat the apple if you want to be happy". The Devil was some kind of local fresh fruit salesman so Eve did not suspect that this was a trick to see if she could be lured into the mortal sin of eating an apple. She had also been told to eat lots of fruits and vegetables all her life (ever since she was Created at the age of 30), and to eat a balanced diet so she just did not know the snake was the Devil in disguise.. She thought it was just some ordinary snake giving her a hard time about not eating apples.

Eve tried to resist but how can you NOT eat an apple when a snake speaks real good English and tells you not to eat the apple. It's like telling a woman to NOT eat the chocolates on St. Valentines Day. Adam just stood around looking suspicious. So Eve went and took a bite out of the nice red apple.

At that point God got really mad because this was all just a "set up" to see if Eve, the one with the wee wee, could resist the commands of the Devil who was disguised as a snake. So God yelled out from up in Heaven, "Eve, you have sinned, you ate the freakin' apple".

Adam said, "Holy Shit, Eve, look what you've done now. Christ, our goose is cooked". God made Adam an accomplice of Eve's and He cast them out of the Garden of Eden which was a pretty nice garden back in those days (which is where the term "garden apartments comes from).

From there it was all down hill for the two of them. All of a sudden they had to start wearing clothes and stuff. Eve had two sons named Cain and Able (they didn't have last names because they were the first people on Earth and God didn't give them a birth certificate or anything; not even a Social Security number).

Eve never had any girls with wee wee's; just the two boys with the pee pee things. Figure that one out?

Cain got in a big fight with Able one day and Cain killed Able.

Oh yeah, by this time Adam had been laid off from his job as "first human being on Earth, CEO"; God revoked his pension and cancelled his health care insurance (and they didn't have COBRA back in those days). He eventually got injured real bad when Eve clobbered him in a domestic dispute involving the two boys who were older now and still hadn't moved out of the house but were allegedly on drugs, using up what little money Adam had saved when he was employed as "first human being on Earth, CEO". Eventually, it is believed Adam and Eve got divorced. No one really knows how we evolved since that time since Evolution doesn’t exist, only Creationism, and God wasn't in the business of creating one person after another, after another, after another. It’s tiring. So God gave us two choices: we could use the wee wee and the pee pee to reproduce if we didn’t mind dealing with the whole menstrual cycle mess; or we could clone each other and keep it nice and clean and simple.

As humans we failed to discover cloning for thousands of years and so stuck with the old fashion routine of actual physical contact between pee pee and wee wee.

About 18,000 years later Jesus Christ was born. Jesus didn't have a father because his mother was a Virgin. The neighborhood decided to call her the Blessed Virgin Mary. No one could hardly believe it, so they started to make statues of Mary with little water plates on them so birds could come down and get a drink of water on the Mary statutes. Most of the Blessed Virgin Mary statutes are in the front yards of Italians living mainly on Long Island, New York today. No one knows why?

Oh yeah, Mary married a much older guy named Saint Joseph. He became a saint because he was old and Mary was pretty good looking and young. And Saint Joseph never had sex with Mary, even though she got pregnant. Saint Joseph was quiet. He never said much. No one knows where he worked. But one night he and Mary took off on a donkey to make a thousand mile trip through the desert. It was considered normal behavior back in those days. There was no "slow speed car chase" to head off Saint Joseph before he reached the Sinai/Egypt border.

Everyone just said, "Oh, there goes the older man with the pregnant teenage girl; off on a nice 1000 mile vacation on a donkey. Isn't that nice" The Blessed Virgin Mary tried to cover it all up because she knew she would be stoned to death if her folks ever found out she was pregnant. Rumors had it that Joe didn't even really do it. It was some teenager next door who was the real father of Jesus, but he took off like a "bat out of Hell" when Mary told him she had missed her period.

Then of course, the whole story got out of hand, which is where we are today.

And that's where the story ends of how God created the world. It's called Creationism.

Look at me now
Got no religion
Look at me now
I'm so vacant
Look at me now
I was a virgin
Look at me now
Grow up to be a whore
And I want it
I believe it
I'm a million different things
And not one you know

To build up together
Great Pyramid of Giza

Many varied estimates have been made regarding the workforce needed to construct the Great Pyramid. Herodotus, the Greek historian in the 5th century BC, estimated that construction may have required 100,000 workers for 20 years. Recent evidence has been found that suggests the workforce was in fact paid, which would require accounting and bureaucratic skills of a high order. Architects believes that it took as many as 20 men to transport a 1.5-ton stone block. A construction management study estimated that the number of blocks used in construction was between 2-2.8 million (an average of 2.4 million), settles on a reduced finished total of 2 million after subtracting the estimated area of the hollow spaces of the chambers and galleries.Without the use of pulleys, wheels, or iron tools...five thousands of years ago. Think about it.From where are all those stones and how could them bring it?

The Lost Books of the Bible

In the Catholic Church the version used is the Douay-Rheims Bible consisting of 73 books. In the Protestant church only the 66 books approved by the Archbishop of Canterbury in 1885, which today is known as the Authorized King James Bible, are used. No other books, neither the Apocrypha, which was included in the original King James Bible, nor the 22 books mentioned or quoted in the King James Bible, are considered inspired. There was no specific list or accounting of all the books that made up the Bible until the commission of the first Bible by the Emperor Constantine in the 4th Century AD. The books that make up the Authorized King James Bible were chosen by men, not divine forces. The language of the King James Bible is obscure and limited. Constantine began what was to become a centuries long effort to eliminate any book in the original Bible that was considered unacceptable to the new doctrine of the church. At that time, it is believed there were up to 600 books, which comprised the work we now know as the Bible. Through a series of decisions made by the early church leadership, all but 80 of those books, known as the King James Translation of 1611, were purged from the work, with a further reduction by the Protestant Reformation bringing the number to 66 in the "Authorized" King James Bible. What we now have in Bible-based religion, whether labeled as "Catholic", or Protesting Catholic, known as “Protestant", is unrecognizable form either the Hebrew religion, now known as the Jewish religion, or the church established at Jerusalem by the Apostles and disciples of Jesus. The practices of this first church are not practiced by any major religion and they are almost unknown, despite being clearly outlined in the existing New Testament. There is much controversy over how many books the Bible should actually contain but considering the depth and scope of those few works remaining in the "accepted" Bible, we see but a fragment of incredible wisdom and history. A study of the Lost Books of the Bible is incomplete without a clear understanding that this is not a matter of simple loss, but a campaign by the Roman Catholic Church to purge books variously classified as heretical, dangerous, and corruptive. To the public they are “lost”; to the Church they are “forbidden”. This books contain anomalies. The term "anomalies" is referring to the unexplained absence of these obvious Bible realities in orthodox religious teachings. Even more anomalous is that fact that not only are these very important points ignored, the violation of many are practiced as church doctrine or condemned as sinful. It is a fact that even though these concepts are solidly based in scripture, the mere expression of some will get you labeled a heretic. Besides the Apocryphal books eliminated from the Bible used by Protestant Church there are, at least, 28 other books mentioned in scripture, which do not appear in the Bible.