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Erilaz

Transcending the Fall from the Garden

About Me


Please send a message for adds... sorry, I got tired of random spam.
Cherokee, left handed, nocturnal.
Hard to read, easy to get along with.
Slightly insane, mostly harmless.
Fair warning: things take as long as they take. I'm not a big fan of immediate gratification. If you're impatient, I'll probably just frustrate you. (:
My subconscious is smarter than I am. The quiet voice in my head is never wrong... the one which is less than a whisper and more than a distant memory. I know far more than I'll ever say, and far less than I can imagine. I'm somewhere between waking and dreaming, past and future, macro and micro, young and old, habit and novelty, masculine and feminine, order and chaos, life and death, passion and indifference, zero and one, thinking and feeling, shit and shinola, here and there, somewhere out on the edges of society, reality, and curiosity... a horizon realm.
"Nine times in the past million years, the ice has ground south from the pole, pushing human populations ahead of it. And those people didn't fuck up... why should we, then?
We are all survivors. We are the inheritors of a million years of striving for the unspeakable."

Terence McKenna
Nov 16, 1946 - Apr 3, 2000
May you find what you've been looking for.

"Lynx is the keeper of the secrets of lost magical systems and occult knowledge. Lynx has the ability to move through time and space, and to go into the Great Silence for unraveling any mystery. Lynx is not the guardian of secrets, but the knower of secrets.
Lynx medicine is a very specific type of clairvoyance. If this medicine is strong in you, you will get mental pictures concerning other people and the exact things they have hidden, either from themselves or from others. You will see their fears, their lies, and their self-deceptions. You never speak of these revelations... you simply know.
With a Lynx totem, people will share their secrets with you. They will take you into their confidence and you will discover things about people (whether you want to or not). You must be very careful not to break confidences. Your words must be chosen carefully and used cautiously."
If you speak the truth, have a foot in the stirrup.
-Turkish proverb

My Interests

science, spirituality, occult, active dreaming, magi, net and world cultures, jedi mind shit, meaningful dialogue, body language, empathy, ethnopharmacology, anomalies, cats, reading, writing, music, movies, tech geeking, obsessive online gaming, cycling, free climbing, dancing, dumpster diving, people watching, experimental sex, awareness, experience, investigation, doubting, questioning, exploration, acceptance, rejection, sharing, understanding.

Show me, or shut the fuck up.

"Finite games are played within boundaries. Infinite games play with boundaries."
James P. Carse, Finite and Infinite Games

I'd like to meet:


Reality deviants: hyperspace hippies, shapeshifters, mad scientists, seers, oracles, misanthropes, misfits, geeks, artists, musicians, writers, aliens, gamers, dreamers, outsiders, prophets, pagans, predators posing as housepets.

Music:

Dead Can Dance, Depeche Mode, Juno Reactor, Fiona Apple, Tori Amos, Portishead, Underworld, Sub6, digitallyimported.com, Eon, VnV Nation, Love and Rockets, Peter Gabriel, Sarah Mclachlan, Delerium, lots of soundracks, goa trance, synth, 80's, classical, just about anything with orchestral and/or ethereal qualities. The language of music moves me more than lyrics.

Almost every popular band out there consists of: a dude on drums, a dude on bass, one or more dudes on guitars, maybe a dude ..board, and one or all of them yelling into microphones. They perform endless variations of the same shit with the same instruments. Ok, I'll give them respect for having musical talent, and because being in any band is a tough gig. But don't expect me to like them.

Movies:

A Beautiful Mind, Akira, Aliens, American Beauty, American History X, American Psycho, An American Werewolf in London, Apocalypse Now, Baraka, Battle Royale, Blade Runner, Boiler Room, The Bourne-Identity, Brazil, The Butterfly Effect, Catch Me If You Can, The City Of Lost Children, Close Encounters of the Thrid Kind, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Cypher, Dark City, The Dark Crystal, Dead Can Dance - Toward the Within, Dead Poet's Society, Dead Man, Death to Smoochy, The Devil's Advocate, Donnie Darko, Dr. Strangelove, Drunken Master, Equilibrium, Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, The Fifth Element, Fight Club, Finding Neverland, Finding Nemo, Full Metal Jacket, Garden State, Gattaca, Ghost Dog, Ghost In the Shell, The Gods Must Be Crazy, Good Will Hunting, Grosse Pointe Blank, Hero, I Robot, Ichi The Killer, Identity, Intacto, Kill Bill, Labyrinth, The Last Temptation of Christ, Layer Cake, Lock Stock And Two Smoking Barrels, Magnolia, Memento, Musa the Warrior, The Name Of The Rose, Neo-Tokyo, The Ninth Gate, Office Space, One Hour Photo, The Order, Pi, The Princess Blade, Requiem For A Dream, The Secret of NIMH, Seven, Shakes the Clown, The Sixth Sense, Slacker, SLC Punk, Smoke Signals, Strange Days, The Thing (John Carpenter), Training Day, Trainspotting, Twelve Monkeys, Unbreakable, Underworld, Vanilla Sky, The Village, Waking Life, Watership Down, Wolfen, What The Bleep Do We Know, Zatoichi, Zero Effect...
Anything Kurosawa, Johnny Depp, Kubrick, Monty Python, old skool Jackie Chan. Trilogies (these i'll watch all night in order): LOTR, Matrix, Potter, Star Wars. (I keep hearing there were more SW movies made, but I think I blocked them out)

Television:

I'm actually keeping up with a number of shows, but I still can't stand to watch them on tv because the commercials are atrocious and cause an alarming drop in IQ. So instead I download them. Note: subliminal advertising has been banned in the UK but is still perfectly legal in the US.Recent addictions: House, West Wing, BG2K, Heroes, BBC Horizon... several others I need to catch up on like Six Feet Under, Sorpranos, Bullshit... and a few more I'll still watch again even though they've been cancelled or concluded: Carnivale, Rome, Bab5.

Books:

I read a lot, but mostly online. I don't have that many books around but the ones I do have are precious to me. Most of them have to do with theoretical and fringe science, sci-fi and fantasy, various occult subjects, world religions, tons of old gaming manuals, outdated computer crap, and a few classics. I didn't acquire a taste for reading for pleasure until after college, and by then I had an entire world of material available on the Net. But I admit that lounging around with a good old book in hand and warm/cold coffee for hours (sometimes days) is much better than doing the same in front of a computer.

Some fav authors: Neal Stephenson, Uncle Terence, K. Eric Drexler, Terry Pratchett, Nigel Pennick, and dozens more who wrote one or two phenomenal books, yet hardly anyone has ever heard of them.Recently I've been eyeing Chuck Palahniuk's stuff (Fight club, Survivor, Diary, Choke...)

Heroes:

Sequoiah. Terence McKenna. Pythagoras. Jacques Cousteau. My grandmother. That guy who pied Bill Gates.

My Blog

Sub(conscious)marines

The simplest reason "No man is an island" is: beneath the surface of the water, all land is connected.Since I was a little kid, I've been fascinated with deep sea exploration. Jacques Cousteau was my ...
Posted by Erilaz on Fri, 29 Jun 2007 06:30:00 PST

Derren Brown

If you thought David Blaine and various other street magicians/mentalists were creepy, think again. Derren Brown is about to mind fuck America.I've been following his work in the UK for years. This gu...
Posted by Erilaz on Fri, 29 Jun 2007 12:08:00 PST

The Truth About Truth

The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.Mal PancoastIf you're going to tell people the truth, be funny... or they'll kill you. Billy WilderThe great enemy of the truth is very ofte...
Posted by Erilaz on Tue, 02 May 2006 12:12:00 PST

More Conversations with God

* Incoming connection request on subchannel theta * Connectedhello?> Hi!omg who are you? what are you?> If I told you in English, you still wouldn't understand. huh? how can i understand if you don't ...
Posted by Erilaz on Tue, 25 Apr 2006 09:07:00 PST

Conversations with God

it's out there, in the vastness. in here, deep inside everything. waiting. without judgement, anger, admiration, or even patience... more like a machine, indifferent, but in the way every living thing...
Posted by Erilaz on Fri, 21 Apr 2006 12:14:00 PST

Loons

About a dozen loons showed up on the river today. It's dark now, and I can hear them out there, making those haunting calls you always hear in movies when they want to add creepy bird noises (especial...
Posted by Erilaz on Tue, 11 Apr 2006 08:00:00 PST

In my mind

I see you sitting in a park, a bar, a coffee shop, or in front of your computer. I'm sitting there too, somewhere in the corner of each other's field of vision. We both get distracted looking at other...
Posted by Erilaz on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Dad.

Every time I see my father, it does something fucked up to my head. It's not traumatic, or depressing, or enlightening, or motivating. The closest I can come to describing it is a fuzzy sort of wtf, c...
Posted by Erilaz on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Lies!

Conspiracy is the force which has always moved the currents of political, economic, military, and social orders. Deals under the table, collusion, blackmail, propaganda, subterfuge, espionage, treache...
Posted by Erilaz on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Just because you're paranoid...

...don't mean they're not after you. haha, doesn't this describe almost anyone who breaks from the norm? namely, some of the greatest artists, villains, world leaders, zealots, writers, and thinkers...
Posted by Erilaz on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST