Insanity: a perfect rational adjustment to an insane world
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If I found a town I'd like to spend the rest of life in,
maybe, I would.
If I met a friend I'd like to tell all of my secrets to,
maybe I would...
...If I find the time to answer questions in my mind I know,
I know I will. Yes, I know I will.
I’m originally from New York. Why I came to Texas last year… the reasons are still unclear to me. I think I just needed a random change. It was very spur of the moment. But I'm here now. Besides, it’s probably better not to spend your whole life entirely in one place. I suspect this won’t be the last state I’ll live in either.
I dropped out of Highschool because I was sick of the drama and immaturity of people. It just wasn't for me. I instead studied on my own in filmmaking. I've only wet my feet as far as filmmaking goes. I have yet to complete my first feature. I consider myself a filmmaker nonetheless. Filmmaking is something you have inside you fro the start. You know it long before it blossoms. It's a type of personality moreso than just a profession. Anyway, I’ve begun to get decently acquainted with the Houston scene. I also like to dip my feet into a bit of acting.
“If you want to make a movie, make it. Don't wait for a grant, don't wait for the perfect circumstances, just make it.†- Quentin Tarantino
I can be a morbid guy. I have a passion for Horror movies and macabre of all kinds. I used to drive a 1971 Cadillac Hearse. Had to give it up when I moved to Texas.
I’m the type of guy that needs to really connect with someone to be in a relationship. The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed. There are traits I look for in a girl, but I don’t really have a type. With me what matters most is chemistry. And I think that’s what there’s been a lack of with the last few relationships I’ve had. Which is why I think I've been single a while for the first time in very long. I'm taking my time at the present. At this point I'm just not at all interested in anything meaningless.
It doesn’t take me very long to care about someone. I can consider someone a friend almost immediately at times. Though, I can count my closest friends on my hands. I think it's best that way though.
I’ve always been in a constant state of feeling as though I’m at some kind of crossroads in my life.
I generally don’t sleep. I like being awake while the world isn’t. This is when I prefer to have time to myself. Otherwise I usually don't like being alone much at all. I write at night. I like to walk the empty streets. And I like to drive aimlessly. Late at night I do like to be alone, even lonely at times.
I have trouble expressing myself. It’s difficult for me to say what I actually mean. I can write down my thoughts more sophisticatedly than I can speak them.
I enjoy cooking. And I pretty much despise fast food. However, I do admittedly eat it when it’s convenient. But I much prefer preparing meals at home. Cooking is a skill I think too many people my age are lacking.
People say I remind them of a merekat. I'm not entirely sure why.
I wear my sunglasses at night.
I have a great affinity for lesbianism. And it's not for typical "guy" reasons. Of the two genders I believe women have the most capacity to love. So when two women are in love with each other it’s symbolic to me of what true love is supposed to resemble.
I hate popular culture. That whole MTV, Adult-Swim, Hot Topic kind of pop culture. And all this "alternative trends" shit... it's cliched itself into an oxymoron. There’s no originality left anymore.
I quote a lot when I speak and write, with no citations. Most people don’t notice it, but I applaud those who can pick them out because I tend to pull from obscure sources.
I can be very particular about movie watching. I sometimes get aggravated when people won’t shut up and just watch the movie. I like to watch movie anywhere else the same as you would in the theater, intently with full attention and appreciation.
I enjoy doing my girlfriends’ hair and makeup. I’ve restyled most of my exes’ hair at least once.
I always prided myself on being an outsider... but now... I feel the need to connect with someone.
I’m phobic of broken glass.
I am a cinephile.
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