Ruthie

*~Void~*

She'e knocking on the doors of her mind, so afraid of what she'll find. Does it end or is there more? Always another suprise in store.  Her constant thinking causes pain, she starts to wonder if ...
Posted by Ruthie on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 09:07:00 PST

*~Little Girl~*

Where did you sleep last night little girl?  Are you too scared to say? Did you stay in a hotel?Did you sleep on the beach until the break of day? What did you do last night, little girl? Are yo...
Posted by Ruthie on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 09:05:00 PST

*~Temporary Release~*

Do you want to hear the whirr in my mind, it's deep seated hum? Are you sure you WANT to know where I'm coming from? I've been trying to get out for years, to find the right track. Once you've been th...
Posted by Ruthie on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 09:04:00 PST

*~Illusions~*

Once again, I feel overwhelmed and incapable. Completely incoherent of the words in my own skull. Once again I'll do what's comfortable of the illusions of my mind. I'll let go of any morals or religi...
Posted by Ruthie on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 09:02:00 PST

*~Identity~*

*~My shadow of an identity fades behind light. My inner vision is blurred and I am without clear sight. My mind is weak and clouded with a smoke so thick. My relentless indecision is so strong it make...
Posted by Ruthie on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 08:59:00 PST

*~Erotic Nightmare~*

In the beginning, you struck me with such honesty, and words of a different kind. "Now that you've seen me at my best, are you ready for my worst? I've tried to be pure of thought, but somehow I've be...
Posted by Ruthie on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 08:57:00 PST

*~Letting Go~*

Your acceptance meant so much to me from the very beginning, No one else has ever had the kind of love I felt like winning. I let you see what you wanted, I drew you in with amplified perfection....
Posted by Ruthie on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 08:58:00 PST

*~Overwhelming Thoughts~*

The simplest task, now an overwhelming chore. Pacing the room, unaware of what I'm waiting for. Unable to focus on the project at hand. Trying to force an organized thought, feels much like fighting q...
Posted by Ruthie on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 08:55:00 PST

*~Ode to my Pen~*

To all the pens I've loved and lost, and to all the caps I could never find.   Nothing to say, my pen hovering above paper, waiting for some miraculous idea to flow through it. Waiting, wanting o...
Posted by Ruthie on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 08:54:00 PST

*~Take My hand~*

  .. Crawling, frightened, amongst the ambitious, and the clear of head. Suffering, silently, inside myself, the me who's nearly dead.   My emotions and conscious, withering painfully aw...
Posted by Ruthie on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 08:53:00 PST