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About Me

My name is Stephanie or: Steph/Stephie/Slutface/HaoShuFen/or Taitai.
I'm not perfect (just really, really close). I'm done changing for people who don't like who I am. I get sarcastic. I laugh at dumb jokes and tell even dumber ones. I spill shit, trip and tend to embarass myself. I blush a lot...and apparently it gives me away. ALL THE TIME. I'm freakishly easygoing - I don't make decisions unless I have to. I push people away when I need them the most. I like to laugh, it gets me through it all. I like driving at night with my music so loud I can't hear myself think. I like to fight and I like to win. I like being hit on. And I like to tell my girls who thinks they're hot. I've found out everyone wants to hear it. I like being better than other people and surround myself with the same. Just realize that you'll never find another girl like me.
Nobody's perfect. I've been through a lot of shit. I've been hurt, had my heart broken and been cheated on more times than I care to count. And I've grown stronger because of it. I think you're weak if you say you can't deal - because, my girl and I, we did.
Truthfully, I have the biggest heart ever. And I'm disgustingly sensitive. I take relationships of all types pretty seriously. I give my girls, and my boys, all I've got. I've got your back so you sure as hell better have mine. I don't like disapointing people, especially my superiors. So I don't. Um, immaturity annoys me. Incompetence REALLY annoys me. And if you're condescending, and direct it towards me, its on. Oh, and I'm scared of dying alone.
I want to be married wearing a dress by San Patrick before Im 25. But, we'll see how that goes.
I only need the people I love[and will fight for them whenever necessary]. I have weird ways of expressing it...in the form of tattoos and roadtrips. Lookin' forward to Vegas, ladies! I met some of the best friends of my life out here. I miss Charissa and Meghan. They are but extensions of myself.

I even hear the mountains the way they laugh
up and down their blue sides
and down in the water the fish cry
and the water is their tears.
I listen to the water on nights I drink away
and the sadness becomes so great
I hear it in my clock
it becomes knobs upon my dresser it becomes paper on the floor
it becomes a shoehorn a laundry ticket
it becomes cigarette smoke climbing a chapel of dark vines. . .
it matters little
very little love is not so bad or very little life
what counts is waiting on walls
I was born for this
I was born to hustle roses down the avenues of the dead.
^Clickable^
My brother is #1 in MyHeart's Top8,
even though he doesn't check his MySpace. Ever.

My Interests

Human beings are designed for many things. Loneliness isn't one of them.

I'd like to meet:

you?

Music:

Contempt loves the silence, it thrives in the dark with fine winding tendrils that strangle the heart.

Movies:

All my life I've tried to be the good guy, the guy in the white fucking hat. And for what? For nothing. I'm not becoming like them; I am them.

Television:

Yes, each new day in suburbia brings with it a new set of lies. The worst are the ones we tell ourselves right before we fall asleep. We whisper them in the dark, telling ourselves we're happy, or that he's happy. That we can change, or that he will change his mind. We persuade ourselves that we can live with our sins, or that we can live without him. Yes, each night before we fall asleep we lie to ourselves in a desperate, desperate hope that come morning - it will all be true.

Books:

The unreal is more powerful than the real. Because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because it's only intangibles, ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die.

Heroes:

We can never fully repay the debt of our proud nation to those who have laid down their lives for our country. The best we can do is honor their memory and ensure that their sacrifice is not in vain. ..

My Blog

So...

I recently had a grip of people asking where "my sweetest downfall" is from. So watch. And listen.Check out this video: Regina Spektor - Samson ...
Posted by my sweetest downfall on Fri, 24 Aug 2007 02:57:00 PST

Let’s take a pause in our lives...

...to listen to me bitch.-A quick recap of my night.-+Get a sponser from my unit that knows a total of 3 things about my unit. THREE. And 2 of them are useless.+Eat at the DFAC. Leftover from lunch 5 ...
Posted by my sweetest downfall on Wed, 22 Aug 2007 01:45:00 PST

It is finally over

It's wierd to say that it's finally over. As Jorge pointed out, a lot of the people I went to basic with, like him, have been done with AIT for over a year, have been deployed or currently ...
Posted by my sweetest downfall on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 03:44:00 PST

Two Hot Chicks

This weekend, to put it mildly, was a fucking blast. We'll start out with the basic background. Carrie and I were supposed to go to San Antonio, until we got screwed by the rental car company [H...
Posted by my sweetest downfall on Sun, 15 Jul 2007 12:51:00 PST

Left and Leaving

More than a year has passed and we find ourselves on the verge of moving to a place where nothing will be the same. In a few days, we will reluctantly hug and, fighting tears, say goodbye to the peopl...
Posted by my sweetest downfall on Mon, 26 Feb 2007 07:01:00 PST

Kenya. Giraffe.

Kenya (better quality)andGiraffe in my LoftYes, I laughed for days. And so should you. P.s. SOOO much better than badgers....
Posted by my sweetest downfall on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 10:40:00 PST

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Its like a snapshot of highschool in here, so much is the same. I guess, Im just glad Im not the same. Ive passed the 20 yr mark, and am have too much left. Im tired of picking people that need to be ...
Posted by my sweetest downfall on Sat, 23 Dec 2006 07:59:00 PST

Shenme Shenme-ness

The Pre-Blog, as if Id post one frequently. Let's see how it differs from the Post-Blog. Nov. 1st - Oh. #7 on my Top8. He got picked up as a Corporal today. Congratulate him. Message him, whatever. Do...
Posted by my sweetest downfall on Thu, 19 Oct 2006 08:33:00 PST

I hope Dell dies...

They give me a faulty computer. Now expect me to pay 100 dollars to fix their mistakes. WHEN I HAVE A 2 YEAR WARRANTY. Fuck you, because that seems logical. Grrr.... Im so mad. I spent way too long ye...
Posted by my sweetest downfall on Wed, 11 Oct 2006 07:53:00 PST

Fresno

This is only to say, in those few moments *cough* I was asleep in the front yard, that one of you bastards stole my shoes. I had to drive home barefoot. And I hate you. However, you did lea...
Posted by my sweetest downfall on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 12:17:00 PST