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Cloudkopeli

Detached bemused observer of human folly

About Me


About me let's see well I am incredibly good looking for a 40 year old balding short round bellied know it all type cerebral loner type man. Just kidding. I am the current Chair of a nine State weather modification council and we are the western states that suppress hail or make more rain or snow flakes to mitigate drought, hail losses and the like. Its an exciting time. We have one bill in Congress and another companion bill we are working on to create a national research program. We have been looking for a home in a federal agency, been wound around the pole over hurricanes and cloud seeding over the Ho Chi Min trail, and countless other black helicopter type things. But I think we have helped this and its been fun to help write language in a Congressional bill. This time the third time is a charm I think we are going to punch on through and get authorized but not funded and works towards getting an appropriation in future years. County planning is in terms of months, state planning is in years, and congressional planning is in decades. Also I have helped execute agreements where AZ, NM, CA, and NV will help fund operatoins and research for cloud seeding in Colorado because the other states live on our snowpacks and streamflow even more than we do. This is just what I needed more bosses, more coordination, more deliverables when will I learn. I just figure if we all work together we can completely bungle it up or something like that. Now for the good stuff. Its all about Coyle. He has salvaged my life where I spent a decade spinning my wheels trying to be a good water planner. Let me share some details..... today coyle and I went to the the priate boat baby pool in lakewood with slides and water shooting everywhere and most of it is 1-3 feet deep. tons of kids and this little four year old girl came up to us in the pool and hugged him and said I love your baby he is so cute. We were on our own while donna ate lunch with her dad. that means i saw him five hours each on both weekend days this week and it was wonderful to have that many hours to be alone with him. We are like peas and carrots coyle and me (forest gump reference). He scrunches up his nose a bunch and snorts air out of his nose like some angry bunny rabbit but its just for fun or added emphasis. He seems to be able to take anything over six inches tall and use it to pull himself up and stand up on it. He is over smushed peas and likes mushed fruits and sweet potatoes. I snuck him some chocolate pudding over at my apartment on saturday turkish delight our secret (Narnia reference). My godmother's gift certificate got him tons of earthy designer baby foods in jars, lotions, bug sprays, and soaps from Vitamin Cottage and I am sure she will make sure he has tons of books to expand his horizons and open up his mind. (Little hippy) He is smart enough to crawl up to any light socket and pick out the plastic plug and hand it to you. So much for child safety Yikes! Sometimes he flips through the baby books all by himself even though I read to him all the time. its a trip he flips through every page and studies the pictures and words intently. Even though he does this from back to forward because he favors his right hand I am proud. My recent nickname for him is "Ling Ling" because that is what it sounds like he is saying when he is hungry and fussy and wants to nurse from donna. He is already growing out of that and changes so much each week. He has a small brown teddy bear that donna hands him when she is nursing him so he won't pull on her hair. If you hand it to him he giggles and smothers it and rolls around on the ground with it like they are in some super junior fly weight wrestling match. I think he associates it with soothing and the glory days. He has taken to me and I can tell. He smiles big when he sees me and knows we are going to have fun. He is starting to get a bit shy when he sees new people or new stuff when he is tired. He just falls onto your chest like dear god what is that I can't deal with it I am so tired. And I am always calm and loving with him. being with him is soothing for me and I can make it through any week. I waited so long but I am ready for this long haul and he has given my life real meaning. I wonder if that would have been different at 40 than 30 or 20. An example. He pushed in the base cones on my speakers and ten years ago I would have been furious because they don't sound so great inside out. But the last two weekends I said to him "they sure do look like buttons don't they champ?" thought I would share its the little things. Other stuff about me: We recently won the ice hockey summer championship and I was so pumped. I got stuck on defense when a guy went down and katey bar the door for three games. It was fun to rough up people and super man dive everywhere to try and break up plays. With three minutes to go in the final game I blocked a shot and it flipped up fifteen feet in the air and over the goalies shoulder into the back of the net. I skated to the bench and told the guys sorry I just lost the game. The captain said its alright we have been killing these guys all game we got a goal left in us. With two minutes to go we got a face off in their zone and used our timeout and the captain put me on the ice for the final melee. We kept the puck in their zone for 1.5 minutes and got a goal with thirty seconds left. I helped out by scooping the puck off the boards and centered it to a guy that shot it and another guy banged in the rebound off of the goalie. I skated to the bench and hopped over and sat down and said thanks for saving my ass guys. They yelled at me and then I noticed no one replaced me and had to hop the boards and get back in there and help break up the final assault by their team. Overtime, whew!!!! In overtime I got a puck off the boards but rather than zing it around the boards I turned up ice and made a little shoulder fake to the three guys coming straight at me. They froze and I threaded a pass between them to one of our forwards that ws streaking and he banked it off the wall to himself and went around their stud defensemen and got a break away and scored. In the stretch of five minutes I screwed it up, helped tie it, almost screwed it up again, and helped win it. It was super manic moments but we were drinking champagne in the locker room. Summer champs Big Bear Arena D-2 Division, schweeet!!!! Let's see as far as love I have loved I will love again my life is shall we say its comlicated. I have a demanding common law wife and new baby boy that need me although donna and i aren't romantic anymore, I have way too much work to do, and I am reeling from the financial responsibilties I have now a days. Way too many bills way to liittle time and energy. to top it off I help the grandparents every week. Women I do love are: DONNA, ELKE, TESS, GENNA, PAULA, STAR, PAULA, LAURA, HEATHER, VALERIE, BRANDY, PAM, MOLLY, THUY, TAMMIE, MICHELLE, ETC. for a myriad of different reasons but this porrage is either too cold, too young, too married, too distant or too wrong and I have never been able to say this porrage is just right. I forsee another lonely decade in the bumping uglies and companionship department but I also see that the time will be filled with being a great dad and there for coyle filled with fantastic memories on a daily basis based around his life. He is brilliant and beautiful and happy and I am so grateful. I am forever in debt to donna literally. LOL Whatever collecting nice shit is for shallow fags and showy suburbanites and the rest of us just need flip flops and barbequed chicken and coctails on the deck. Did you ever play this game? If you could go back in time knowing what you know now would you do it? The obvious answer to that question is "god I hope I wouldn't fuck everything up again". But we would and its an out and back so I say no I wouldn't go back I like it here its half way done and the view is nice up here. Can I jump on cliffs on my snowboard anymore. NO Do I get to have sex wth 25 year olds anymore. NO Do I have energy to party all night and get up and hike the next day. NO However..... Do I know what I want to be when I grow up. YES Have I given up asking questions that have no answer. YES Is there much less daily struggle. YES Do I know where all my appliances warantees are. YES. Come on give me a break people at least they are just in a kitchen drawer and not in some plastic zip log back in the archives like a 50 year old would do. If you read this rant then you can see I grapple with life and meaning in a deep level that is sort on par with the struggle between Neo and that orally abusive fucker Agent Smith. He said, "Why? Why do you do it? Why do you struggle? do you believe you are fighting for something? Is for freedom is it for peace or for love? Can you even tell me what it is? Do you even know? Illusions Mr. Anderson vagaries of perception temporary constructs of a feeble intellect trying desperately to justify an existence that is witout meaning or purpose. and all of it as artificial as the matrix itself. although only a human mind could invent something as inspid as love....why mr. anderson why do you persist..... because i choose to". So I guess that this is a merry-go-round of random incongrueties that are the summation of choices or lack of choices that if you look hard enough you can see the path behind you and the path that lay in front of you. Anyone that doesn't see all the philosophy and life statements in the Matrix has never really stopped and thought to themselves why on earth do I lust after an IPOD that fucking thing didn't even exist three years ago and I was fine then but now I am convinced I can't live without it or I am a loser because I don't have one. Have fun don't get too programmed by the Matrix and every once in a while just check out, freak out and go do something else for a weekend. is my only advice. Oh yeah and be careful with eachother and our planet this world is borrowed from our children and they will want it back without all the drama, disease, and pollutants....................... Well I used to stand for something now I forgot what that could be. Love Cloudkopeli.

My Interests

I like: big huts and I cannot lie, especially at the beach or pool to keep my pina colada chilly and fresh, children, hockey, science, music, coconut curry that is Thai hot, clunky boots, Rio Margaritas, art, photography, snow boarding, vinyl, tall peppermint mochas, computers, air conditioning, sugary cigarettes, European cars, travel, hiking, eel rolls, Sony Play Station, eclectic people, family, rum, KB, and all of you for at least one reason and at least one of you for all the reasons.

I'd like to meet:

You can explore the universe looking for somebody who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and you will not find that person anywhere. ~Buddhist saying~"A human being is a part of a whole, called by us _universe_, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest... a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty." Albert Einstein

Music:


Nine Inch Nails, Bauhaus, De/Vision, Front Line Assembly, Assemblage 23, Collide, Apoptygma Bezerk, VNV Nation, Haujobb, Covenant, Synaethesia, Intermix, Delerium, Noise Unit, Conjure One, Depeche Mode, Icon of Coil, The Who, Jethro Tull, Dead Can Dance, Nine Inch Nails, The Cure, Clan of Xymox, Sophya, Audio Slave, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Basehead, Cabaret Voltaire, Cristopher Lawrence, Cocteau Twins, David Bowie, Depeche Mode, Faithless, Fleshfield, Funker Vogt, Gus Gus, Imperative Reaction, junior Reed, Juno Reactor, KMFDM, Lamb, Lee Scratch Perry, Ministry, Moby, Morcheeba, Nature Destroyed, Ravenous, Razed in Black, Seabound, She Wants Revenge, Skinny Puppy, The Birthday Massacre, Thievery Corporation, Velvet Acid Christ, and others.....

Movies:

Ah yes divorce... from the Latin word meaning to rip out a mans genitals through his wallet. Robin Williams. I always keep a stimulant handy in case I see a snake which I also keep handy. WC Fields Cocaine is Gods way of saying youre making too much money. Robin Williams. I hate water fish fuck in it. W.C. Fields'

Television:


Ok I know I don..'t need three cars, no one does. I will sell black beauty (1987 BMW 535i) reluctantly and then the 1998 ford explorer (gladly) after the winter. 1999 Volvo S70 T5 is a five cylinder turbo sporty dad mobile for sure. I had to do it and my dad helped me. I worked so hard for the last 15 years getting my act together I needed to reward myself. I have been getting some PTA boxy mom mobile shit from people lately and although its true Volvo makes super safe cars with more airbags and safety features than we know what to do with let us just get one thing straight this grocery getter is a "sleeper". Its known as one of the fastest Volvo's from that era. Yes it is true it is classified as a compact executive car "ewww" I know however, let's check the stats. 240 horsepower, 1/4 mile in 14.9 seconds at 96.7 mph, 0-60 mph in 6.4 seconds with a top speed of 150 mph. OUT OF MY WAY BITCHES! Let's see what fantasycars.com had to say. "Remaining as the sole survivor of the traditional boxy-Volvo lineup, the S70, more specifically the go-fast T5 version, is also the quickest car in the Swedish car maker's stable. The S part of the S70 T5's nomenclature stands for sedan, 70 is Volvo's current mid-size front-wheel-drive platform while T5 represents the turbocharged five-cylinder engine under the hood. The 2.3-litre, four-valve-per-cylinder, DOHC, turbocharged and inter-cooled power-plant develops nearly 240 horsepower at 5100 rpm. While it gives up a little in smoothness and refinement to 6 and 8 cylinder units, the I5 engine is still a quiet cruiser and only becomes rowdy when applying a lot of throttle near the limit of adhesion in turns. If its traditional looks imply sluggish performance, just take a look at its numbers. The S70 triumphs over both of its main competitors, the Audi A6 and Saab 95, in the 0-60mph (Audi 8.7, Saab 7.2), 1/4 mile (Audi 16.6, Saab 15.4), 60-0mph braking (Audi 131, Saab 124) and 600ft slalom departments (Audi 63.8, Saab 66.0), at a price only a few hundred dollars higher. While the S70 is still no road-going rocket and trails similar competitors such as the BMW M3 in all performance categories, its "Who, me, officer?" styling makes for a sedan that is still a lot quicker than most people will think, it provides the standard Volvo safety features and real room for five passengers and the price is a downright bargain. This should persuade you to show some respect for the next Volvo driver you see. - by Traian Popescu" TOLD YOU BITCHES!
They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself ~Andy Warhol~ Sorry not much time for TV but I do like South Park and Six Feet Under

Heroes:

.. The Silver Surfer, who symbolizes the highest aspiratons of the spirit, also represents Marvel..'s most sincere effort to elevate the super hero genre. This noble, contemplative, unselfish character is an anomaly in the slam-bang world of comic books, and as such he has proven to be something of an acquired taste, a character who appeals primarily to older and comparatively sophisticated readers. Tom Auer - Owner Editor of the Bloomsbury Review, a book review magazine here in Denver. He was my godfather and truly inspired. He died of cancer at age 50 in 2003. He had a dream to review all non mainstream books to get the word out, he lived this dream for 25 years. He followed his dreams not money. He died penniless with 1,000s of first edition signed books by the author that are worth 1,000s of dollars, ironic isn..'t it? He was and still is revered and respected by some of the greatest writers and thinkers of our time. I believe he succeeded, made a difference, and wealth comes in many forms. He is loved and missed. By the way his sister, my aunt, Marilyn Auer continues on with this dream and get the Bloomsbury Review issues get out on time every time. Apparently one strong brilliant woman is all it takes. She is also loved and revered. She is my godmother and I am very fortunate to have the family that I do they are all wonderful and my heroes.The only large canvas painting I was ever inspired to tackle. It was a girlfriend in the early 90s that shall remain nameless and a Persian cat named Dakota we had. She was a hand full and went to Europe for half a summer and the peace I was afforded was inspirational. Beauty is all around you just need training to see it. The humpty a 63 ford galaxy I was the second owner sold it for a grand and wish I had that old moth eaten cruiser back keep the old jalopy if you have one. My 1987 BMW 535i best three grand ever. when I got out of highschool I said I would buy this car and thankfully after 20 years its worth less than a walmart plasma tv.Donna, my very own pretty hate machine. She's pretty rough and tumble protecting a gushy inner center that I hope to get to someday. Its enough to make you put down the kickstand fo sho! But I won't wait forever I haven't got the time to burn anymore.

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don't normally blog about work but we must celebrate the milestones and I do this one on my 39th birthday. Its official next year I will stop celebrating this day. Here's how the story goes  AZ,N...
Posted by Cloudkopeli on Sat, 15 Jul 2006 08:50:00 PST