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I'm not "down to earth."
I'm not "easy going."
Music isn't "my life."
I'm not "just looking to have fun."
I will not ever "Git-R-Done."
I'm not "(Fill in your own worthless, cliche profile phrase there)."
I can easily enough describe what I'm not about, but what should I write here? What tells "about me"? I don't really know. A picture is worth a thousand words, so the phrase goes. Unfortunately, I don't really have a picture that would accurately describe me either. The more I think about it, though, the picture where the baby gets mauled by a flying cat does a pretty good job, really.
I'm basically a geek, and possibly the skinniest and whitest person alive. Not a racist white, just white because I'm really pale. I'm an American. Not in the pro-Bush, gun-toting, Mustang-driving sense, but in the sense that any part of my extended family has been in this country long enough for me to have lost any tie to whatever brand of european I actually am. I feel alot older than I actually am. Not that I think I have some ridiculous level of maturity, I just feel old.
I dislike my job, but usually only when I'm there. Once I do my 8 hours, I tend not to think about it aside from in a humorous light. My daily battles of wits with the unarmed make it somewhat tolerable. Make no mistake about it, however, I still hate employment with a passion, but considering my job enables the rest of my life, I'm willing to let it slide. If I am required to be pissed off 40 hours per week in order to make the remaining 128 enjoyable, so be it. Its a lot better than living in a van down by the river.
Obviously, I don't really take too many things seriously. It is not because I'm grossly insensitive or incapable of handling difficult situations, but quite the opposite. While everything in life does not happen for some greater reason, it invariably does have a valid explanation. I'm usually able to see that line of reasoning, and as such, determine whether or not a situation is really worth worrying about. So many things happen in life that are out of our control, and subsequently cause us stress. I simply wish to avoid wasting my time with those sorts of things. There's no need to sit around sulking in the misery of events I can't change, so I don't, and therefore tend to be a lot happier than most people. Things which could potentially make me angry, I usually find humorous. Hypocrisy is worth a laugh and contradictions are usually downright hilarious.
Despite that level of happiness, I'm pretty much the most anti-social person you could ever come across. I don't like people. At all. Over the years, I have simply come to learn that most people aren't worth more than about 10 seconds of my time. Of course, that's not the most encouraging thing I could say, but its the truth. The powers that be state that people my age must spend a majority of their time hanging out in bars, clubs, and/or parties. I despise smoking, I don't really see the point of drinking, and due to my aforementioned whiteness, I can't dance. Given those pieces of information, the typical social structures aren't quite my cup of tea. Social situations don't entirely disgust me. I enjoy meeting new people, I suppose. However, It does get incredibly tiresome, when these "new" people have nothing remotely interesting about them, no point in life, no ambition, and simply mimic every other member of their clique, only packaged slightly differently. Its been said many times before, but mostly because its true. Too many people I meet in life are simply forgettable.
Despite all that, I'm usually nice to people, usually to a fault. Its just not worth being mean to people who have no bearing on my life. Thankfully, not everyone falls into that category, and I do run across some valuable persons. With those people that I deem worthwhile, I usually take a while to get to know them, and even longer for them to get to know me. Once I open up to those people, however, they usually find it is fairly hard to get rid of me.
Contrary to what the previous paragraphs may portray about me, I'm not really that pessimistic or angry. Ok maybe a little angry, but its all in good fun, I swear.
AIM = yedmunds
Talk to me, I'll talk back. Unless I hate you. Then I wont talk so much.
