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Arsenika

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Well then... “About Me” shall I write:I AM the one who regrets the waste of her innocence days in the worthless pursuit of acceptance from the others I now despice, coming back to my senses thanks to a painful awakening that came almost too late...I AM the one who regrets having spilled precious life on the dirty floor begging for the love of others, when all I needed was my own love to have everything...I AM the one who regrets to ever have given the impression of being good and nice and unselfish and caring about what I did not care at all...I AM the one who loves but not necessarily loves You...I AM the one who is there and then is not there, not depending on anything you know or do...I AM the one who is really interested while I..m interested. I never said forever, did I?...I AM the one who gets so easily bored, and I am so bored of concealing it.Arsenika
Dark Icaro and I enjoying a delicious Pic-Nic for Valentine..s Day... ^_^ ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
"I invite you magnanimously to please be my guest for tea at a room with high standards of taste where the hostess remembers my face and greets me by name at the door and recalls what I've ordered before and inquires kindly after my day, and appreciates all that I say. She'll have orange pekoe for the pot and darjeeling, as likely as not, or if you are not in the pink our hostess knows which herbs to drink, like ginger to help with the grippe mixed with cinnamon and the rose hip; or fresh lemon balm if you wish, perhaps blended with sweet licorice. So whether you feel well or ill, this refreshment will quite fit the bill and, of course, you will quite enjoy me. Yours truly. RSVP" -Aubrey Henslow"...While the heart beats, bruise it - it is your only opportunity; while the eye can still turn towards you with moist,timid entreaty, freeze it with an icy unanswering gaze; while the ear, that delicate messenger to the inmost sanctuary of the soul,can still take in the tones of kindness, put it off with hard civility, or sneering compliment, or envious affectation of indifference; while the creative brain can still throb with the sense of injustice, with the yearning for brotherly recognition - make haste - oppress it with your ill-considered judgements,your trivial comparisons, your careless misrepresentations. The heart will by and by be still - ubi saeva indignatio ulterius cor lacerare nequit; the eye will cease to entreat; the ear will be deaf; the brain will have ceased from all wants as well as from all work. Then your charitable speeches may find vent; then you may remember and pity the toil and the struggle and the failure;then you may give due honour to the work achieved; then you may find extenuation for errors, and may consent to bury them."GEORGE ELIOT, "THE LIFTED VEIL" (Fragment)"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.” Anaïs Nin..+++ ARSENIKA & CRUEL BEAUTY +++ There is no need to understand, when something simply “is”... You are. I am. No comprehension or patience is necessary for such a friendship to bloom and grow and become a part of me I wouldn..t recognize myself without anymore...This is not suppossed to have any sense... but it does. I pity those who are unable to feel and live the meaning of it. "For Cruel Beauty" Arsenika+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ A Bit of Victorian Parlor Humor ++++Miss Bea was in her late 80's and much admired for her sweetness and kindness to all. The pastor came to call on her one afternoon early in the spring, and she welcomed him into her Victorian parlor. She invited him to have a seat while she prepared a little tea.As he sat facing her old pump organ, the minister noticed a crystal glass bowl sitting on top of it filled with water. In the water floated, of all things, a condom. Imagine his shock and surprise. Imagine his curiosity: surely Miss Bea had flipped! But he certainly couldn't mention the strange sight in her parlor.When she returned with tea and cookies they began to chat. The pastor tried to stifle his curiosity about the bowl and its strange floater, but soon it got the best of him, and he could resist no longer."Miss Bea," he said. "I wonder if you would tell me about this," pointing to the bowl. "Oh, yes," she replied, "isn't it wonderful? I was walking down town last fall & found this little package. It said to put it on your organ and keep it wet, and it would prevent disease. And you know, I think it is working. I haven't had a cold all winter!" Taken from www.victoriaspast.comProfile Edited by MPS MySpace Editor 2.0 .."http://www.mypimpspace.com/"Switchblade Symphony - Clown
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The Black Angel
People Iced: Thirty Two
Car Bombs Planted: Twelve
Favorite Weapon Rusty Chain
Arms Broken: None. Pathetic.
Eyes Gouged: Twenty Seven
Tongues Cut Off: Thirteen
Biggest Enemy: Bloody Benny
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My Interests

Writing, Reading, Beauty in all its forms, Day Dreaming.Music, Psychology, Photography, Criminalistics.

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I'd like to meet:

I wouldn..t flattern myself by establishing limits on who I..d like to meet or not... I may find treasures even in the poorest of the souls while finding nothing really valuable in a demi-god..s personality. It..s up to you to decide if I have something you..d like to share...WELCOME!!!! ^^

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Music:

EMILIE AUTUMN AT THE WGT!!!!!CAN SHE BE ANY MORE BEAUTIFUL????

UMBRA ET IMAGO!!!!!!!! ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE!!!!I had the highest expectations about their show... and they exceeded them by far!!!! One of the best shows I've ever been at, in every sense!!! Thank you Mozart!!! Thank you Lutz!!!!,Thanks UMBRA ET IMAGO!!!! I will never forget you!!!!
EMILIE AUTUMN!!! Love her words, her looks, her way of translating pain into the language of beauty and arts... She is absolutely my music... and she goes far beyond music with everything she is...
Also...
Mortal Love
Within Temptation
Switchblade Symphony
London After Midnight
Dreadful Shadows
Theatre of Tragedy
Cinema Strange
Cinderella Effect
Nightwish
Type O Negative
The Birthday Massacre
Christian Death
Sanguis et Cinis
Rasputina
Edith Piaf
MyLucina
Darling Violetta
Shakespeare in Hell
Diary of Dreams
and many more.
...did I mention that I love Emilie Autumn? ^_^
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Movies:

Movies that show any piece of human truth... NOT REALITY, TRUTH!!!!!Notes on a Scandal (Richard Eyre)
Closer (Mike Nichols)
Sense and Sensibility (Ang Lee)
Dead Ringers (David Cronenberg)
Damage (Louis Malle)
Anna and the King (Andy Tennant)
Chocolat (Lasse Hallström)
Crash (David Cronenberg)
Bitter Moon (Roman Polanski)
Henry and June (Philip Kaufman)
Les Enfants du siècle (Diane Kurys)
Pride and Prejudice (Joe Wright)
Secretary (Steven Shainberg)
... and there must be more than I can remember for now...

Television:


HOUSE MD.!!!!!!! Lucky me he is just a fictious character, for I would lose my head for such a man... *sigh*
Sex and the City, Nip Tuck, Lost... some cartoons like animaniacs and some japanese anime.pucca
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Books:

..A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.(Oscar Wilde)One should either be a work of art, or wear a work of art.(Oscar Wilde)Society often forgives the criminal; it never forgives the dreamer.(Oscar Wilde)Civilization is not by any means an easy thing to attain to. There are only two ways by which man can reach it. One is by being cultured, the other by being corrupt.(O.Wilde)The dreamer whose dreams are non-utilitarian has no place in this world. In this world the poet is anathema, the thinker a fool, the artist an escapist, the man of vision a criminal.(Henry Miller)It is never too late to be what you might have been.(George Eliot)We are such stuff as dreams are made on, and our little life, is rounded with a sleep. [The Tempest] (William Shakespeare)"The Four-Chambered Heart" "Henry & June" and "Diaries" by Anaïs Nin
"Perfume" by Patrick Süskind
"Pride and Prejudice" and "Sense and Sensibility" by Jane Austen
"Elle Et Lui" by George Sand
"The Second Sex" by Simone de Beauvoir
"Lady Chatterley..s lover" and "The Plumed serpent" by D.H. Lawrence...
I always seem to go back to them for more...

Heroes:

My Own Hero... The only one I..ve met who really deserves the word..., for better or for worse. DARK ICARO.

My Blog

ELISA V

ELISA Part V     There is a ghost... a ghost more frightening than any floating-lost-soul-after-death to be found in an old house's cellar... a ghost that I believe to be haunting almost eve...
Posted by Arsenika on Wed, 20 Jun 2007 11:30:00 PST

ELISA

This is the story of a dreamer... not much about the facts of her daily life, but kind of a "diary of thougths" born out of her loneliness while she waits for love to finally touch her life... Ho...
Posted by Arsenika on Sun, 10 Dec 2006 02:01:00 PST

Elisa, part IV

ELISA Part IV     Just as I feared, my heart came back to life in the most violent sentimental outburst& My sleeping mind betrayed me last night setting me inside one of those dreams so rea...
Posted by Arsenika on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 10:25:00 PST

Old Dolls

If the time has passed for me to playI wonder why I feel the same need of games. I know my skin will not let me fool them for much longerMy eyes look already tiredBut still I play as if anythingbeneat...
Posted by Arsenika on Tue, 06 Mar 2007 08:36:00 PST

Elisa, Part III

Every now and then, I wake up with a dead heart. I can tell it is one of those occasions because out of the sudden, I see it all so clearly. Everything has sense. Every little detail matches. It feels...
Posted by Arsenika on Fri, 09 Feb 2007 07:50:00 PST

Calm Waters

Calm waters are sweet and poison to me... in time. Among peace my skin turns gray, my mind bitter, my heart restless... I need to dance between the flames. To burn or not to burn. That is the question...
Posted by Arsenika on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 04:09:00 PST

? ? ? You will forget me... ? ? ?

You will forget me, ´cause as I want to be held you want to be held, and as I´m tired of holding other´s hearts you´ll soon be tired of holding mine...   You will forget me, I´ll be a tiny dot wi...
Posted by Arsenika on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 09:44:00 PST

Lock me up

Lock me up... for I rather be a prisoner than to accept this conditional freedom which is not free at all... Lock me up... for I hardly bear the ugliness of the outside; the bawdy bawlers... the obese...
Posted by Arsenika on Wed, 10 Jan 2007 10:02:00 PST

? ? ? ELISA ? ? ? part two

+++ ELISA +++   Part two At the present, life is so quiet and empty that my mind has been forced to reanimate the past within itself with images and meanings rescued from my never silent memorie...
Posted by Arsenika on Fri, 15 Dec 2006 08:01:00 PST

+++ INTRO +++

Hello... This is one more of the thousand uses and excuses I give to my writing... I don´t know if I love to write because I need it, or if I need to write because I love it... but I can´t stop d...
Posted by Arsenika on Wed, 25 Oct 2006 07:53:00 PST