Caroline

I thought it was about time I updated my about me, as so much has happened over the past year, so many situations finally resolved and starting a new chapter in life, so my old ‘about me’ was starting to make very little sense with how things are now………
Abandoned, unloved, chaos, anger, sadness, loneliness, forgotten, crushed, intrusion, cast aside, hate, lost, isolated, resentment, why? Who? Confused, depression, lies, tragedy, disappointment, emptiness, frightened, sick, cursed,13, mistake, run away, horrifying, questioning, repeating, bastard, deceit, pervert, Trojan horse, nightmares, non caring, self centered, invisible, hateful, spineless, bitter, let down, evil, true colors, wastE of space, coward, inconsolable, manufactured, suicide tendencies, struggle, exhausted, frustrated, tiring, REVENGE …..
My past has been fully disposed of, I refuse to go into greater detail (as it will be rather long and boring, and I simply can’t be arsed) so the above 55 or so words should sum it up perfectly……
I thought it was about time I gave myself a severe kick up the butt, and stopped wallowing in my own self pity and forced myself to start achieving my goals/dreams, I spent soooo long feeling sorry for myself and thinking I’d never get anywhere, so this past 6 months I’ve been dealing with unfinished business, unanswered questions, and picking up pieces that people have kindly left behind for me to sort out – but anyway I’m not going to ramble about that, that’s all sorted out now.
music is still my passion, I’m now writing my own lyrics but how good they really are I’m not too sure lol, I’m not drumming as much now because I’m going to be playing synths/keyboards instead, I’m hopefully getting cubase in the new year and put all the skills I’ve learnt so far together and start getting some tracks done and get my life in order, so next year will be a very exciting and busy year for me. I’ve finally got that clean slate I always wanted, I’ve started a new chapter in my life now, the past is in the past and well behind me. I’m mentally in a more relaxed place and just want to enjoy life, meet some nice girls and just live my life, its weird because now I’m not being held back and allowed to be myself and live by my own rules I haven’t the foggiest idea what I’m going to do with myself now lol hmmm so I’m taking life as it comes and enjoy it, part of my new outlook is my fitness regime which I’ve been doing for quite a while now, its another thing I’ve become extremely passionate about, I’m now mentally fit and healthy I want the same thing to be said physically and look extremely hot at the same time lol
So….. That’s me – the new me. I’ll probably update it further over the cause of the next few weeks but that’s all I can be bothered to do for now, I hope it gives a good indication of where I’m at now and of the new Caroline, if you have any queries about anything just message me.