Nathan means Good.

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i'm back in the city.
i have my own language. it's called Nathanese. it's more a dialect i suppose. maybe if you are nice you will hear it someday. i am usually inappropriate. i can be terribly shy and awkward. or i can be a raving lunatic jackass making a fool of myself. i'm okay with either. i can talk for hours about interesting things, or not say anything for just as long. i tend to be any two dialectic forces you can think of simultaneously. i get in trouble for making snarky comments. i've also been told my actions in public can be embarrassing. i've never quite understood how my silliness can embarrass anyone but me. apparently i steal peoples' drinks. but really, i'm just tidying up. i can have a caustic wit at times, but that's just because life is ridiculous deserves to be exposed. i'm kind of obsessed with on kawara and egon schiele. i get bored easily, but that's probably because there just aren't that many interesting things left. i am easily entertained. i've been playing music since i was four. i hate going to shows. again, the whole lack of good music around now. plus they just make me angry. unless they're friends of mine. i have high expectations. both of myself and of others. i recently started drinking coffee for the first time. i don't like fish, but i'll eat it if it's prepared well. i strive for balance. i'm very environmentally influenced. if the room's cluttered my head's cluttered. i'm terrible with details. i feel like anything i can look up isn't necessary to remember. i can't hear lyrics in a song unless i specifically try to listen to the words. to me, vocals are just another instrument. it's like trying to pick out the individual notes played in a guitar line. it's weird. kind of annoying. the only way i can remember a song i wrote is if i videotape myself playing it. just listening to an audio recording at a later date doesn't trigger any sort of recall of how i played it in the first place. also annoying. the details of my day to day perceptions, thoughts, likes, dislikes, etc. changes at whim, but the underlying themes and philosophies remain constant. i'm good at figuring things out. and other stuff..
this is my stuff. i make pictures and videos and music and t-shirts and animations and stuff. i need to rework it and put more stuff up, but i hate html and i'm not very good at it. which is funny because people pay me to make them websites.
here's a film i did: sarah
here's another one: bloc d'enchére
i'm writing a script so i can make a little narrative film. i need to find actors. but not shitty actors. i seem to have somehow avoided all the actor circles. i only know musicians for some reason. bad actors are bad.
dear actors: don't be bad. thanks, nathan.
say hi if you want to make something.i conspired to lose my job last spring, which was fricking great. now the department of labor tells me i can still do freelance jobs and legally collect unemployment, as long as i'm not working full time. sometimes i love the government. UPDATE: My unemployment ran out. I hate the government.
my parents own a campground. i went to clown school. i have my original NES. i used to play guitar in a band called bastion . but then howie quit cause he sucks big fat donkey scrotus.
ps, i'm fucking awesome.. aim- alienate14