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Joshua

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About Me

only through struggle have i found rest
with a piece of me taken away
i begin to understand
hollow out this machine like chest
with its gears that turn to make me feel
and assembled thoughts that fade away
remove from me
this deception that i called love

+ :The warm smell of chamomile tea before the cup hits my lips. The origional NES Legend of Zelda music. The smell of burning wood in crisp air. Jo.
- :Life. Humanity. Going to bed. Waking up. Lies. Drugs. Dishonor.
About me:
I'm a 4.0 student, I'm nothing like you would expect me to be. I like video games, i like computers, I love to read. I love flowers, walks in the rain, at one point I really liked romance. I adore cute little animals.
I love going out into the country alone and hitting 170+ mph. One of the only things that calms me is betting my life against skill, road conditions, and luck.
If I two wishs, one of them would be for society to be destroyed, and rebuilt in a positive life. For humanity to focus on a common goal, for happiness and care to be the driving factors instead of selfishness and greed. That, would be the day I could step out of my house again and enjoy life instead of waiting to die. I suppose that's a big part of why I like a lot of zombies movies--- the humanity that is born out of the worlds destruction is beautiful.

On my back with scavengers above.
The scent of carrion - rotting love.
Master your fear.

My Interests



Motorcycles, zombies, cars, video games, computers, fashion, hair, music, art, reading, records, good food, being outside in beautiful weather, snowboarding, walking in the rain, sushi, different languages, guitars, education.

I'd like to meet:

People that understand the injustice in modern society, the cancer killing us all. People that work for change and fight to make life better. Those ready to die for their beliefs.
and him

Music:

new wave, hardcore, metal, drum and bass, old country (ie- Johnny Cash). Bands I like include The Faint, Unearth, Most Precious Blood, Bury Your Dead, All that Remains, As I Lay Dying, New Order, The Cure, Deadbolt, Darkest Hour, Frank Black, Nick Cave, Tom Waits, Mac Lethal, Sage Francis, Pendulum, Muddy Waters, Johnny Cash, The Cranberries, Joan Jett, etc...

Movies:

Romero and Fulci's zombie movies... and zombie movies in general. The Evil Dead trilogy, Usual Suspects, Lost Highway, Lilo and Stitch, , The Stand, Ichi the Killer, FF7 Advent Children, I like horror movies a lot. I try and watch one new horror movie a night as I'm going to sleep, with a goal to see every zombie movie made. I've seen ALMOST every American one (even low budget ones I tracked down) and now I've moved onto foreign ones. By 2010 I hope to have tracked down every one on my list.

Television:

I don't really watch TV.

Books:

I like Neil Gaiman quite a bit (Neverwhere, American Gods, Anansi Boys, Stardust) The Army of Darkness comic books are awesome, but that stems from liking Bruce Campbell (Check out his book Make Love! The Bruce Campbell Way). The Wheel of Time series by Robert Jordan is on my current reading list... and has been for a while. The series is something like 15,000 pages. I'm about halfway through all that now.

Heroes:

my grandfather

My Blog

Back from KS

Jo and I got back from 4th of July crap with my family in Kansas... there's a bunch of pictures but here's a few of them.  We are the best.1)  Jo making faces and lighting the street on fire...
Posted by Joshua on Sat, 07 Jul 2007 06:31:00 PST

Oh noes syrups!

Ok ok.  So the last few days I've had this weird on and off sick feeling.  Not a bug or anything, I'm thinking I missed out in something with my diet... being really super dizzy when I stand...
Posted by Joshua on Sat, 09 Jun 2007 12:58:00 PST

Good week!

School was much less stressful this week... only a couple more weeks before the quarter is over.  It's been a lot of work but doing some really cool stuff I think.  Things are going REALLY w...
Posted by Joshua on Fri, 08 Jun 2007 10:34:00 PST

The crazy thing a-sploded.

I'm sitting outside in my back yard now, eating a kickass little meal I made myself with a cup of coffee and the laptop.  It's super super nice outside!  I had a way busy week... busy but ab...
Posted by Joshua on Fri, 01 Jun 2007 11:04:00 PST

Memorial day shit...

What really annoys me about today is the selfishness and military support of today.   What a perversion of the initial meaning--- I don't like the fact we've had US soldiers die.  I don...
Posted by Joshua on Mon, 28 May 2007 12:25:00 PST

Flowers (May 26)

Here's part of what's in my house and yard now... bonus points to anyone who knows what the one in the bottom right is (and it's what I'm most excited about)......
Posted by Joshua on Sun, 27 May 2007 07:14:00 PST

Zombies....

woohoo!We're playing soon!
Posted by Joshua on Fri, 18 May 2007 12:56:00 PST

Oh lordy where to start

Rainbow Six: Vegas, Busted up necks, School Stress, Movie Reviews and a pocket full of jewels for the fact machine.Rainbow Six: Vegas is pretty much great.  I expected a sort of cool tactical sho...
Posted by Joshua on Wed, 09 May 2007 01:36:00 PST

UT junk

Here's what I spent today working on... redoing lighting, textures, and static mesh crap... some models are mine, some aren't, same with textures... but tell me which lighting you all like better... I...
Posted by Joshua on Mon, 07 May 2007 07:53:00 PST

/sigh

What an absolutely awful night.That's all I'm going to say.  I had a horrid night.  I'm in a piss poor mood. 
Posted by Joshua on Sun, 06 May 2007 10:11:00 PST