reidr

I used to sort of go around, doing my thing, faking myself into believing in one reality tunnel or another. I've half done a lot of things most people wouldn't have, but never enough to actually understand one anything completely (if you ever can).I used to be pretty confident, after having lived at the bottom of the abyss for so long you think you can take on anything. Now that I look back I know there are parts of software on board - additional programs that came piggy backed along in the installation with other ones that have become me, viruses that have stolen a little corner of most of the main .exe files. I've realised that there are parts of my hardware that are totally missing, taken in the frenzy of dealing with life, that can't be replaced.So I figure mainly is that I'll spend the rest of my life trying to reprogram all the bugs in my system.Most of the shit in my life I've thought was worthwhile wasting my time on, I've realised isn't, and most of the stuff thats always seemed too hard to pursue now seems like the only.If you want a vague idea of what I'll be doing over the next 20years or so, read Undoing Yourself by Christopher S Hyatt, it'll give you a vague reason to not be pissed with me when i seem disappeared. It's about time I re-read it too.Sweet Dreams x Hope you make your life worthwhile (whatever that means to you)