WELL WHERE SHOULD I START?
I JUST MOVED UPTO MELBOURNE FROM MY BEAUTIFUL HOME TORQUAY, DONT ASK ME WHY? AND I NO I NO IM CRAZY! BUT WHEN THINGS HAVE TO BE DONE THEY JUST HAVE TO BE DONE.......
WELL I WAS BORN IN G-TOWN BACK IN THE DAY.......I'VE ALWAYS (TIL NOW) LIVED ALONG THE COAST WITH MY FAMILY MUM, HER BOYF ANDREW AND MY BROTHER AND SISTER, TREVOR & BELINDA, TIL WEN I WAS 9 MY MUM PASSED AWAY OF CANCER, GOD BLESS HER SOUL, SHE WAS A SAINT! THATS WHEN I WENT TO TORQUAY TO LIVE WITH MY NANA, SHIRL, AND MY PA, GORDIE. HE PASSED AWAY ASWELL WHEN I TURNED 14 THATS WHEN I WENT A LITTLE CRAZY AND STARTED DOING DRUGS, RUNNING AWAY FROM HOME, DRINKING PIERCINGS, I WENT ALL OUT IN THE TEENAGE REBELLION DEPARTMENT!! TWAS A HOOT, DONT GET ME WRONG BUT I NO NOW THAT IT WAS A MISTAKE! I WAS SHIPPED BETWEEN DIFFERENT FAMILY MEMBERS AND FRIENDS, I SPENT A BRIEF MOMENT IN TIME IN A REFUGE FOR YOUTH AND DHS SENT ME TO WINCHELSEA TO LIVE WITH MY EVIL AUNTY AND UNCLE, JEFF AND KAYE
IT WAS THERE THAT I REALISED THAT I NEEDED MY NANA TO HELP ME GROW UP PROPERLY, BUT OFCOURSE I STUFFED UP AGAIN, I WAS FINE FOR LIKE 2 YEARS BUT WHAM!! THEN I MET A BOY, I LOVED RYAN TO DEATH HE WAS MY KNIGHT IN SHINING, YET SLIPPERY, ARMOUR. AND OFCOURSE WHEN THINGS STARTED TO GET TRAGIC WITH MY NANA, AND I NEEDED TO STAY WITH HIM HE GOT ALL FREAKED OUT AND "CLAUSTROPHOBIC" SO ONCE AGAIN I WAS FUCKED!
MY SIS BINDI TOOK ME IN FOR A WEEK, TEACHING ME THE CLUBBERS ROPES, TAKING ME OUT, FEEDING ME BIKKIES TIL I DROPPED ON THE DANCE FLOOR, SHIZZBANGA OF A TIME! SHE KILLED HERSELF IN AUGUST LAST YEAR.......I HATE IT....I HATE THAT SHE THOUGHT THAT NO ONE COULD HELP HER, I HOPE TO GOD THAT SHE WAS JUST HAVING A BAD COME DOWN AND SHE DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO, BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. I KNOW SHE FELT LIKE IT HAD TO HAPPEN AND I KNOW THAT SHE COULD HAVE BACKED OUT AT ANYMOMENT BUT NOTHING REALLY SOOTHES THE PAIN THAT IM ALMOST TOO ASHAMED TO SHOW. LIKE I TELL EVERYONE THAT I NEVER LET THIS SHIT GET ME DOWN, AND I ALWAYS GROW FROM IT, BUT ITS ALL BULLSHIT
IT HURTS WRITING THIS BUT ID NEVER LET ANYONE KNOW, ID NEVER TELL ANYONE THE TRUTH OR GOD FORBID SHOW ANYONE HOW IM REALLY FEELING. THE ONLY REASON WHY IM SAYING IT NOW IS COZ NOBODY READS THIS SHIT, NO ONE HAS THE TIME SO ITS LIKE GETTING IT OFF MY CHEST BUT NOT HAVEING TO WORRY ABOUT IT GETTING BACK TO PEOPLE OR ANYTHING...ILL JUST KEEP ACTING LIKE IM A HULK AND NOTHIN CAN BREAK ME DOWN,LIKE NOT EVEN THE FACT THAT IM CRAZY IN LOVE WITH THE ONE PERSON I NO I CAN NEVER HAVE ALL TO MYSELF, BUT ILL KEEP SHARING, I NO I WAS DELT A PRETTY BAD HAND AND SHIT IV WRITTEN HERE IS NOTHING COMPARED TO THE WHOLE STORY. BUT I'LL KEEP PLAYING ALONG ALONG WITH IT ALL AND HOPEFULLY IT WILL ALL FALL INTO PLACE.....SEE HA I DONT EVEN TRY TO HELP MYSELF!!
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