~JESUS IS MY LORD AND SAVIOR!!!!

RIGHT NOW IM IN A PLACE IN MY LIFE WHERE I'M CHANGING ALOT OF THINGS ABOUT WHAT I USE TO DO SMOKING, DRINKING, MY ATTITUDE TOWARDS THINGS AND PEOPLE,HANGING OUT AT CLUBS,AND REALLY NOT DEALING WITH PEOPLE THAT I KNOW DON'T CARE ANYTHING ABOUT ME. THIS YEAR IS ALL ABOUT ANTONEAL AND GETTING MY LIFE TOGEHTER IF YOU DONT LIKE IT "OH WELL" IM REALLY NOT CONSERN ABOUT WHAT ANYONE THINKS ABOUT WHAT IM DOING . I'M NOW A WARRIOR FOR THE LORD NOW (GOD!!!!)AND I NO LONGER DO THE THINGS I USE TO DO. AND IM TRYING TO FOCUS ON GETTING TO KNOW ME BETTER AND GETTING TO KNOW MORE ABOUT MY LORD AND SAVIOR. IM ALSO NO LONGER GOING TO PUT UP FRONTS FOR NOONE. I KNOW AFTER ALOT PEOPLE READ THIS THEY ARE GOING TO BE LIKE YEAH RIGHT, THAT HOW BAD I USE TO TO BE YEAH USE TO!!! BUT IM SERIOUS. IM REALLY NOT UP HERE LOOKING FOR ANYONE MAYBE A COUPLE OF FRIENDS BUT THATS IT. NEA IS GONE ANTONEAL IS BACK STAY SWEET PEOPLE!!!!!Layout made byMy world is an open book.You just have to ask the right question to get to the right page.Take your time while reading in between the lines.For people look in my eyes and often misread me.Seeing and hearing what they please.As I tease them with an undescribed image.My visions are random and even I at times can..t find the road of such intentions.Just like a book I can..t be judge by my cover.Don..t read too deep into my introduction.Cause I can..t be judge by my introduction or by reading a cover or two.You need more insight then that, you must finish my life existence of rhetoric.But can you finish a never ending story.So it seems no one can understand me,my mystery might be solved by my death.But I..m still editing the story I..m leaving and how can you know me without knowingmy name.You don..t know me.Don..t even know the title of the story I live.Can..t feel the dreaded chill of pain.Can..t take the heat of theflames,which ignite my shame.You can..t know the game I play cause you can..t figure out the rules.See the jewels,which shine between the pages,which illustrate the plain indifferent face on the cover.The nonchalant stare in my eyes you imagine after each flipped page.You maybe right to know I don..t care.I live with no fears and lost the ability to shed tears as you continue to read through the pages.You can feel that my most consistent feeling is apathy as your fingertips guide you from word to word.As each chapter passes, can you vision I wear no smile of frown on my quest for the crown.I know the darkness of my face fools you.But I..m no clown making up my face in falsehood.I won..t disguise,won..t dress up or cover up my true reflection with the distorting colors this shallow society dares to paint present day reality with.The layer I rarely show is my gift.I give others the curse.But keep reading as you think what you want and taint my image because your pondering with selectiveness due to your condition.Don..t build skyscrapers on the foundation of assumptions and worship them as true as you follow along the paragraphs.I know you..ll believe what you wish but the fact remains I drive you crazy with curiosity because as you read you seem to realize you..ll never know.As I stated I..m a woman of a never-ending story that..s not based on fantasy or any other true story.Don..t be scared to pick my mind and read in between the lines to find some clarity,some closure.I..m truth,I..m sincerity,I..m unaffected,unknown and mysterious is what you come to