i have done a lot for being so young. ive been to hell and back and back again, still working on myself. i have four very important women in my life, my mother linda, my sister erin my niece angelina, and my dog sugar.i was born and raised in california, consider myself privaliged. i dont know how to spell, kind of strangely proud of that, adds character. through out my life i have been in and out of mental hospitals, which i hate, but seem to end up there. i was emancipated at the age of 15, and with out the help of friends that i still have, and friends that have come and gone, i would not have been able to deal as well as i dealt with the situations life sent me. i have lived in indiana, vegas, oregon, texas, ohio, but my home is deffinately where my heart is , in san diego. i am a cutter, have been since the age of 20, but have been self injuring since the age of 10 .i have done many things, and searched for anything to help me, but there is not much out there. besides i would rather talk to another who has felt the pain, the humility, the feeling of uncertainty that i have felt, than to sit in a chair and talk to a person whos vocabulary consissed only of 7 words,"and how does that make you feel." i dont fuckin know.i have been doing interviews on it, been in a documentary, the secret cut,and kusi, stuff w florida also speak at a school up north hope to do more.it is very serious, and i would like to get it out of secretsy and let others know that its ok, and there are others out there who where there pain, there anger , there, confusion, there, grief on there exterior. ive learned life is short, sometimes it feels long, but the best feeling in the world is happiness. with me happiness doesnt come all the time, but when it does, i embrase the light and warmth that it shines down on me.
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